"Why can't I leave ? I don't know anyone here , I don't even know why I am here ! This is insane !" said Thessana , pacing in the room and running a hand in her hair . "I'm turning crazy in here , if at least you could explain anything to me !"
"I don't know what happened , I already told you that . Several times actually ." replied Sif , sit on the bed .
"Is it like a big joke ? I wake up in another realm , freezing cold in case you haven't notice , a stranger by my side in a room I never seen before . And I can't have a single explanation ? "
"The Queen is coming in a few days , she has to take care of some business in Asgard before ."
"What kind of business ? What can be more important than this ?!"
"I don't know ! Stop thinking about yourself for a second Thess !"
"You got to be kidding me . Stop thinking about myself ? I have no memories of what happened . Nothing . It's like I have a big dark cloud in my head . I don't know anybody , trust no one and you want me to stop thinking about myself . Gods .."
"I know this is difficult for you but .."
"No ! No , you know nothing , that's the point . You know nothing , you understand nothing . I'm tired maybe it's time for you to go back to Asgard .."
"I'm coming to see you soon . This time with the Queen ."
Thessana nodded sharply as Sif sighed and left the room . Thessana sat on the bed and looked at the fire . Rain started to pour hard outside .
"Oh perfect , exactly what I needed .."
She stood and went to close the shutters and saw that men were still fighting in the yard . She looked at them , trying to recognize some of them but the rain made it harder . One of them , looked up at her . Robb was his name if she remembered well . Heir of this gloomy castle . He kept starring at her , waiting for something to happen . Thessana felt the rain wetting her sleeves but she didn't care . Something in this man was strange . Thessana knew that he had something to do with her but she was incapable to say what . Someone shouted his name and he looked away . When Robb looked up again , the shutters were closed . He clenched his jaw and resumed his practise , anger in his gestures .
"How is she ?" asked Frigga , looking worried at Sif .
"I don't know , Your Grace … She's angry of course , but that's not a surprise coming from her . But I don't know she was … She looked scared . Or it's all in my head . "
"Fear in her situation isn't a surprise neither .. Is she treated well ?"
"Very well . They try everything to keep her healthy and safe but she's not cooperative . Lady Stark told me that she was barely leaving her room .."
"She's going to be better . I know it . I know her ."
"I hope so , Your Grace .."
"You may leave now Sif . Thanks for everything ."
Sif bowed and left the room . Frigga went to the library and found Loki , sat in a chair , hidden by several books piled on the table .
"Have you found anything ?"
"I already told you Mother , her memories will not come back . They're erased . End of the story ."
"You did that to her , you must have a way to stop it ."
"When I did it , I hadn't the idea to give her memories back . I created the spell like that . You know there's nothing to do . You should bring her back here , it'll be better for everyone ."
"You could be punished for what you've done .."
"And who's going to tell Father ? You ? Really Mother ? You would do this to your little snowflake ..."
"What have you done to my son ..."
"He's gone ! Don't you see it ? That's the real me now . I am not the scared child anymore . I don't need anyone . I am more powerful than any of you and I'll show you some day … Now , with all due respect Mother , leave me alone ."
"The Gods see everything Loki ..."
"I am a God ..."
Night had fallen and everything was dark and silent . Once more , Thessana hadn't show to dinner , rather staying in her room . Catelyn came in and saw her , sat on the ground in front of the fire . She had dark circles under her eyes and looked alert .
"Are you fine sweetheart ?" asked Catelyn while sitting on the bed .
"Yes Lady Stark . Sorry for my absence during dinner . I wasn't that hungry .."
"If you are now , the kitchens are open even if I rather see you fetch a maid .. "
"Thanks Lady Stark .."
"Thessana … I understand you feel like being a captive here . But it's for your safety trust me . I do not enjoy seeing you like that .. "
"It's not against you Lady Stark . I remember you . You came in Asgard when I was younger . With Lord Stark . I remember this time . I just don't feel well with the whole situation right now .. I don't get it . And it bothers me . A lot . "
"I wish I could help you ..."
"But you can't . Nobody can so don't worry . I'll be fine . You should go to sleep my lady . It's late ."
"You should sleep too Thessana .."
"I will ..."
Catelyn kissed Thessana's hair and left the room . After few minutes , Thessana' stomach growled and she sighed . After putting her black cloak around her shoulders she left silently to the kitchen . She expected to see no one , but a man was sat , eating .
