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Ok so this chapter takes place a month from where my last chapter took off. I hope people won't mind the time jump but this chapter is taking place on the eve of Chuck and Sarah's renewal of vows. I hope you guys enjoy and over the next couple of chapters the secrets will be coming out, however not in the way some may imagine. Enjoy.

Chapter 21 – The Letter To Shock All

4 weeks had passed and all the planning and preparation for their upcoming 2nd wedding was now about to be put into action, it was the eve of their renewal of vows. Surprisingly over the course of the past 4 weeks the two of them had been coping well with their respective secrets, merely putting it off telling the other but it had to come out sooner or later and both of them made a promise to each other never to lie and this was something they didn't want to break. Both of them were set on telling one another about the secret they had been keeping, however it was certainly easier said than done. Their renewal of vows were set to take place somewhere that meant an incredible amount to both of them, a place where it all started…the Beach. It was nearly 10pm and Ellie and Devon had come over from Chicago and Verbanski and Casey were set to land in 20mins time from Asia. Chuck had gone to greet them and was hoping to catch a few mins with them before they got to Burbank. Casey sussed out that Sarah hadn't killed a ring agent that night and Verbanski found out too via Casey, these were the only two people in the world he could talk to. Waiting for them to come from baggage reclaim Chuck got a call from Morgan.

'Chuck, is everything in hand?'

'Yes, it's all ready for tomorrow. All we need is our family around us and we'll be happy. Just meeting the two at the airport.'

'Casey and Verbanski?'

'Yeh. They have been in Asia on a mission for a while now, first I seen them since we went our separate ways.'

'Well once you got them back to Burbank we need to talk.'

'About what Morgan?'

'You know what Chuck. It's been a month now.'

'Stop it ok, I will don't worry. But right now I spotted them coming out, I've gotta go. I'll see you tomorrow ok?'

With that Chuck ended the call and waiting for Casey and Verbanski to reach him. With a smile on his face, Chuck greeted the two, who managed to sneak away from their mission for a few days.

'Guys I am so glad you could make it, I really thought you wouldn't show.'

'Of course we'd show, now take us to a car and get us to Burbank, I am shattered. Did I mention I wasn't keen on flying?' Verbanski replied.

The trio headed back to Burbank all the while Sarah was back home at the apartment with Ellie. Morgan and Ellie had both sussed that something was being held back, neither of them knew what or why. But with their 2nd wedding just hours away it was now or never to finally get them to come clean. Morgan and Ellie had been talking over the past week, discussing their suspicions trying to get the other to open up. Pouring some wine, Ellie sat beside Sarah who was getting all eager to see Chuck the next day at the beach. She remembered being this happy on her wedding day, it was happening again. When she first found the dress she liked, she was overcome with emotion. This time was no different.

'So I can see your really getting excited for tomorrow.'

'Ellie, I can't wait. Our wedding was just perfect and now we get to relive it, it's more then I imagined.'

'I am so happy for you two. And the beach…it's the perfect place, I know how special it is to you two. Everything already then?'

'Yep, everything is sorted. Now all we have to do is show up tomorrow.'

'There is something else left to do.'

Sarah knew where Ellie was going, she put down her glass and got up. Covering her head in her hands Sarah knew she had to tell him. There was just no way she was going into this 2nd wedding with this secret, of everything their relationship is based on, honesty is among the top.

'Ellie I will, I promise.'

'You can tell me as well, might help get it off your chest.'

'I know but Chuck has to be the first to know.'

'Of course. I hope this just doesn't wreck anything but for curiosity sakes….you and Chuck, please tell me you will be fine?'

That was a question Sarah couldn't guarantee. When she tells Chuck, she had no idea which way he would take it and telling him would risk their entire relationship but in her heart she hoped against all that they would find common ground and he would understand. She couldn't lay out her in securities to Ellie and had to lie, something she hated now.

'Ellie, me and Chuck will be fine. There is nothing that can break me and your brother.'

'Good because what you two have is so special.'

Meanwhile with Chuck….

He had just dropped Casey and Verbanski off at a hotel and Chuck was itching to talk to Casey. Not knowing Verbanski knew, he tried to pull Casey aside.

'Casey, can I borrow you for one moment?'

'I know what you're going to say Chuck, and you can tell me right here. She knows.'

'What, so that's 2 people who know before my wife.'

'That's your choice Chuck.'

'Ok, whatever. I want her to know because lying is getting too much for me.'

This was something Verbanski would handle better then Casey and began given him advice.

