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Rating: M

Chapter: Doubt

Starrk smiled as he looked at the sleeping woman in his arms. He had dreamed of this moment so many times. To say he was happy that it became a reality was an understatement. Whenever he doubted that last night happened he checked her shoulder. He had marked her there, and she left a few on his neck. Luckily his were already beginning to fade. She was his now and he hers.

'But for how long?' He asked himself. He knew Yoruichi was a former shinigami. When Lord Aizen had told him he didn't believe him. He couldn't believe his dear Yoruichi was the very being that destroyed his kind. That was until Lord Aizen had showed him footage of her, and her life in this place called Soul Society. Even then he continued to deny, saying it was a younger sister. But when he had showed footage of her breaking into soul society and aiding this orange haired boy and his friends, and the power of the hogyōku, Starrk could no longer deny.

He didn't want to lose her. He couldn't stand the idea of her gaining her memories back and leaving him. Or fighting against him. If she gained her memories, would she find him revolting, knowing what she has done with him? Would she regret the times they shared? Did she have a lover as a shinigami? Would she choose him? Starrk growled as he thought of Yoruichi leaving him for another man. Her memories were coming back, and it wasn't much time before she realized they were memories. Especially with Lord Aizen putting his plans into motion. He just hoped she chose him. Starrk looked at the clock on the wall.

Their meeting was in one hour. Starrk groaned as he thought about leaving bed. He never was an early riser, and now that Yoruichi was with him he definetly didn't want to get up. He stayed in bed with Yoruichi for another fifty minutes before getting up. He got dressed quickly. He sonidoed to the meeting room knowing he would be the last espada there. Everybody always arrived early, no one dared to keep Lord Aizen waiting. He arrived and saw all the espada in their respective seats.

Lord Aizen had yet to arrive along with Tosen and Gin. Starrk took a seat on the right side of the main seat. Lord Aizen sat there, and on his left Ulquiorra sat. At the exact time the meeting was suppose to start Aizen had walked in and took his seat next Starrk and Ulquiorra.

"Now then, let's get this meeting started."

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Yoruichi woke up noticing the warmth behind her was gone. She frowned and turned around.

'He must have had a meeting.' She thought as she got up. That meant Lilynette and Ulquiorra were there as well. She sighed she had no one right now for the next hour at least. She could train, but the weights were in Syzayelapporo's lab. He was in the meeting right now which meant his lab was locked. She didn't much care for anyone else besides Ulquiorra, Lilynette, and Master Starrk and never took the time to make more friends.

She blushed as she remembered everything that happened last night. She never knew he could be that passionate. He was everything she ever dreamed and more. He had told her he loved her so many times last night. It was truly bliss. Not wanting to stay in bed all day she got up and made his bed before showering in her room. Once she was done, she wrapped a towel around herself and stepped into her room. She got dressed quickly and sat on her bed pondering what to do next. Suddenly, a book fell from her shelf. Picking it up she realized this was the book Neliel gave her to read. It was one of Neliels favorites. Yoruichi never got around to reading it though. As she opened the book to the first page, there was a little note there written in messy hand writing.

'To Yoruichi: May you enjoy this book as much as I do! Love, Nel'

The only other person she could tolerate was Neliel and was close to calling a friend was the former third espada. Yoruichi never did learn what happened to her. But she came up with three possible explanations.

The first being that she left on her own free will. This was the least likely, in Yoruichi's mind because what would you do wandering for days on end? Constantly hiding and being careful because Lord Aizen had eyes every where. Her two brothers or friends were missing as well. Neliel was a nice girl though childish at times she was a nice girl. Yoruichi hoped she was doing okay.

The second is that she had died. Nnoitra had been gunning for Neliel ever since they first met. He was sexist, crude, and couldn't stand anyone being stronger than him, especially not a woman. Neliel had always won their fights, and he was the only one every trying to kill her. As far as Yoruichi knew someone else had to be the one that killed her, because Nnoitra was always weaker.

The third solution is that it involved Nnoitra in some way, but he had an accomplice. She never did feel Neliel's spiritual pressure fade away. The day she had went missing Nnoitra had a shit eating grin on his face. She knew something was wrong that day, she just knew. When she hadn't seen Neliel for a few days or her fracción then Yoruichi went looking for her. Yoruichi searched but never found her. Yoruichi made sure to make Nnoitra's life a little less pleasant whenever she got the chance.