"Sorry I did not know that someone was here .."
"Oh come in ! You want to eat something ? Oh uhm I'm Jon , I don't think you remember me .."
"Lord Stark's son ?"
"His bastard ."
"Oh.. Nice to meet you though .. "
"Nice to meet you again ."
He smiled at her and she sat , smiling shyly .
"You want some of my bacon ? I cooked too much of it … "
"Is it crispy ?"
"Oh yes . It's better this way .."
"Then yes .. Oh do you have bread ?!"
"Calm down little savage . Yes we have bread , wait a minute .."
"Why are you awake ?"
"Can ask you the same question .."
He gave her bread and put two pints of ale on the table .
"So ?" said Thessana , taking a sip of ale .
"I couldn't sleep ..."
"Too cold ?"
"I'm used to it " laughed Jon . "No I was just thinking about things .."
"Ah tell me about it .."
"I guess you have more rights than me to have troubles sleeping .."
"My sister told me , long story short , that I was a drama queen , overreacting ."
"Well , if you look at the good side of it , she told you you were a queen , which can be a good thing .."
Thessana laughed and Jon smiled , his eyes bright .
"You're funny .. I like you . Were we friends ? I mean are we ?"
"I don't know … I guess yes we were friends . Good friends actually .. We faced a .. uhm .. Hardship together .."
"Are you still my friend ? I think I need someone as a guide in here ..."
"Of course Thess , I am your friend . We're all here to help you !"
"Thanks .."
"How are you ?"
"Lost .. Mainly . Can I ask you a question ?"
"Yes . If I can answer , I will ."
"There's this man . I think his name is Robb .. He keeps starring at me , waiting for me to do something .. Did I done something bad to him ? Like .. Do I need to apologize to him or what ? He's kind of scary but I have this guilty feeling when I see him looking at me .."
"Gods , I'm seriously thinking about writing a book about you two . "
"What kind of book ? "
"The kind of book that makes you want to slap the characters because they're too stupid . "
"Oh that kind .. So he's like .. my friend ?"
"Not really … It's complicated ."
"It doesn't sound good … "
"You were supposed to marry him .."
Thessana said nothing but laughed , loudly . But she stopped when she saw Jon's face .
"Oh Gods I was betrothed to him ? For real ? That explains the mean stares .."
"He's not angry at you .. More at the situation . "
"Do I love him ?"
"I don't think so .. You're not the kind of person that falls in love that quickly I think . But you cared for him , you tried to save his life once ."
"Wow that's something .. What else ?"
"Obviously you did not marry him .."
"Did we .. you know … get some action together?"
She blushed as Jon burst in laughs .
"Yeah right laugh about this , thanks .."
"I'm sorry you're just so .. You should ask this to Robb !"
"Yeah between two murderous stares and while he has his sword in his hand , good idea . Why I didn't marry him ?"
"It's late .. I'm feeling tired .."
"Okay .. "
He stood taking his plate out of the table . Then he stayed next to her , unconfortable .
"You can go Jon . Thanks for the answers already , it was very kind of you …"
"I hope we're going to see each other again . I like you Thess .."
He kissed her hair and left quietly . She sighed and finished her meal . After clearing the table , she went in her room . In it , all was dark , the fire was dead . She kneeled next to it and light it with her magic . She stayed in front of it , trying to warm herself when she heard noises behind her . She turned quickly , reading to protect herself . But there was nothing .
"Who's there ? "
"Hi little Thess .. I missed you .."
A man appeared . He was wearing a long cloak but she couldn't see who it was .
"Who are you ? What do you want ?"
"Your worst nightmare ..."
She felt something thick and warm on her collarbone . She touched and screamed . Her flesh was cut . Someone had just cut her throat .
Robb closed his eyes as the door of his room opened then closed .
"Oh stop faking it , I know you're awake ."
"What do you want Jon ? I'm tired .."
"She thinks you hate her . She thinks that you're angry at her . What's wrong with you and the mean stares ?"
"She stares at me too !"
"How old are you ?! Stop starring at her like some weird guys and talk to her !"
"Why is it so easy for you ?"
"What do you mean ?"
"Why is she more open with you than with me ? Why does she talk to you ? Why is she more confortable with you than she'll ever be with me . That's why I don't talk to her , Jon . Because how can I stand against her friend Jon ? She'll take me for some fool and be bored of me , end of the story . "
"You're jealous ? I can't believe it .."
