SM OWNS IT ALL.
We're having dinner at home—just the three of us. Alice keeps looking at me. I wish she would just spit it out.
"You have to eat all your broccolis before you can have ice cream. Okay?" She says to Sophie.
"But I don't want no more," Sophie whines softly and then turns to look at me for help.
Her eyes…they make the burning in my chest intensify.
Alice sighs loudly. She knows I'm about to give in to Sophie.
"Alice is right Sophie, you have to eat your broccoli or we all can't have ice cream." She pouts but continues to eat her food.
When Sophie is finally asleep, Alice decides to talk. I don't know if I'm relieved.
"How are you doing?" she asks.
"Fine."
"You've been way too quiet. More than usual." I have. "Sophia wanted to know if you were angry at her." My eyes burn. Fuck.
"He arrives tomorrow." I mumble. Just saying it makes my heart drop.
He's opening up wounds that I buried a long time ago and he's not even here yet. Everything that I locked away is now resurfacing with a vengeance.
I know Alice has noticed the puffy eyes in the morning and the dark circles. I've hardly slept these past three nights and when I did, I had nightmares. Only these nightmares are actually real. He leaves in every single one.
I relive the day he left…and I relive the moments he's missed.
:'(