To pass the time Yoruichi decided to read the book. About half way through the book Yoruichi had already experienced a multitude of emotions. She felt anger, sadness, happiness, relief, and disbelief. When she finally got to the end she felt a heavy weight of suspense. Luckily, it was a trilogy. Yoruichi looked at her clock and noticed she only took up thirty minutes. Damn, her and her super fast reading. As she read she noticed certain sentences were highlighted or underlined.

Yoruichi didn't know why Neliel did that. Just random sentences or words would be underlined. Yoruichi's head hurt trying to figure out why. Maybe she was over thinking it. For now she was going to the library to get the other two parts of the triology. Yoruichi quickly sonidoed to the library. She walked in admiring the vast extent of Las Noches' library. She saw why Neliel loved being in here. Books were everywhere the eye could see. They sat on shelves that towered high above her. The books ranged from very old to very new. Some were considerably thicker than the others by far. It was a book here for almost anything. She walked around looking for the area she could find the books she wanted.

Having no luck at all, she looked for the librarian. Hopefully they could help her. She walked slowly out of the horror section of the library and into the romance area. She must have looked lost and confused because she felt a tap on her shoulder. She turned around and was staring into a man's chest. She looked up and saw a smiling face looking down at her.

"You seem lost is there anything I can help you with?" He asked politely.

"I'm looking for the librarian. Do you know where they are?" Yoruichi stepped back a few steps so she wouldn't have to strain her neck to look up at him anymore. He was a rather tall man towering at six feet seven inches. Yoruichi was only five feet and two inches tall so it was a struggle to look directly up at him.

"How may I be of service?" He asked her. Yoruichi was surprised to say the least. She was not expecting him to be the librarian.

"I'm looking for the other two books to this triology." Yoruichi said as she handed him the book. He looked it over for a few seconds before a look of remeberance flashed in his eyes.

"Follow me please." He said as he began walking towards the Adventure section of the library. Yoruichi face palmed she had spent over twenty minutes looking in that section. The farther they went down the aisle the older the books got. When they reached the end, he began walking upwards as if on stairs. Yoruichi continued to follow him. Finally they stopped once they reached the top left of the book shelf. He pulled out two thick leather bound books, and began floating back down.

"Here you go Yoruichi." He said as he handed her both books with a smile. Yoruichi grabbed them and for a moment their hands touched. Yoruichi dropped the books as she clutched her head.

'She was in a room, books and scrolls littering the floor as she lounged on a desk. She watched as a white haired man came in carrying a tray of tea. He was careful to avoid the mess as best as he could, while she watched lazily. She counted the time it took for him to reach her. Eleven seconds without a single stumble. She sat up slowly exhausted from a day of working. The white haired man smiled at her before sitting in the space she was once laying. He placed the tea tray on his lap as he poured two cups of tea. He handed her a cup, to which she happily took. She rested her head on his shoulder as they drunk their tea in a comfortable silence.

Once they were done drinking the tea Yoruichi felt energized. The first thing she did was clean up her office with his help of course. It didn't take long, at most only ten minutes. There was one book left on the floor to which they both grabbed for. Their hands touched and she could feel the warmth radiating from his hand. He picked up the leather bound book with caring brown eyes and handed it to her, all the while wearing a friendly smile directed towards her. He grabbed the tray of tea and waved her good bye. She waved good bye as well, staring at the hand that was still warm from his touch.' Yoruichi panted slightly as the pain in her head went away.

"Are you okay?" He was bending over her with concerned eyes wandering what was wrong.

"Yes." She said as she got up from her knees. The pain had only lasted for as long as she had the vision. Who were these people that were in her visions? Was this her future? No because Master Starrk wasn't there.

"Thank you for your concern." She said as she picked up all three books. He looked at her with doubtful eyes but decided to take her word for it. It was not his place to pry. He watched her as she left the library. She had turned around and waved goodbye to him, he politely returned the gesture.

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"Yammy and Ulquiorra you have your orders carry them out tomorrow. I expect you to complete them without fail." Aizen looked at the two arrancar waiting for their reply.

"Yes Lord Aizen." They said in unison.

