I FEEL PRETTY

Dude, my life is awesome right now. My best friend that I thought had moved away forever to live with her mom in Arizona (the state which I hate… sorry Arizona peoples, but that state almost sucked my bff away…) came back to good old North Carolina! Yes, I live in NC. This place rocks.

Tomorrow, the last of the extended wedding guests from my brother's wedding leave. And then, my life is SEMI-BACK TO NORMAL! We're still working on that closet.

But today, a large secret is revealed, and someone dies.

That is all.

The breathing was labored. The heart was slowing down. There was this bright light far away, and fading voices from people he was sure he knew but seemed so distant and unknown.

His body was numb, his mind blank, as if he was watching his own death from far away. It wasn't happening to him. This was just a dream, or a movie, or maybe… whether it was happening or not didn't matter.

Soon enough, he could hear voices over the voices. Over the shrill cries and the hurried, worry steeped voices were other voices.

"Are you sure?" A female, young, scared.

"I have to. We all knew it would come to this." A familiar male voice. It sounded like his own voice.

"No, you don't have to do this!" The scared girl cried, seemingly sobbing.

"He does." A dark, calming male voice. "He is the remnant. And we all know living or dying, that Xemnas will be nothing without him. Without him, Xemnas will never earn a heart."

"He can't earn a heart." An older, wispy girl voice. "He's different from the others. He touched the door to darkness. Only Xen can save him." The other girl was crying.

"It's alright." The first male voice, the familiar one calmed. The white light he was seeing spread, and the voices began to fade. "I'll live on, in him."

The voices went away the white filled everything, and a sound of "beep"…. "beep"…. "beep"… filled the air until it became a continuous never ending sound underneath a someone's screams of agony.

"XEMNAS!"

Step one you say we need to talk


He walks you say sit down it's just a talk


He smiles politely back at you

Leon collapsed against the wall, no tears in his eyes but shock in his heart. The heart monitor kept going under Aerith's screams and pleas. It was a never ending proof of death. Silently, Leon slid to the floor, limp, eyes shining.

"Call the others." Leon looked up. Sora was standing there, crying. "Tell them."


You stare politely right on through

"Roxas?" Yuffie asked. The boy was sitting by the gummi ship window, head in his hands. His hand fell limp, the cell phone falling to the floor. Roxas was crying, sobbing.

Saix knew. And he screamed fists against the walls, screaming in bitter pain and angst.


Some sort of window to your right


As he goes left and you stay right


Between the lines of fear and blame


And you begin to wonder why you came

Demyx was sobbing, Xigbar cradling him like a father to a child, both rocking back and forth as they cried together, Xigbar looking up to the stars for guidance. Behind them, Mokuba was herded to bed by Marasu, who looked to the two with pained pity.

"Xemnas!" Demyx sobbed. "N – Not – Xemnas!"

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend


Somewhere along in the bitterness


And I would have stayed up with you all night


Had I known how to save a life

"You killed him, didn't you?" Sora asked. Sephiroth stood at the edge of the Dark Depths, bleeding profusely.

"No." Sephiroth muttered. "He killed himself." Sora blinked.

Let him know that you know best


Cause after all you do know best


Try to slip past his defense

"I believe he meant for it to happen the whole time." Sephiroth sighed, words lost on the wind as Sora fell to his knees.

"What the hell is your problem?" He cried. "How many second chances do you have to throw away, Xemnas!"


Without granting innocence


Lay down a list of what is wrong


The things you've told him all along

Vexen sat up, groggy and tired. Ariel sat across from him, eyes red with tears, his cell phone in her hand. In the kitchen, Mai sat, head in her hands.

"Vexen." Ariel muttered, sobbing. "We need to talk."


And pray to God he hears you

And pray to God he hears you

"Oh, God." Vexen cried, falling forward, sobbing.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend


Somewhere along in the bitterness


And I would have stayed up with you all night


Had I known how to save a life

He woke up in the hallway. Everything was quite beneath the shouts of someone crying. He felt limp and tired. Where was he? What happened?

Hadn't he died?

As he begins to raise his voice


You lower yours and grant him one last choice

Grumbling and drunken like, he stood, tripping and slipping down the hall as the lights hurt his eyes and his feet refused to move correctly. He needed to find a mirror. He needed to find one now.


Drive until you lose the road


Or break with the ones you've followed


He will do one of two things

Riku sat in the front of the gummi ship when Cloud walked up to him.

"He was the last remnant of the man who threw me to darkness." Riku sighed. "And he was my last chance to say, 'forgive me'."

"Forgive me?" Cloud asked. Eyes tear stained, Riku turned.

"For being weak."

He will admit to everything


Or he'll say he's just not the same


And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where were the damn mirrors?

Finally, there was one. He ran to it, stumbling.

He was in a black hood, but it wasn't his. He looked like that guy – that guy Cloak. But what did his face look like?

He removed his hood.


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend


Somewhere along in the bitterness


And I would have stayed up with you all night


Had I known how to save a life

"What the hell?" He cried, his face and voice not his. Leon leapt out of the hospital room at the sound of his voice.


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend


Somewhere along in the bitterness


And I would have stayed up with you all night


Had I known how to save a life

"What happened?" Leon cried, holding the man by the collar. "Why did he die? Who are you?" He threatened, spitting into the man's face.


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend


Somewhere along in the bitterness


And I would have stayed up with you all night

"I am Xemnas." The man muttered shocked. Leon jumped.

"What?" The man didn't respond. He just looked to the mirror.

And the man staring back at him was Xehanort. Not Xemnas.

Did Xemnas die? Was he still Xemnas? Or was he Xehanort again?


Had I known how to save a life

"Who am I?"