Warnings: Strong language and sexual scene. Non-con? You decide.

A/N: This is the last part of this story. Again this is a gift fic for the great ExtinctionOfReality that knows how to cheer me up in my good and bad days. Thanks for everything, my dear friend! You're the Shuuhei to my Kira =)

I hope you enjoy this chapter, and I hope you enjoyed the story overall. (And I really hope it didn't suck^^')

This was not beta-ed. I apologize for the mistakes.

369 – Life is unfair

Final Chapter – 9 – Shitty paths, shitty fates

Hisagi woke up nauseated. His head hurt badly on his left side, and he could feel something gagging his mouth. He tried to open his eyes, but he could only see through his right eye; some kind of tissue or bandage was biding his head and covering the left one.

His mind commanded his arms to rise, and a small bit of panic settle when he realized that he couldn't move at all. He looked up, and still with his blurred vision, he saw black stripes holding his hands and arms together above his head. His legs were spread and both had the same type of stripes, leading to God knows where.

He looked around, and calmed down realizing he was in his own room and futon. Although, the darkness showed he was alone he couldn't help but feel a bit less uneasy for being in a familiar room.

But how did he get there? Why was he tied up? Why did his head felt like he hit it somewhere hard?

The last memories he had were with Abarai. The redhead was with him, and was touching him, but after that... nothing.

Where was Abarai? Did he had some kinky session with him? Because he would be absolutely mad if he had and now had no memories about it. But still, he had a bad feeling about this. There was something in his mind warning him that this was wrong. He just couldn't think of what.

Soon, he heard his door being unlocked. He couldn't figure out who came inside, but he could see a tall figure and a smaller one.

He heard them whisper, but couldn't tell what they were saying.

"Oh my goodness! Hisagi-san!" he recognized Kira's voice, and noticed his figure coming closer and kneeling next to him. The lights turned on, and the undoubtedly Abarai's red hair caught Hisagi's attention.

"What happened?!" the blond spoke, as he watched him. Kira smelled strongly of saké. "W-What have you done to him?" he asked Abarai.

"It's nothing... I took care of him."

"How could it be nothing? There's so much blood!"

Blood?

"What..." the blond tried to said as he watched the bandaged head.

Did Abarai hit him? Was that why his head hurt?

"Hisagi-san? Can you see me?"

"Kira," Abarai spoke from behind.

"Hisagi-san?" the blond ignored him.

"Kira, he's fine. This is for you." And the blond looked back in shock.

"W-what?"

"You asked me to give him to you, so here he is. He's yours, you can do whatever you want to him."

Hisagi's visible eye slightly widen. What was Abarai saying? Weren't they together? Why would he do that?

Don't get him wrong, it's not that he didn't find Kira attractive, but Hisagi didn't like to combine love with loveless sex. And now Hisagi loved someone he was having a relationship with, having any kind of physical contact with other was against his morals. But what pained him the most was that Abarai was giving him to Kira. Why? Sure, Kira was upset seeing them together, but why would Abarai do this? Was he playing with Hisagi and his feelings?

And something he never thought it would happen, occurred...

Kira wasn't denying him. He was actually thinking about it.

"But..." he started, Abarai interrupted him.

"You always wanted him, right? You tried to end every thing because you wanted him, now it's your chance. He's here for you. I give him to you." The redhead sat behind the blond, and looked over the small shoulder.

"Hisagi won't say no, right?" the question was for him, and the brunet was as still as stone. He didn't understand why Abarai was doing this.

Kira looked conflicted. If someone ever asked Hisagi if Kira could ever do something to him against his will, Hisagi wouldn't think twice replying no, because Kira was the most caring person he knew. Kira would put everyone in front of him, and would NEVER hurt another. But now... Hisagi wasn't so sure. Kira was thinking about using him... Was it because he was drunk? Or because he was rejected? Hisagi didn't know the answer to that, but he disliked the situation he was in. He had never seen this side of Kira or Abarai. It was like he didn't know them.