'Chuck, tell her. Walker is a strong woman, she can take anything. You don't, this will eat away at you and years later Sarah will find out, maybe even sooner. It's better you tell her now.'

'She will be broken, I don't want her to feel that way.'

'Chuck I can't tell you what to do, I can only advice but take it from me keeping things bottled up never works and I think you know that too.'

Chuck was given food for thought, he had planned to tell her he just didn't know when. He left the two to sleep off their jetlag and headed over to Morgan's. Him and Sarah treated this as their 1st wedding and stayed away from each other the night before. He couldn't sleep without talking to her to instead of going round to their apartment, he called. Her phone just rang out and out with no reply. Chuck decided once and for all that this was it, that she needed to know everything. He jumped back in his car and zoomed off to their apartment. As he got closer, his heart began to race. He eventually reached their place and let himself in. Sarah had fallen asleep with Ellie nearby in the kitchen. He had to tell her, but before he could wake her Ellie pulled him away.

'Don't wake her. Saying that you shouldn't be here.'

'I know but I wanted to see my wife. I need to talk to her.'

'You will see her tomorrow Chuck, surely it can wait?'

Ellie knew he had come round with the notion to tell her all, she knew from Morgan that he too wasn't all that himself but now it was hitting nearly 11.30pm and Sarah was out cold. As much as she believed they had to hash out their issues, she was paranoid and scared that whatever it was they were hiding from each other could destroy them. Sarah had assured her every time that they would be fine, but every time she said it her words became that more empty.

'I guess so. She looks so peaceful doesn't she?'

'Chuck you need some sleep, tomorrow is a big day.'

'When she wakes, tell her I stopped by and that I love her very much. I even wrote down some vows which she probably doesn't expect. Last time I promised to show it to her, this time I'll say it.'

'A secret between you and me….she's got some vows too and they are beautiful.'

Chuck walked over to Sarah and lightly kissed her forehead, he brushed her hair away from her face and for a few moments watched her sleep.

'The first time, I was lucky. This time…it's a miracle. I get to marry this gorgeous, strong and amazing woman twice, I am the luckiest guy alive right now.'

'I know Sarah had some issues in the past but you're the guy to break down those walls she created and she'd want it to be no one else, she loves you so much Chuck and whatever comes your way, you guys will handle it.'

Staring at his wife, he got up to leave not before given her one final kiss. Heading out the door he looked back at his sister and smiled. Once out, his face immediately dropped. He now only had hours before their renewal took place and he had to grab her before they met at the beach the next day. He strolled off back to his car and headed for Morgan's.

The next day…

Sarah was getting prepared with the help of Sarah and her mum who had surprised her that morning. She missed her daughter's first wedding and wasn't about to miss this one. Sarah was hoping she would have a few moments before her and Chuck met at the beach so she could tell him. It was the worst time for anything revealing to come out but for the past month they both had put it off and this was their last chance. Ellie had told Sarah Chuck had passed by the night before but she was asleep, revealing that he had written vows, Sarah was becoming extremely emotional. Not only had she had something to tell but now she found out Chuck had written vows. There was a knock at the door and Sarah's mum answered it, it was Carina who had brought in the mail that had just arrived at the same time. She threw it down on the table and went over to Sarah and gave her a hug.

'Wow…twice, now that is something Walker.'

'Carina, I didn't think you would make it.'

'I wasn't but I found time. After all, you're as closest to a sister as I have.'

Getting all glammed up and preparing for what would be a day to remember, on the other side of Burbank Chuck was getting suited and booted with the help of his best friend. Tying up his shoes, Chuck remembered he had left his vows back at the apartment and had to retrieve them.

'Morgan….the vows. I left them back at home.'

'Chuck, what the hell. Let's hope Sarah doesn't find them, we can head over there now if you want.'

'Won't Sarah still be there?'

'Ok, I'll head over there, just tell me where you kept them.'

Chuck told him precisely where they were left and Morgan headed off to Chuck's place to get them. As he set off Chuck was pacing back and forth, back and forth. He wished he had told her last night and right now he had left it to the worst possible time. 15mins later Morgan arrived back with vows in hand and a letter he found on the floor addressed to Chuck and marked urgent.

'Chuck, I found this back at your place.'

'What is it?'

'I don't know man, but it looks important. It's from a CIA detention facility.'

Chuck instantly guessed who the letter was from…. Diana. He dared not open it and took it from Morgan's hand and stuff it in his back pocket.

'That can wait.'

