SM OWNS IT ALL.
"Sophia, let's go mamas. We don't want to be late. Give Bella hugs goodbye." Alice runs around the kitchen gathering their things.
Alice has done so much for me. I owe her my fucking life.
Sophie runs to me with her little milk mustache.
"Bye Bella-s," She says softly.
"Bye-bye Sophie," I whisper. I clean her upper lip and kiss her forehead.
I rub the burning in my chest when they leave. The pain suffocates me on the daily. The guilt torments me mercilessly. I don't know how to fix it without hurting more.
Esme calls me at work again.
"He'll be here by the end of the week Bella. I just spoke to him." She's nervous.
"I'm sorry that I put you and Carlisle in the middle of all this," I say sincerely. I feel really fucking shitty for what they've done for me.
"Bella, you know that my son cut us all off when he left and when he finally did call us, he didn't want to know anything about anyone." It still hurts to hear that.
"I'm still sorry."
The burning in my chest continues throughout the day.
As much as I don't want to think about him, I do. It's all I think about.
Three and a half years…I always think about him. Of course I do.
But I'm not that stupid anymore—I protect my heart now.
A/N More coming up :)