"Well then this meeting is over. Starrk, Ulquiorra, and Syzayelapporo I need you to stay behind. Everyone else you can leave." Aizen said dismissing them. Aizen waited for everyone besides the people he told to stay behind to leave before speaking again.

"As you all know Yoruichi is a big concern with her memories threatening to resurface. We can not allow that for if she regains her memories than her hate for me will cause her to fight against me. It appears the more we push the memories back into her subconscious mind it only comes back ten fold. Sooner than later she will be realizing that they are memories and not visions.-"

"Sir, what will you do if she sides with the enemy?" Syzayelapporo asked. Starrk's stared hard at Aizen waiting for his reply. Aizen knew of Starrk's love for Goddess of flash. Hell he warned him that no good would come of loving her. Her death was inevitable. Rather it be Aizen himself that killed her or the very people she called friends in the past life, her grave would be the battlefield. He would not allow her to live if she realized she was a shinigami. And if she fought against the shinigami then her friends would have no choice but to see her as an enemy. Knowing Yamamota, he would think of her as nothing more than the enemy and is to be eliminated as such. How many would follow that order was unknown to him. Yoruichi was in a lose-lose situation.

But Aizen wanted to avoid killing her at all cost. She was a formidable fighter and wouldn't go down easily. That is what he liked about her, one of the reasons he chose her. Even now with no memory she was still resistant to him. She refused to be submissive like all the others. The sooner she realized she was his the better. She was too great of an ally and he didn't want to lose his favorite toy. It took a hell of a lot to subdue and capture her.

He is truly surprised that Kisuke hasn't come to get her yet. Then again Aizen himself did do a hell of a job to fake her death. Even so he was sure of all people Kisuke would be able to figure out that something was wrong with the scenario. He truly couldn't wait to see their faces when he showed them a hollowfied Yoruichi. He already knew there would be a mixture of emotions. But one thing he feared is that seeing so many of the people she knew would be her trigger. He couldn't afford to have an arrancar as strong as herself fighting against him, even if he did favor her.

"I plan to kill her." Aizen said. He could see Starrk's eyes turn hard but just as quickly as it was there it was gone. Despite not showing it he knew what he had just said effected Ulquiorra as well. No matter, how much the fourth espada denied it Aizen knew that Ulquiorra cared if only the tiniest bit for Yoruichi. He had made Ulquiorra without emotions so that he would be the perfect killing machine. So far Aizen believed he succeeded. It appears though that Yoruichi was breaking through his emotionless wall.

"Is there nothing else we can do to suppress her memories permanently?" Starrk asked as he gripped the sides of his seat.

"No the more we try to suppress them it has the opposite effect. I also believe that some part of Yoruichi wants answers to her visions and the hogyōku is bringing that desire to reality. I can no longer use the hogyōku on her. We either need her fighting with us or not fighting at all otherwise I will kill her at the first sign of her betrayal. But of course I want that to be a last resort. Yoruichi will choose to protect the ones she loves the most. Make it so she sides with us. " Aizen said while smirking. Hell, if Yoruichi still kept her feelings for him once she regained her memories and sided with them Aizen would reward Starrk.

He could see Starrk tense up slightly. Ulquiorra looked the same as always any person would say he was heartless for not caring for the only person that cared for him. But Ulquiorra was just good at hiding how he feels. Aizen noticed how his hands clenched tighter than usual. It took an observant eye to notice this change in him. His eyes travelled to Ulquiorra and then to Starrk. His two most loyal arrancar.

"Yes Lord Aizen." Starrk said as he looked at Ulquiorra. He didn't care at all if she died. Why Yoruichi took an interest in the heartless bastard was a mystery to him. He didn't deserve her love, even if it was in a brotherly sisterly kind of way. Ulquiorra just looked at Starrk before looking back towards Aizen. His ever present emotionless mask as strong as ever.

"Yoruichi's physical training starts again tomorrow." Aizen said.

"Syzayelapporo you completed the necessary alterations on her gear right?" Aizen looked at the mad scientist.

"Yes." Syzayelapporo said as he handed Aizen a folder. Aizen looked over the contents of the folder.

