SM OWNS IT ALL.
I'm surprised that I didn't completely break down the minute those words left my mouth. In fact, I feel a whole lot lighter. I really needed to get it out. Carrying this with me all this time has affected me so much emotionally. I take a deep breath and it's, minimal, but I can breathe.
He's shocked—completely speechless. I see his mind trying to work this out a million miles a minute.
I help him out.
"Sophia is my daughter…not Alice's." I wring my hands together and wait for him to say something.
"You've got to be fucking kidding me." He runs his hands through his hair furiously, groaning almost in agony. "You've gotta be kidding me Bella." He pleads.
I sniffle. "I wish I was." I laugh through my tears. "I never expected to be a single mom, but here I am." My voice breaks at the end. I look down, wiping away the tears that came down.
"Christ, Bella." He gets up from his seat and walks over to my side quickly. He kneels next to me and takes my hands.
"I'm so fucking sorry. You have to know that!" he says forcefully.
He doesn't care that we're getting looks from other customers. Maybe this wasn't the best place…but it's done. I don't think I would have had the courage any other day.
I brought my big girl panties today…and I'm really trying to work them.
I cover my face and I nod at him.
His eyes are pained; I know he's sorry.
"For everything, Bella. You were the only thing in my life that was right. And I regret letting you go. Fuck, you have to believe me!" he pleads.
My heart is in my throat.