"I..." the blond softly said.

"You want him, right?" Abarai asked closer to his ear. The blond's eyes were darker than usual, he nodded.

"Then have him," with his hand, Abarai grabbed Kira's and put it on Hisagi's chest. Kira's was cold, while Abarai's was hot and sweaty.

"You can touch him," Abarai continued speaking on the blond's ear. "See? He doesn't mind."

Kira's confidence rose a little and he opened the rest of Hisagi's kosode and shitagi.

And Hisagi's mind became absent from his body. He couldn't feel or hear anything. It was strange because he knew Kira was touching him, taking his clothes off, but he wasn't feeling it. He was a mere spectator watching from a shell. The shell being his body.

But what he watched wasn't the blond, it was the man behind him that carefully undressed the thin body. And Hisagi captured something he hoped he misunderstood, because if he did understand properly what was happening he would feel worse than a used rag. It wouldn't break him, it would be worse than that, it would decimate him.

Abarai didn't look at him once, but his grey eyes never left him. Not even when the blond kissed his torso, not even when the blond hair slightly tickled on his hips, not even when his hakama was pulled down and a warm mouth covered his member. And it was in that very moment that Abarai looked away from Kira and met Hisagi's eyes, telling him the reason why he was doing all of this. He wasn't able to watch Kira doing what he was doing, all because...

… Abarai had feelings for Kira.

And shit... this was so not fair.

Kira loved Hisagi, and he loved Abarai, and Abarai loved Kira, and life was so unfair, because none of them could have who they wanted...

And shit again... he realized what Abarai was doing... Why was he giving him to Kira... He was trying to stop this circle of unfairness. He was giving to one of them the chance to be happy. He tried to make Hisagi the happy one, but that failed miserably the moment the blond laid eyes on them, so he was now making Kira the one who could at least fulfill his love.

Hisagi couldn't tell if this was a good action from Abarai, or he was simply being desperate.

Kira sat on his knees and sadly looked down. Hisagi noticed at that moment that he was completely limp. He was so absorbed by his thoughts that he forgot about what was really happening. In that moment, it was like he returned to his body, he wasn't a spectator anymore, he was the one tied up in that futon.

Abarai told the blond something in his ear that he wasn't able to understand. Kira made no expressions, but his blue eyes looked up, and while Abarai kept whispering things in his ear, his blue eyes so dead and dull without the usual glint didn't left him.

They send him shivers, as if Death was walking on his grave.

Kira looked empty and dead inside and Hisagi was scared, because he knew he was the one killing him, and making those eyes so gloom and blunt. And while clothes were being removed Hisagi made the decision to not fight back anything that was going to happen. If he was the one killing Kira, then he deserved to pay for all his suffering.

Pale hands spread his legs even more and Hisagi couldn't help but cringe as something hard entered him unprepared. Again and again and again. Kira was merciless as he thrust inside so firmly with no hesitation. This hurt... and Hisagi was sure it hurt the blond too. The raw friction was making him start bleeding, and Hisagi shut his eyes trying to bear the pain. He felt the blond leaning forward and kiss him over the clothe in his mouth, and gradually he stopped moving at all.

Hisagi opened his eyes and saw Kira's completely shut as if he was trying to hold something inside.

And of course he was. Even drunk or desperate Kira knew that what he was doing was wrong.

Abarai leaned forward.

"Kira?"

He didn't reply.

"Kira are you alright?" Abarai asked him again.

This was scaring both of them. The blond started shaking and trembling.

"Kira..."

And low words left his mouth and stabbed Hisagi more than it should have.

"He doesn't want me."

Silence filled the room, and both Abarai and Hisagi shared a look. Kira was no fool, he never was and it was a mistake to think someone could deceive him.

It was beyond pitiful, it was... sad. So damned sad, and even more sad were Abarai's amber eyes begging for help.