"Yeah make fun of me thanks . Theon doesn't do it enough ."
"Theon is stupid , forget him for a second . Stupid as you actually . Robb she's lost , she doesn't remember a thing that happened in the last weeks . She needs you more than me , I'm sure of this . "
"I don't think so .."
"Shut up . Tomorrow you'll take her for a ride and you'll talk to her ."
"Is it an order Snow ?"
"Yes Stark ."
Robb laughed and hit his brother in the shoulder .
"I let you sleep now ..."
But as soon as Jon closed the door , Robb heard a scream . He ran out of the room to face Jon who was frowning .
"Thess .."
They both ran to her room . Robb held his dagger as he stormed in the room . He dropped it when he saw her in a corner of the room , sobbing , her head burried between her knees .
"Should I call someone ?" asked Jon .
"No … No wait .."
Robb came to her slowly then kneeled . He touched her arm and she jumped .
"Hey calm down it's me .. Robb .. You're safe now . I swear . Tell me what happened ."
"I'm dead ! He cut my throat .."
"Thess you're alive .. Look at me ! You're alive .."
She didn't answer and kept sobbing . Robb sat and held her in his arms .
"Don't call anyone Jon . If they didn't hear , let's keep that between us .."
Jon nodded and left the room to see if someone was here . Thessana was clutching Robb's shirt , still crying .
"Thess ssshhhh , you're fine little one . Nobody is going to kill you . I will protect you until my last breath … "
Thessana let him go and looked at him , her eyes shining .
"You will protect me until your last breath ? I don't know you ! You're a complete stranger who keeps staring at me like some freak ! Get out ! Get out of my room !"
She stood and kept screaming at him until he left . He leaned over her door and closed his eyes as he heard her break something . When he opened his eyes , Jon was starring at him .
"She needs me , right Jon ?"
And he left back in his room , leaving his brother alone .
"I hope you travelled well your grace ..." said Catelyn as she climbed the stairs , Frigga by her side .
"With magic is much easier . How is the North ?"
"Still cold ."
Both women laughed as they came in Thessana's room . But the laughter faded as they noticed that the room was empty .
"Where is she ?" asked Frigga .
"I don't know … She was there few hours ago and I did not see her leave the castle .."
"She's in the Sept praying , Lady Stark , Your Grace .."
Catelyn did not look at Jon but Frigga greeted him with a smile .
"Thanks Jon .. How are you ?"
"I'm fine Your Grace . "
"You look well . What are you doing inside ? It's such a nice day .."
"I was just taking my cloak when I heard you .. I wasn't eavesdropping I swear !"
"I know Jon " laughed Frigga .
"I should go .." and he left quickly .
"Sorry for him Your Grace , Jon isn't .."
"Jon is a nice boy .. "
Catelyn did not answer and followed the queen .
"I pray All Gods to help me through this … I'm lost , completely lost . I try to be nice to everybody but I feel weak … I feel helpless . And I'm scared .. So so scared .. Please help me .."
She looked up and had a little smile at the sight of the book of prayers .
"Thanks .."
She stood and left outside to seek Jon . He was fighting with Robb and Jon and the man they called Ser Rodrik .
"Jon ..."
They all stopped and looked at her . She blushed a little .
"Uhm sorry .. I just want to talk to Jon for a minute .. If it's possible of course ."
Robb threw his sword on the ground and left in the castle, shouting curses . Ser Rodrik yelled at him to watch his language and several maids , working outside , had their mouths opened , looking shocked . Jon came by her side and led her inside , a hand on her back .
"How can I help you Thess ?"
"What's his problem ? "
"Really ? Whatever .. You look weird ."
"Do you have a library in here ? I need books . Loads of books ."
"Why ?"
"Since I'm a child , anytime I had a problem I was looking for help in books ."
"You're not a child anymore ."
"But I still have problems .. "
"Right .. Come ."
Frigga was still walking in the corridors , talking to Catelyn when they saw Thessana , walking towards them , paper and quills in her arms .
"Thess ? What are you doing ? Are you fine ?!" asked Frigga , frowning .
"Yes yes Your Grace ! Thanks for coming !"
And she left .
"Where is she going ?"
"This is the way to the library .."
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