The wedding wasn't set to take place for another 45mins and Sarah had slipped out from the apartment and headed over to Morgan's, hell bent on telling Chuck everything. When Ellie realised she was gone, she knew exactly where she was heading. Carina who was looking for Sarah wondered where she had gone, Ellie had to cover and explained she needed some alone time before making route to the beach. It was an agonising drive over as Sarah was taking a huge gamble on her relationship with Chuck, but it was something worth risking and she believed their relationship was strong enough to combat anything. Arriving at Morgan's place who he shared with Alex but who was with her dad, Sarah slowly walked up to the door. It was unlocked and she let herself in, before calling out to Chuck she heard him and Morgan talking.

'Is it her again?' Morgan asked.

'Obviously, I don't know who else would want to write to me from inside there.'

'Maybe that can wait, but that thing can't.'

'Morgan….'

'Chuck we're like 30mins away from your wedding and you still haven't told her…or me. Me I can understand, but Sarah she is your wife and she has to know.'

'I've had all this time to tell her and I leave it till now? Stupid, stupid. It's hard for me to say to Morgan, she'll be devastated.'

'But you will be there for her, every step of the way you will be there to help her through it.'

'I told her it was a ring agent that night in Paris to save her from the guilt.'

'I don't understand?'

'Morgan….her red test we all know it wasn't Evelyn, but what only I know is that she paid someone to be in that exact spot that night.'

'Chuck, what are you saying?'

'She was just a civilian. Not a ring agent. Evelyn told me and literally bragged about it being an innocent woman. I told Sarah it was another ring agent, I've been lying to her all this time.'

Outside the door, Sarah's heart was pounding and it soon sank. Gasping for breath and feeling like she had been hit with a boulder, she ran out of the house and jumped in her car. She took off heading to a place she felt safe. Inside the house Morgan was in shock but understood why his friend decided to keep this from Sarah.

'Chuck, I get why you didn't tell her. And your right, she will be broken pal but like I said before you will be there to help her. This is a lot to carry on yourself.'

Picking up the letter in his back pocket, he planned to rip it to shreds and not ever opening it but Morgan opted against it. Just as Chuck was set to destroy the letter, he snatched it away.

'What so you want to open it?'

'I'm going to, just try and stop me. Yeh…just try it. What you're not going to stop me?'

'No. I don't care for that letter, but you do. So go ahead.'

Morgan quickly opened it up and with a grin he began to read it. But second by second his grin disappeared and turned shallow. Noticing his sudden change Chuck quizzed him. This was what Sarah had been keeping from Chuck, Diana knew and wrote to Chuck to explain it to him.

'Why are you looking at it like that?'

'Chuck, I don't know if you want to read this but I think you should.'

Handing it over, Chuck started to read the letter that was from Diana.

Chuck, I am sorry I had to bother you again but there is one last thing I have to do before I hold onto that hope. You and Sarah were special spies, nothing like the rest. I have no idea why I am telling you this, but you guys mainly you told me to hold onto that hope, it was the best advice you gave. All I can think about is Lily and she is getting me through this. Now I want to repay the favour, I want you to hold onto that something you told me about….Sarah. You guys have something special and it reminds me of my husband, someone I never told anyone about. I lost him because I lied to him about where I worked and what I did, the secrets tore us apart. I don't want the same for you, so this is why I feel you have to know. That day in England, Evelyn was shot by an order your wife gave Gertrude Verbanski. The rest you should ask Sarah about, but I hope that with all the lies out in the open you can finally live a life with no secrets.

Diana

Chuck's face was frozen. Sarah had given an order to kill someone who was unarmed and not a danger at that precise time. No…this isn't true…NO.

Chuck ran out of the house as Morgan tried to follow. He tried to stop him from leaving, but Chuck shoved him aside. He jumped into his car and drove to the beach. Speeding over to the beach, he had a million thoughts in his head asking why. Pulling up at the beach and having ran through a dozen red lights, Chuck got out of the car and stumbled towards the beach where he saw people setting up. The chairs were out and towards the back he saw Sarah. He paced over towards her with so many questions circling his head, as he got closer he heard Sarah crying and couldn't understand why. Was it the guilt of keeping this secret? As he got closer, he ushered the people setting up to leave. Sarah who had not noticed Chuck was behind her was wiping away the tears she had no control over. Chuck walked around and sat beside her looking out to the sea.

'Chuck…'

'Hey Sarah.'

So that's it people, I hope you liked it and please review. Next part up soon.