"D-Don't be stupid, of course he wants you," Abarai said. "Isn't that right, Hisagi?" and he took off the clothe biding his mouth. His lips hurt even when they opened to speak, and still knowing it was a lie, there was only one acceptable answer to all of this.

"I want you."

And he leaned his head upwards to kiss the surprised blond in front of him. His heart beating painfully against his chest, and he felt a small urge to cry, but he wouldn't, because he wasn't going to disrespect any of them or himself. Crying wasn't something that should be done lightly, much less in front of others.

Kira kissed him back with all he got. He wanted him, and the only thing Hisagi could to for his precious friend was to give him what he wanted... no, what he needed.

All of a sudden, Kira gasped in the kiss, his whole body shivered and his hands clenched Hisagi's shoulders over and over in sync with his gasps.

Abarai's long red locks covered part of Hisagi's face as he leaned forward, kissing and nibbling the blond Fukutaichou's ear. Then his face, and with his free hand he grabbed the blonds cheek, stopping his kiss with Hisagi. And he kissed him instead, his other hand moved frantically, out of Hisagi's sight. But it was obvious he was pleasuring Kira. Their kiss was lewd, tongues and saliva mixing in ways that would make any soul blush. The sight was simply incredible, and for the first time that night Hisagi was hard.

Abarai pulled Kira back with him, and stroke his hard member, covering it with what Hisagi later found out to be ointment acting as lube. And once again, Kira positioned himself between Hisagi's legs and entered him.

It still hurt but not as much as before. Gradually, the pain started to fade away, and sounds of pleasure started to leave his mouth and Kira kissed him again.

The rhythm changed and Kira moaned deeply while Abarai entered him, fucking him hard, so hard Hisagi could feel the power of his thrusts through Kira's cock inside him. The blond moaned on his ear and Hisagi stared at the redhead god behind him. How wonderful this was. It was like it was Abarai the one fucking him. It was so arousing, Hisagi wished his arms were free so he could touch that long hair.

"Kiss me," he asked Abarai, even if it sounded like begging. It was the least the other could do, right? And Abarai did kiss him, never stopping thrusting Kira.

In that very moment, Hisagi felt a heaviness in his heart, like he never felt before. He knew that kiss was pure pity just like the kiss he gave Kira, and it hurt him.

So many years loving Abarai, wishing to be by his side, everyday convincing him that he loved him and that he was the right guy for him. And now it was all taken from him, chewed up and thrown away.

He felt used, but he didn't want to stop either. He was enjoying it. He was enjoying watching Abarai fucking Kira, he was enjoying being screwed by Kira, but that damned kiss... It brought the worst of everything.

Abarai's hand stroke his cock at the same time they kissed, and not longer after, the redhead's mouth whispered "I'm sorry" and he pulled out of Kira, grabbing the blond and making him pull out of Hisagi.

It was an evident thing that Kira was smaller than Abarai, but the redhead look so gigantic as he grabbed the small Fukutaichou, pulling him up to sit on Hisagi's member. And just like that they switched places.

Kira was ridding him needy, his cock bouncing up and down, and fuck... Kira's ass was tightening around him, and shit... he almost felt like coming by that.

But what he didn't expect was Abarai spreading Hisagi's butt cheeks and start doing him at the same time Kira rode him. It was the best feeling he ever felt. Having them both owning his body was so fulfilling. Especially, Abarai's big cock inside him, moving vigorously and taking him over the edge.

Kira moved rapidly, his eyes closed and his mouth opened, his features showing pure pleasure, and the moment Abarai's arm snuck around the thin waist and grabbed his cock, the blond came, with a sweet but needy moan. His whole body fell on top of Hisagi's.

Abarai continued fucking Hisagi, making him thrust his hips up still inside Kira. His own voice was out of control. Abarai was so good, hitting every where it felt good.

Shit... he loved Abarai so much. He didn't want this to end. He didn't mind if it would be like this, the three of them, for the rest of his life. As long as he had Abarai Renji touching him like this, making him feel so alive it was enough. Even without loving him back, it would be enough...

