Morgana stirred, she was hot and sweaty. She felt caged in, opening her eyes she saw Merlins arms wrapped tightly around her, her head was still on his chest where she had left it. When she concentrated she could feel his heart beating in his chest. And that's when it sank in, the feeling of guilt. Leon, she felt as if someone had punched her in the stomach, what have I done? She questioned herself.
Their relationship was a new thing and different from her and Merlin. She knew that he loved her, he had for many years and she thought it was logical at the time to begin a relationship. Ever since though he had become overbearing and craved the need for public affection, a need that Morgana had never had herself. It was exactly like the moment he went to kiss her last night in the pub, she was terrified with the idea of her love life being public knowledge.
She had been going out with Leon a month before she even thought about sleeping with him, she wouldn't kid herself by saying he was bad. He was athletics and in bed chose similar routines to relieve stress. This had become a chore to her now as she fit into his routine of sex once a week and sometimes twice. The average session lasted little more than ten minutes and lacked the passion a couple should have. It lacked the passion she and Merlin had. Sex with Leon was fast and emotionless, like a business transition there was no ripping clothes off in the hungry need to be with each other, there was no intimacy only the sex.
She frowned to herself, always in the same position too, it was a petty thing to think about but a girl can only take so much laying down while a man thrusts.
She had been kidding herself thinking the relationship was going to work, she had to end it and quickly. She couldn't let Leon be hurt anymore than he needed to be.
Merlin fidgeted in his sleep, loosening his grip on Morgana, she lifted her head off his chest and kissed it gently. She worked her way to his neck and he moaned slightly, rubbing his eyes and lifting his head up.
"Do you always wake up in such a good mood?" He asked, surprisingly happy, he must be a morning person Morgana thought.
"Nope, but for some reason I cannot stop smiling" she whispered, he let out small laugh.
"I wonder why that is" he said mockingly "thank you for waking me up."
Morgana looked confused "your thanking me for waking you up?" She questioned looking at his dishevelled hair.
"I'm thanking you for the way you did it." He replied, lifting himself up into a sitting position. "Breakfast?" He asked and she nodded.
He listed himself up and picked up a pair of boxers from the floor, slipping the on he looked at Morgana "take what you need" he said as he opened the door and walked into the apartment. The door closed behind him and she exhaled loudly, she walked towards the dresser and picked a pair of red boxers and a black top to cover her naked body. She smiled and made he way into the kitchen.
The door closed behind Merlin and he sighed. Shit, what am I going to do? He thought to himself, knowing that he had cheated on his long term girlfriend with his best friends sister. He had no idea how to fix this, someone was going to get hurt. He could end it with Freya, but he would lose and long term friend. He would lose Morgana if her ended it with her and be stuck with the guilt, knowing he had cheated.
Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit! His mind screamed at him, I have to come clean, he thought. That would be the only way to make this work.
He made his way to the kitchen to focus on breakfast instead, he picked up the carton of eggs and some cheese and spinach. Omelette, simple and easy to cook. The sound of the door opening behind him startled him and he watched as Gwaine walked out of his room, holding his head.
"My head..." He managed "coffee"
Merlin laughed at him and switched the coffee machine on, it made the normal buzz sound and Merlin started to beat his eggs in a bowl while his pan heated up.
"Omelette?" Merlin asked Gwaine and he nodded.
"Good night?" Gwaine asked trying to sound inconspicuous, raising an eyebrow at Merlin.
"Yeah I guess so" Merlin answered quickly trying to deflect the question.
"It defiantly sounded like a good night, when I came in." He laughed.
Merlin hushed him "shhhhh" as he cheeks flashed pink.
"Merlin there is really no need to be shy" Gwaine said smugly.
The door opened behind them and Gwaine smiled "good morning..." He trailed of when he turned to see Morgana standing in the doorway wearing one of Merlins shirts "Morgana" he finished.
Morgana's cheeks flashed pink as she strode into the kitchen and sat next to Gwaine.
"Good morning" she muttered, taking a sip of the coffee that Merlin had placed in front of her.
"Did you have a good night sleep?" Gwaine asked quickly, sipping at his coffee.
"I did thank you" she replied, Merlin turned and smiled at her, she returned his smile.
She pursed her lips and looked down at the table, the tune of Nirvana's smells like teen spirit blasted through the apartment , she got up quickly and grabbed her phone from her bag.
She put it to her ear quickly "hello" she responded automatically.
Arthur's worried voice croaked at her down the phone "Morgana, are you ok? I've been trying to get hold of you since last night, Merlin said you were staying at his."
"I'm fine Arthur" she articulated louder, Merlin looked back at her with a worried expression. "I would have returned your call sooner but I just couldn't face it and no need to worry, Merlin has been the perfect gentleman." Merlin and Gwaine both looked a her suddenly, Gwaine burst into laughter.
"Gentleman? Only if gentlemen sleep with their sisters best..." He was cut off by Merlin jumping on him, pushing him off the chair. He landed n the floor with a thud and they fumbled around on the floor for a few minutes.
"What was that?" Arthur asked and Morgana looked at them fumbling around on the floor, she tried to think of a good enough response.
"Ohh that was just Gwaine, he fell off his chair. I think he's still drunk."
Arthur laughed down the phone and Merlin gave her a quick smile. Morgana walked back into the kitchen, stepping over the two boys and perching herself on the chair.
She took a sip of her coffee and listened to Arthur talk down the phone "Morgana I was worried last night, it was irresponsible of you to walk off. You could have walked into the freak and this time how do we know that I would have been there to rescue you."
"How heroic of you" Morgana said mockingly, rolling her eyes "he's not like that anyway." She finished
Arthur replied loudly, his voice echoing down the phone "How could you say that Morgana? How could you possibly know what he's like?"
Morgana laughed in annoyance before snapping "I think I know him a lot better than you Arthur or do I have to remind you of the details? I know it's hard for you to understand but he does love me."
"That isn't love Morgana" he voiced, she looked around at Gwaine and Merlin who were trying not to look as if they had been eavesdropping, which they were doing unintentionally. The raised voices meant they didn't need to.
"I know it's hard for you to understand Arthur but he does love me and in his mind I love him back" she started "I don't want to get in a debate about this."
Arthur paused before saying "Leon's been trying to call, he's worried sick."
Morgana felt a twinge of guilt "I'll call him in a minute" she said quickly, looking at Merlin as he poured the egg mixture into a hot pan. He listened to the sizzle at he contact with the warm butter.
"I called dad" Arthur said simply.
"You called Uther!" She nearly shouted "what on earth possessed you to do such a thing?"
"I was worried and he has a right to know, he's our father."
"Arthur he was there for you your whole life, you knew him. I was introduced to him when I was thirteen and expected to accept him as my father."
"Talk to him, today at lunch"
Morgana sighed like a child "fine"
"I'll text you the details" Arthur said, the hope in his voice "goodbye Morgana."
She hung up the phone and placed it on the table. Gwaine looked at her with a reassuring smile.
"I should go" she said quickly, rising to her feet.
Merlin turned and looked at her "you don't have to"
Morgana smiled at him "we've both got lot to think about Merlin, I don't want to be in your way."
She made her way into Merlins bedroom and allowed the door to close behind her, Merlin and Gwaine looked at each other in shock.
"What just happened?" Merlin asked and Gwaine shrugged at him.
"What a woman." Gwaine said slowly.