SM OWNS IT ALL.
"Have at it, baby." He shows me his cheek.
I freeze at the word baby.
"I—I'm sorry." He mumbles.
"It's okay." I stare down at my coffee. It's getting cold.
The playful mood is gone.
"You were really fucked up to me." I break the silence.
He hangs his head. "I know, I'm so sorry, Bella." His face looks anguished.
So am I.
My belly aches from the butterflies and the hurt that I've carried, but I have to tell him.
"What is it? Just tell me."
Fuck, he knows me so well. And it aches more now that I know that.
I sigh. "You didn't give anyone any information on where you were going." I accuse him.
"I know." He says quietly.
"That was really fucking stupid because…" God! The words just keep getting stuck in my throat. "Because I had something important to tell you and as time went on and it happened and I came to terms with it…I just decided that you didn't need to know since you weren't here. But you could never be gone, you're always with me whether I like it or not…" I chew on my lip, trying to decide what else to tell him.
"I don't understand…what did you need to tell me? What are you talking about?"
I picture my daughter and gain strength from it.
"I was pregnant when you left." I look him in the eyes. Sad and angry tears pool in my eyes.
Courage gets me through that statement.
And maybe, just maybe I love that he's here talking to me.
You know when there's that one person that you will always love...and even forgive him anything? yeah. this.