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1 week later

Colette's POV

I still haven't got over the fact that Kendall kissed me. It's not an everyday thing you get kissed by the most amazing boy in the world!

For the past week I have done nothing but daydream about Kendall. He's so freaking hot.

Today is the day Kendall was meant to pick me up to go to LA with him. I actually can't wait! i was just finishing packing my suitcase. My mother wasn't really happy about it though...

(FLASHBACK)

I was reading a book, i had my wooly jumper and sweats on, my hair all messy since I couldn't be bothered dressing up, I had nothing special to do today anyway.

I notice my phone flash up across the room, indicating that I have a text message. I slowly put my book down and walked over to it. I smiled when I saw that it was from Kendall.

'Hey beautiful! How are you? 1 more day until tour is finished. We'll be driving through Texas so I can pick you up and you can come and live with me in LA for a while.. You up for it? :-) K x'

My smile grew bigger as I read the text.

'Hello handsome! Yes! I cannot wait! Woohoo! C x'

I raced downstairs to see to my mum. She was really happy with me when I told her all about getting picked for worldwide girl. I obviously didn't tell her about my kissing session with him but I did tell her about him giving me his phone number.

At that she frowned. "Isn't he a bit to old for you?"

"Mum he's only 22, 3 years older and plus its not like we are dating or anything... Just texting." I said and waved my phone at her.

She didn't stop frowning just went back to her cleaning.

I though about this now as I walked downstairs to tell her about me staying over. It's not like she doesn't like Kendall, it's just she is worried about me. What could happen. I pulled my sleeves further down my arms and tried to stop thinking about him.

"Mum?" I called out looking in the kitchen and she wasn't there.

"In the living room Cole." She said. She seemed exhausted. She was working two jobs trying to pay for the house and to give me everything she could.

"Hey.. How are you today? You not working?" I asked her smiling at her. She sighted, "As good as it gets! Yeah they said they didn't need me today so I though I could relax. How have you been doing recently?" She looked up at me and started rubbing my wrists.

I pulled my hand away. "Fine."

She sight again "Cole don't be like this! You know I'm only trying to help you!"

I relaxed a bit. "Yes I know mum... look I'm sorry... I just hate it when people feel sorry for me! Like I'm the weakest person on the planet!" I said annoyed.

"Colette you are not a weak person! The amount of things you have been through I'm surprised you haven't broken down completely!" She said and held into my hands once again.

"Look mum can we just skip this conversation? What I came down here to ask you is that Kendall is finished his tour tomorrow and asked if I wanted to come and live with him for a while in LA." I closed my eyes and fiddled with my fingers, knowing that she won't be happy about this.

"And this is the point where we have to go back to the other conversation! Don't you think that after you the things you have been thro-" I cut her off.

"Don' keep reminding me what happened! I was the one that went trough it. Not you. I want to go and I will. I don't care what you say! I came down just to inform you and not to ask you permission!" I was up from the sofa by now. Shouting at my mum.

"I keep telling you! I'm only trying to look after you! And no you aren't going to leave this house to go off with some Hollywood star that has no idea about real life!" She snapped back at me.

"He has no idea about life?! What the fuck do you know about him?!" I challenged her.

"Don't you bloody swear at me! I work my ass off trying to make your life good and all you do is pay me back by leaving me?!" I don't know if she was pissed or upset at me.

"I will do what I want and you don't have to tell me what to do!" I'm an adult now!" My mind kept telling me to stop, that I'm going to far but my mouth just spoke by itself.

"You WILL do what I tell you to while you are staying under MY roof! Do you understand?! You are not leaving!"

"This is probably why dad left you.. You're a selfish cow that likes manipulating people! No wonder he left us!" I know I crossed the line with this. I saw tears in her eyes but I didn't care. I started walking out of the room. "Oh and I won't leave? Watch me." I said as I disappeared from the living room.

I raced up stairs to the bathroom and locked the door. I broke down
And sat down on the floor. Why does she have to do this to me?! Bring up all the bad memories just when everything is perfect?! I yanked my jumper off and stared At all my ugly scars. I had massive cuts starting from my wrists an ending just before the elbow. I also had massive cuts at the top of my thighs that some shorts cover. I quickly opened a drawer and looked for the razors. I opened one and took the blade out.

I was disgusted with myself but I needed to do it forget about everything. I turned the tap on as I started sliding the blade across my wrist. I winced in pain. I cut deep enough to let the blood run but not deep enough to cut my veins.

Soon the water started to run a dark red. I was also crying at the same time. After I was finished I sat down on floor and cried the blood still dripping from my arms.

I heard a knock on the door, "Colette? Please don't tell me you are doing what I think you're doing?!" My mum said.

I just let out a loud sob and leaned my head agains the wall, as I cried.

"Cole, baby, please open the door I'll help you. Don't worry. Please just let me help you." My mother begged. I crawled over to the door leaving blood stains on the white tiles.

I unlocked the door and let my mum in. She walked in and her eyes just closed. I could see a tear slowly slide down her cheek. She came and sat next to me and put her arms around me.

"Don't worry baby everything will be alright. He's not here remember? You have nothing to worry about." She whispered And kissed my head.

"That's the thing mum he might come back anytime! Do you know how safe I felt last week when I was in Houston? I just want to get away from here that's all!" I broke down. Mum hugged me as I sobbed on her shoulder.

"If that's what you want baby, I'm not going to stop you. Go to LA, but please promise me you won't do this again?" She begged while looking down at my arms.

"I promise. I will call you everyday." I said while she wiped my tears away. She nodded and gave me one last hug. "Come on then let's get you cleaned up."

She helped me up. She cleaned up my arms and put a bandage over them.

"Go to sleep baby, ill clean the bathroom." She said, starting to tidy up.

I nodded and walked out, changed into my pyjamas and fell asleep, exhausted.

(BACK TO NORMAL)

I looked down at my bandaged arms and stroked the soft material.

I pulled on my long sleeved shirt and dragged my suitcase downstairs waiting for my prince to come and get me on his white horse.