"Starrk, Ulquiorra you can leave now." Aizen waved them away. The two espada left the room, both bowing before leaving out the door. They walked down the halls in silence, both of them heading in the same direction. The only sound that could be heard was the light sounds of their foot steps. They had a long walk ahead of them before either reached their destination.

"You reek of Yoruichi." Ulquiorra stated as he continued to walk forward with his hands in his pockets. Starrk stopped surprised that he even decided to speak to him. He certainly wasn't expecting those to be Ulquiorra's first words. Noticing that the distance was only growing between them Starrk continued walking. He walked quicker so that he caught up with him.

"You sure know how to start a conversation." Starrk stated sarcastically. Starrk didn't care if he smelt of her. He hoped they all could smell her on him. It showed she belonged to him and him alone. He was not going to let anyone take his mate away from him. Starrk looked at Ulquiorra expecting him to say something else.

"I was not intending to engage in conversation." Ulquiorra didn't appear to be speaking anymore any time soon.

Bored with the silence, Starrk spoke up.

"Do you care about her?" Starrk asked his eyes slightly narrowing. He needed to know.

"No I am incapable of such emotions." Ulquiorra's answer was quick. Starrk honestly could say he wasn't surprised. How did Yoruichi even become friends with him? It was like you were socializing with a robot.

"Yoruichi's love is wasted on you." Ulquiorra looked at Starrk as he said those words. He had felt something in his chest just now. A slight pain. He knew Yoruichi meant something to him. She was one of the few he didn't deem trash in his eyes. He noticed how he worried for her as well. That was the only thing he ever felt besides despair. When Yoruichi was fighting Harribel he worried for her. During the meeting when Aizen said he was going to kill her, Ulquiorra worried.

He did his best to hide how he felt about her. Yoruichi was the only one that gave a damn about him. She was his only friend. To everyone else he was only a heartless cold blooded monster, but to her he was a person. He still didn't understand what emotions were, but Yoruichi was trying to teach him. He cared for her but he would not show it. Not even to her.

"I know." Because he did know. He could never return the feeling of love. Ulquiorra's room was only a few feet away now. Ulquiorra walked into his room with those being his parting words. He shut the door behind him and lied down on his couch. He put a hand on his chest just above his heart. Yoruichi had told him she liked the sound of his heart beat, and that if he was truly a monster than he wouldn't have such a lovely heart beat. It was a shame she was a shinigami. He sniffed the air, which smelt of Lavender and water. His brows furrowed, Yoruichi has been in his room.

/

Yoruichi clutched her head in pain again. That's the second time today this has happened. She barely made it back to her room before she felt the mind splitting headache. Soon after a vision had come to her. She was now clutching her head while laying on her bed.

"Yoruichi are you decent?" That was Syzayelapporo's voice. Maybe he could help?

"Yes." She said in a pained voice. He opened the door quickly hearing her reply. He ran to her bed side, while removing her hands.

"Take these." He said handing her two black pills. She took them out of his hand and placed them in her mouth swallowing them. She sighed in relief as the pain went away almost instantly.

"It's getting worse Syzayelapporo." She said. He handed her a bottle filled with those pills.

"Carry those around with you. Don't take more than two for the pain but do not consume more than four a day." She nodded her head to show she was listening. He walked out of the room and walked back in carrying her weights.

"I brought these for you. Your physical training begins tomorrow so you need to get use to them." Syzayelapporo helped her put them on. Yoruichi noticed they were heavier than usual. She also noticed that she felt physically weaker than normal. They must be draining more spirit energy than usual. She tried walking and stumbled a few times.

It didn't take long for her to get the hang of it again. Would she be able to fight was the true question? They would find out tomorrow how capable she was.

"You'll train in hand-to-hand combat with Ulquiorra tomorrow in the morning." Syzayelapporo said as he began to leave the room. Yoruichi began to do some light exercise in order to get use to the new weights.

She lay her body on the ground and pushed her self up and down repeatedly. Her arms wobbled at first but after doing a few more they got use to it. By time she was done she had only done half her usual amount. She frowned not satisfied with the results. Exhausted she decided to just lay in her bed and read the second book to the triology. Neliel had left another note on the first page.

