I really would like to thank all the support that I have received for everyone. This is my first fanfic and it really makes me gracious that you all enjoy it. I'll try not to wait so long to post the next chapter, I have just had a very trying few days. Please review I would love to hear what you are thinking.

P.S. I am in the process of rewriting the first two chapters so I'll let every know when it is up. Don't worry though nothing is changing. Just embellishing on some things.

"Anastasia!" he said a last time before I turned around. I closed my eyes as I reached the top of the stairs, gathered myself and turned around to see Christian right in front of me.

"Yes", i said trying to sound calm. "Can I help you?" my heart began to race at the sight of him.

He looked, and then handed me the French book. "You forgot this." he said. I took the book, accidentally brushed his hand, and a surge of electricity coursed through my body. We both looked at each other surprised.

Did he feel that? I was not quite sure. How could he not have, to me it was like someone took a defibrillator to my heart.

He had to of felt it, because within an instant, and without notice, he took me into a heated embrace and began to kiss me passionately. His hands began to hold me tighter, his lips pushing up to mine. I was jelly in his arms. My lips soon parted with permission, allowing him enter my mouth with his tongue. My heart began to race faster when I caught a quick waft of the heavenly smell that I assumed was all Christian. Everything grew fuzzy when...

"Ana?" the sound of my name I snapped me out the daydream. "look I just wanted to make sure you didn't forget your book" he said a concerned undertone in his voice. He rubbed the back of his neck with his hand, I'm guessing a nervous habit, he definitely felt it.

"Thanks" I said to him and with those parting words walked back to my locker.

I met Kate at her car after school. "Hey Annie" she said " sorry I wasn't in 7th hour, my period decided to show up, and I was in the nurses office the hour with stomach cramps."

"Sorry Kate did you need a tampon or something?" I asked her.

"No, I always carry emergency tampons in my purse." she said pulling out her car keys. She unlocked the car doors and we both got in.

"You'll never guess who is in my French class." I finally said as we pulled out of the parking lot. "Who?" she seemed curious now. "Christian Grey" my cheeks began to redden, remembering our meet on the stairs.

"You're kidding" she shook her head as if saying a little private joke to herself. "Did he say anything to you?"

"No" I said " but I did forget my book, he chased me down in the hallway, to give it back." Now my entire face was beginning to turn red.

Kate must have noticed my quick change in demeanor because she became focused preparing to, very quickly, get as much information out before I began to shut her out. Before I could give her the satisfaction, I gave in and began to tell her what happened at the top of the stairs in the hall.

" That is very interesting Ana." She said beginning to contemplate her next sentence.

"What is it Kate" I said, not really wanting to know her answer.

" He is ..." she was trying to choose her next words carefully, "he is just not a very nice guy" A part of me didn't believe her.

"What do you mean Kate?" I said " Is he criminal bad or just take a cookie from my lunch tray bad." I looked at her face and a smile began to show on her face.

" A cookie from your lunch tray" she said and began to giggle.

"Yeah" I said with a smile on my face now. " That's pretty bad in my book Kate, you know how I enjoy to eat." I said and I laughed.

Kate pulled into the parking lot of Dr. Evelyn Flynn's office. I looked around and immediately remembered just why I had to see a therapist. Tears swelled in my eyes and Kate put a loving arm around my shoulder.

"Ana, you know that heart of yours is going to heal eventually, right?" I nodded my head. "It was great seeing the old Anastasia today, we really miss her."

" I know Kate, but I just don't feel whole anymore." tears started to fall "Just knowing now that no matter how eventful or uneventful my life is, I won't be able to share it with him."

"He knows" Kate said while giving me one final squeeze.

"Sorry, Mom felt that you needed a session, so she made an appointment. Please, don't be mad at her." I looked at Katherine trying to find the words to express my gratitude.

"Thanks Kate, I really appreciate this" I finally said wishing I could say more.

"I love you Annie" she said tears welling in her eyes.

"I love you too Kate." and we both held each other and cried.

I walked into Dr. Flynn's office noticing the new decor in the office. The walls were a soothing cream color when they were once a depressing forest green. Wainscoting along the whole area of the waiting room tied the traditional look. The furniture was a set of out dated sofa, loveseat and matching chairs ,but now there were beautiful sunny yellow sofa and loveseat set, including two floral print slipper chairs that elegantly tied the look together. I sat on the sofa waiting for my turn. I don't know why but the new office really made me want to curl up on the sofa with a good book. While enthralled in my fantasy, I heard my name.

" Ana" she said looking around the waiting room. I looked up. " I'm ready for you dear"

I rubbed my palms against my legs and walked into the office.

After my session was over I seemed to feel a little better. Doctor Flynn had praised me for the enormous leaps I have made in the past two months, she said that although I have not fully accepted Ray's death; I have made enough progress to satisfy her.

Kate and I walked into the house,from my appointment, just as everyone was sitting down for dinner. Ethan, Kate's older brother, was still home with college starting soon. Kate's brother was accepted to his first choice college, Colorado State University, last March and was really excited to attend.

"So what's your major again?" Kate said

"Business Management" Ethan said

"Sounds like an excuse to party" She said sticking her tongue out at him.

"Katie" Richard, Kate's Father said in a stern voice.

"Sorry daddy, I was just teasing." She had sounded defeated.

Kate always hated getting on her father's bad side. She loved him dearly, and in fact so did I. Richard really took me in without hesitation. He was a great father and it was obvious that cared for all three of his children.

When dinner was over I retired to my room hoping for a dreamless sleep tonight. I brushed my teeth,dressed into my sweats and t-shirt, finally crawling into bed. Doctor Flynn had suggested today that I start keeping a journal. Hoping that this would help with the grieving process. So after I retrieved a pencil from the nightstand, I scribbled down all the events of today, including what happened with Christian. I had finished entry and placed the leather-bound book on my nightstand, looked at the picture of Ray, and turned off the light drifting into my dream filled sleep.

The first chapter has been updated and I combined chapters one and two. I hope you enjoy. Please Review