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"You're too quiet. What's up?"
His gaze on me is incredible off-putting. I can't seem to get my head around what just happened in his limo...
I had my first orgasm in a limo, thanks to his highly gifted mouth. Pretty sure that mouth should be illegal. And that tongue is pure sin!
Though I'm pretty sure I'm not done being sinful just yet...
But I don't think that was my first orgasm...Those memories are still locked away in the back of my messed up mind...
Now I really wish I remembered everything!
I mean, if he can make me feel like this using nothing but his mouth, one can only imagine what the rest of his body can do for me...
"I just can't believe we just did that.. In the back of a car. With someone in the driving seat! It's insane!"
"Why? I thought you liked it..."
He looks sad and disappointed! Oh no! That's not what I meant!
"I did! Of course I did. That was pretty obvious...I just can't believe I let you do that to me. No one has ever done that to me. Ever..."
I suddenly feel ashamed of this confession. I have no idea if he knew I was a virgin or not...He probably did right?
"I know Ana. You gave yourself to me before. You trusted me. And I'll make sure you keep trusting me. Always"
He grabs my hand and kisses it, softly brushing his soft lips in my knuckles as he does. That makes me exhale deeply.
This man is just pure sex and lust, wrapped in a perfectly toned body, topped with the most alluring grey eyes I have ever seen in my life!
And he wants me! Plain, ordinary, nothing much Ana Steele...My mind still has trouble understanding that.
"I'm sorry. This just feels like my first orgasm. I'm embarrassed, that's all."
He looks offended by it...And I couldn't be more red if I wanted to...
"What? Why? Ana, you have nothing to be embarrassed about! I plan on making you come as many times as you let me. It's an amazing feeling that I hope you keep reserved just for me"
Wow...I don't know what to say...
"It's just...Christian you are a beautiful man. Incredibly sexy and obviously amazing in everything you do. And I'm just me. Please hear me out"
I put a finger on his lips to keep him from protesting. I knew he would but I have to get this out of my chest.
"I felt completely embarrassed to have you do that to me. I mean, you're exactly the kind of man every woman secretly wishes for and you were doing that to me. I just don't understand why. And I don't think you should do it again. You don't have to. I'm still not ready to have sex with you, so you don't have to do that. I don't want you to feel obligated to do that for me. It's embarrassing and I'm fine without it"
There, that's that. I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding. I'm avoiding looking at him. I feel so exposed right now.
I just blurted out every deep and uncomfortable thought I had inside of me...But what's worse is that he's in complete silent!
Oh god. This is it. He finally came to his senses and realized I'm just too little for him. Too ordinary.
"Ana, just tell me one thing. Why exactly do you feel embarrassed about having my mouth between your beautiful legs?"
What? is he serious? He wants me to elaborate on it? How the hell can I talk about that? Is just too weird, too awkward!
"Christian please! I can't talk about that."
Great, now I'm blushing like crazy! Oh god, why does he do this?
"Ana, talk to me. Just be honest with me. There's no need for embarrassment. Please baby, just tell me"
He's whispering into my very soul. His eyes filled with understanding and love...He's so dreamy like this.
"Fine. I just don't want you to degrade yourself because you feel like I want that. You don't have to. I know that's disgusting and I don't want you to feel the need to do it for me. That's it"
Damn it. I feel so bad right now. The thought of having him agreeing with what I just said makes me sick. I know that doing that is just weird. I wish he hadn't now.
I wish we had just drove home and kept our relationship like it was, slightly flirtatious but safe.
Then the strangest thing happens. He bursts into laughter. The sound takes me by complete surprise! I love it. I absolutely love it. He looks even more beautiful, if that's even possible. But he's laughing at me. Because of what I said. He's mocking me!
Damn it! Why is he laughing? I feel beyond embarrassed. I want to get out of here and just forget all about this!
"Great. Now you're laughing at me. This is just stupid. We should go. I want to go home please"
I turn my face away from him and release the silver wear on the plate so harshly I almost break it. I don't care. I'm mad and hurt. I just want to go home. I cross my arms and wait for him to also finish his meal. He looks surprised and a little scared. Good. Cause I'm pissed!
"Ana calm down. I'm not laughing at you. Baby I'm sorry. I was just taken aback by what you said. Please don't be mad at me. Look at me Ana please"
He touches my cheek and grabs my chin to make me face him but I deny his touch. I'm too rattled up to allow him to lure me back in. I keep staring at my fingers on my lap and just wait for him to explain what just happened...
"Ana please, can you look at me? Please baby"
"Why did you laugh?"
It's all I can say. I can't even look at him. I'm so damned hurt!
"Ana, I'm sorry! The only reason I laughed was because the thought of me pleasuring you being degrading or disgusting to me is just ludicrous! I adore you! I love every inch of your perfect little body Ana! I need to feel you, as much as I need to breathe! If I could survive with nothing but you and your gorgeous body that's how I wanted to live! I love to taste you, every bit of you! And making you come is my life goal! There's nothing about you that disgusts me or makes me feel shameful. I want you Ana. All of you! Please baby, I'm sorry!"
Oh...well that's...oh...
"I-I don't know what to say...I..."
Now I'm ashamed for making him feel so bad. What is wrong with me? He has been nothing but truthful with me. Patient. Sexy. Loving. Understanding. Perfect. Why am I being so stupid?
"Please, just say you believe me! I can't stand knowing I hurt you! I'm so sorry I laughed Ana. It's just absurd to me that you would feel I didn't like to touch you and taste you. I need you baby. So much. I love you Ana"
The plead in his voice and his eyes is so intense I lose control of my body entirely. I lunge myself into his arms and lock my lips with his, letting go of all the stupid hurt and insecurities.
His hands are on my ass as soon as he realizes what's happening. I moan at his sudden grip on my behind and start stroking his tongue, mimicking his earlier moves in the limo. He growls and squeezes my ass a little more. I can feel his erection starting to grow beneath my core. I can't help the soft moan that escapes my lips. He smiles into my lips and kisses me harder. Like he needs to. Like his life depends on the ferocity of our kiss.
"Oh baby. You're so beautiful. I need you Ana. Let me show you just how much I love you. Please"
The implication in his plead is clear. He wants me. In his bed. Or his couch. Or his limo. I have no idea.
And do I care? It's pretty clear I want him too. My body is completely attuned to his. Every time he touches me, my inside's melt. So what's holding me back?
"Please. Stop thinking. Do what makes you feel good baby. Let me love you"
This time he whispers right into my ear, licking and biting my ear love as he does. Oh god! That's so hot!
"Yes. Please! Show me! I want you Christian. I want you so much"
The words escape my lips before I can control them. But that's all the incentive he needs. He pushes himself up, still carrying me while squeezing my ass. Then he slowly releases me, but keeps me close to him. His body is so warm and rock solid. My breathing is now completely erratic and I can't wait to feel every inch of his perfect body on top of mine. Oh god!
He mumbles something into his phone, never leaving my face. The fire burning behind those gorgeous grey eyes is enough to have me panting and wet for him. The man is pure sex.
In seconds we are inside his limo again, going god knows where, more than ready to reap each others clothes off and lose ourselves in a long night of lust, passion and complete devotion os each others bodies...
And I couldn't be more ready...I've been ready for what feels like forever...