Haha, I knew you would like the first one. The second is just as good if not better. Once you're done reading all three we'll have to discuss the book together. Love, Nel

Yoruichi smiled as she read the note. If only she had read them sooner. She and Neliel could have become friends. They could have made Nnoitra's life a living hell together. From this moment on she would make his life a living hell. First she would finish her books. She got up and ran herself a bath. While she waited for the tub to fill up she decided to read at least thirty pages.

She was so engrossed in her book that she barely registered the knocking at her door. Just barely. After a few more she finally tore her eyes from the book, she then stopped the water in the tub and stomped over to the door. She opened the door, ready to punch the person that dare interrupt her from her book.

"What the f- Master Starrk!" She blushed for her rude behavior. He smiled a smile that she thought looked sexy on him.

"Am I interrupting something?" He asked while walking into her room.

"No, I could never be too busy for you."

"Oh good because I actually needed you right now."

"What do you n-mmm," His mouth covered hers eliciting a moan from her. He slipped his tongue in her mouth not leaving any part of it unexplored. Yoruichi not wanting to be on the submissive end, tried gaining dominance. But Starrk was not going to let her so easily. So their tongues wrestled for dominance neither one gaining the upper hand. Soon they had to pull away for much needed air. He placed his hands on her waist and pulled her closer to him eliminating the small amount that was left between them. He placed his forehead over hers taking the moment to admire her.

He looked into her yellow eyes, which were slowly darkening to a honey color with lust. He could see the love behind them. His eyes trailed down to her now swollen lips. Her lips were still slightly parted. He sent a trail of butterfly kisses from her temple, down her jaw line, and finally on the side of her lips. He kissed her passionately on her lips, sucking on her bottom one as he pulled away again. She moaned into the kiss. He loved the sound and it only fueled his desire for her. He licked the tip of her ear before nibbling on it. She moanedbHe ran his hands along the length of her body.

Even through a layer of clothing she could feel how hot his hands were. Wanting to be even closer to him, she pressed herself against his body even more. She could feel the heat radiating from his body. She accidentally brushed her knee into his crotch causing him to groan. This time she captured his lips into a heated kiss. She could feel him hardening against her. She walked forward a few steps and each step she took he took an equal distance back.

He didn't notice the bed behind him steadily coming closer with each step back he took, but Yoruichi did. Just a few more steps and he would be where she wanted him. He broke their kiss once he hit the bed. Yoruichi smiled a cat like grin as she pushed him so that his back landed on the bed. Not wasting the opportunity she crawled on top of him slowly with a lustful look in her eyes. It turned him on even more. She was now straddling his waist. Starrk groaned as she brushed up against his erection. She began to take his shirt off but was stopped as Starrk held her wrist.

He grabbed and picked her up causing Yoruichi to wrap her legs around his waist. Before she could ask what he was doing she could feel his hot breadth on her ear.

"Let's take a bath." She shivered as she felt his lips on her neck. He sucked and nipped before he found the most sensitive spot. He sucked harder earning a moan from Yoruichi. She could feel him smile into her neck. She ran her hands through his dark brown tresses. She had honestly forgotten about the bath she had drew for herself.

He kicked the bathroom door open, the steam from the hot water was the first thing they felt. As they made there way into the bathroom he put her down. He undressed her quickly as she did the same to him. He picked her up once again, as he stepped into the bath tub conveniently big enough for two. She positioned herself so that she was between his leg. She mounted him and moaned as he filled her. He waited till he adjusted to him before thrusting his hips forward in a steady pace.

"M-master S-stark." She moaned. To muffle her screams of pleasure she buried her mouth into the crook of her neck. Her voice vibrating against his flesh only made him more aroused. He increased his pace much to both their pleasure. She whimpered as she finally came. After a few more thrust he came as well. Yoruichi was still coming down from her pleasure high and was exhausted. Starrk cleaned them both up before dressing her in some of her night clothes, and wrapping a towel around his waist. He carried her to bed and put her under the covers. He lay down next to her. She gave a contented sigh as she turned towards him. She ran a finger along his jaw line lovingly. She kissed his cheek.

"I love you." She whispered.

'For how long?' He thought. It was wrong for him to think of something like that right now. He looked into her half lidded eyes. He moved a piece of her hair that was on her face , behind her ear. He kissed her lips softly.

"My heart is yours." He whispered back. That was his way of saying I love you. He always says it that way and always will, for Yoruichi Shihoin would always have his heart.

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