Mistakes are mine still.
SM OWNS TWILIGHT...I own dirty thoughts starring Robsten. what? It's totally normal.
A long month has passed of planning and more planning for Sophie's third birthday. This is usually Alice's field but I really wanted to do this to get my mind off Edward. I don't know why I make everything revolve around him; I'm hopeless…and pissed. I tried a new tactic—immerse myself in Sophie, work, and planning the event of the year.
"You're grumbling again," Alice says.
"I know," I sigh.
For some stupid reason I thought that after our talk, Edward would want to open up to me some more and maybe work on us. Well, that hasn't happened. In fact, he's more distant and it's driving me insane. I don't understand what happened and I'm too chicken shit to ask him. I mean, what if I just assumed it was all good and we could be together…but he still has other issues. Or he doesn't want to be with me.
Crap. That might be it.
I'm also grumbling because something happened today...and I don't know what to do.
"Cullen's an asshole," I growl. Alice arches her brow at me.
"Cullen? You're mad at him?" she asks.
"Yes."
"Why?"
"Because he's an idiot!" I throw my hands up, frustrated.
"Are you surprised?" she laughs. "He's a guy, Bella." I hate it when she's right.
"I thought…I thought we were moving in the right direction, you know?"
She nods and smiles sympathetically. "I think you have to really spell it out for him. Tell him that you want to work on your relationship. Don't expect him to read your mind, he's not that smart," she teases.
I mull this over for a bit. Of course she's right, but if he wanted the same thing wouldn't he already know what I want and try for it?
I told him I loved him—stupid idea, now. What is he thinking? Seriously.
"Someone asked me out on a date," I blurt out. This is why I'm pissed. This guy is…so nice and hot. And he wants to take me out. And I'm strung up on Edward. And if Edward doesn't want me, and I lose my chance with this guy…I will be chopping off some balls. No matter how pretty they are, dammit!
"Who? That new hot teacher you were telling me about?" I bite my lip and nod.
"That's the one. His name is David."
"I say you go for it. Edward can suck it! And then maybe he'll realize what a moron he's being." she says triumphantly.
"Alice…" I sigh "I don't want to use David like that. He's an awesome person; I wouldn't do that to him."
"Edward hasn't stepped up to the plate. I think he's running scared again," she says more seriously.
That's what I'm afraid of and I don't know what to do.
Hot teacher asking Bella out when Edward's being...weird. what to do? what to do?