And Hisagi came hard enough for him to pass out. His last thoughts before losing consciousness were about how it sucked he couldn't see Abarai climax.

Hisagi woke up not longer after. Kira was still lying on top of him, and Abarai was taking the stripes off his arms and legs.

Their eyes met.

"Are you okay?" Abarai asked him.

Hisagi nodded, "Yeah."

"He's asleep," he said about Kira. Indeed, Kira was sleeping deeply on his chest.

"Why?" Hisagi asked him, "Why didn't you tell me you like him?"

Abarai sighed before answering. "How could I? When every time we met you tell me all those things... How could I've told you that I like another when you confess to me everyday?"

"I know it now."

"Well, you weren't suppose to know."

Was he stupid? How could he not find out, after all they did?

"After what you did... you... why lying? Why did you said yes to me?"

"Because it was only a matter of time before you giving Kira a chance."

It was true... If Abarai didn't want him, and Kira insisted, he would eventually give in to the blond.

"It's no fair," Hisagi said.

"It's not."

"What now?"

"Now, there's two things that may happen. I'm sure you noticed Kira was really drunk. And when Kira is really drunk he usually doesn't remember anything on the next day. So if by any chance he does remember what happened, you will need to give him a chance. If you don't, I won't speak to you ever again. But... if he doesn't remember then I will date you, and we'll face the consequences of that."

"Either case, you never win."

"I don't deserve to win. I hurt you pretty badly, and I don't feel guilty at all. I would do it all over again."

"It's still not fair for you."

"Don't bother about that... And it's not like in one of those cases I completely lose..."

And that was enough to make Hisagi smile.

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Hisagi woke up at the sound of someone in his bathroom. He looked at his side, and Abarai was snoring, hugging the pillow.

Knowing who was the one in the bathroom, Hisagi got up and dressed his shitagi covering his freezing body, and went to find a butt naked Kira kneeling in front of the toilet.

Hisagi knelt beside him, and grabbed the blond hair, as he threw up. After a few minutes, Kira calmed down.

"Hisagi-san... I'm sorry I drank so much," he excused himself.

"It's alright, Kira. Do you," Hisagi hesitated for a bit. This was it... the answer to their fates, "remember last night?"

"No," Kira said and then frowned, "your head..."

Hisagi frowned, he had forgotten about it.

"Don't worry it's nothing."

Was it nothing? He didn't care. Kira didn't remember...

There was silence between them. Hisagi felt guilty that he was glad that Kira had no memories. So guilty that as he looked at those sad blue eyes he couldn't help but saying...

"We had sex last night. The three of us."

"I figured that out," Kira said blushing and covering his nudity with his arms.

"Abarai and I..."

"... are together, I know," the blond said looking down.

"Are you upset?"

"No. I'm actually happy about you two," he replied smiling. Was he lying? Was he serious? Why suddenly all the happiness inside Hisagi vanished? Was he disappointed Kira wasn't... jealous?

"You looked upset when you saw us."

"I was just shocked. I wasn't expecting to find you two together. But I'm fine with it. You're both my friends, and you both deserve to be happy," Kira sadly smiled.

And shit... Hisagi had doubts now, because he didn't know if he liked the idea of fooling Kira with his deals with Abarai, or that Kira had such a beautiful smile that made his heart beat faster than normal. Or maybe it was because of the memories of the blond's voice moaning on his ear, or his soft body moving against his own.

Whatever it was the reason, Hisagi knew he wouldn't find out, because he knew it was a dangerous path for the three of them, so he was going to stay oblivious to why he was having so many doubts, the same way he was going to stay oblivious to the fact Kira wasn't asleep last night, and that all the things that happened to three of them, he remembered...

The end.

Reviews are always welcomed =)

*I won't exclude the idea of making a sequel, but I won't make any promises. All I can say is that I really like Kira in this story, and if there will be any sequels in the future, he will be the main character.*