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Finns POV
When I wake up, San has her head on my chest and I'm pretty tired. I guess after like the 3rd round I stopped thinking about Rachel. I felt bad the first 3 times so I just kept going, Santana didn't have any complaints, but then I realized that it's probably just the thrill of the chase. I mean I don't know Rachel and not knowing is always mysterious. That has to be what it is, because when I think about her the feeling I get is like I've known her my whole life. I wake up Santana and she smiles and me and tells me she loves, I reply back with the same endearment. The ride to school is cool, San won't let go of my hand and she has been smiling the whole ride. At least I know today is going to go by smoothly, which is good for everyone that has to come in contact with her.
I hear Kurt yelling at us, I'm sure it's about last night but when I look up to respond to him...there she is, Rachel, I didn't know Kurt knew her. I didn't think it was possible but she looked even more beautiful when my eyes locked into her my heart started to pound. I forgot that Santana was holding my hand but I when I realized it I wanted to tear away from her. I don't know what that means but for some reason I didn't want her to see me and Santana together. It feels like I'm cheating on her and I've never been spoken more than 10 words. I should feel bad that I have these feelings toward her and that I'm with Santana but instead I just feel like I'm lying to myself, that my hands should be intertwined with Rachel's. Yesterday when I shook her hand I never wanted to let go, but I also didn't want to freak her out.
I walk Santana to her class and kiss her, she looks up at me and whispers "I truly love you Finn." Makes me feel absolutely horrible, I've got to stop thinking about Rachel and focus on us, me and Sanny. I quickly remember that my last class is with her, I have to figure out a way to get through that while fighting the urge to kiss her. I sound insane about a girl I don't even know, maybe I should just text Kurt and see what he has to say, she might have a boyfriend and then maybe finally I could get her out of my head.
Most of the day goes by normal, just in case though when I saw Kurt I turned and went another direction just by chance they were together again. Santana thought I was insane by last period running and taking the long way to every class. After dropping her off at her class I ran to my last period. My heart was going a mile a minute and running didn't help that. When I walk in the classroom I look over and there she is, every plan I had to forget about her went out the window I walked over and somewhere between the door and my seat it faded away. I had to talk to her I don't care about the consequences.
"We didn't get to talk a lot yesterday, are you new?" I ask her. "Um, no actually I've lived in Lima my whole life." She says and turns away quickly. Real smooth Finn, tell a girl you haven't noticed her that is definitely going to give you a chance. "Wow I am so sorry that makes me sound like the biggest jerk, well if it matters I'm glad I met you now." I hope that came out as smooth and it sounded in my head. She turns and it's a weird silence for a second. "It does matter, I'm very glad we got a chance to meet this year." She puts her hand on my knee, a sensation shot up my spine. I don't know what this girl is doing to me, but those fireworks I dreamed about seeing this year. I just saw them, being around Rachel I see them every second.