Disclaimer: I still don't own twilight.

It was hard to believe that after moths of preparation the fight with Victoria was tomorrow. I let my mind drift over the formation of my family for tomorrows fight. According to Emmett there wouldn't be much of a fight most of them were newborns after all but the situation did worry me as I lay in my sleeping bag freezing my ass off. Emmett was sitting by the door of the tent in an effort to keep me warm but it didn't matter. If someone didn't get a space heater soon I wouldn't be able to keep all ten fingers much less my toes. Then as if an answer to my prayers Seth walked through the door of the tent. I haven't seen him human in months and as far as I knew he didn't ever want to see me again.

"Scoot over", he mumbled removing his shirt but still not looking at me. I looked at him in disbelief but followed his demand. I pushed myself as far into the sleeping bag as the fabric would allow. He lay down behind me and forced the zipper up behind him.

"I thought you hated me", I chattered through.

"I do but that doesn't mean I love you any less", he replied wrapping his impossibly warm arms around.

"That makes no sense", I said beginning to warm up immediately.

"You're telling me", he laughed without humor.

"I'm really sorry about what happened", I said.

"There's nothing you can do about it now, I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive you", he answered grimly, "but I'm going to hold that hope with you Charlie, because it's almost impossible to give up on someone who is your heart, someone who is your soul", he replied putting his lips to my hair. When I woke up that morning I was sweating, Seth was still asleep he looked so peaceful I ran my fingers over his sooth dark skin I traced the outline of his lips he groaned and kissed them slowly opening his eyes. I looked to my left and seen Emmett's shadow outside the tent, and then I reluctantly pulled my fingers back to my side with a smile.

"Hey Babe it's about time for me to head out", Emmett said coming into the tent. I got out of the sleeping bag quickly and he gathered me in his lap. I rested my head against his cold chest and sighed. Seth unzipped the tent and left quickly. I looked at him for a long moment and a single tear rolled down my cheek, he knew what I wanted the one thing he I knew he would never give me. "I know but it will be over before you know it", he smiled kissing the tear away.

"Stay with me", I asked in one final attempt to not have him fight.

"Come on Charlie we've talked about this and besides, if two Cullen's sit out we look like wimps", he said. I dropped my head in defeat. He lifted my chin so he could kiss me. My lips meet his in a fit of rage, I hated him. I really really hated him for doing this to me so what if the fight did go with out a hitch so what I would still be sitting here waiting what if he didn't come back what if I never see him again I thought frantically trying to push his shirt over his head. "Charlie be good", he cautioned around my lips.

"And what if I don't wanna be", I murmured removing my own shirt.

"10 minutes, take it or leave it", he offered finally. I didn't have to reply I just crashed my lips back to his. Before I knew it both of us were completely naked and he was on top of me.

"Stay with me", I pleaded as he thrust into me.

"Come on baby please don't do this to me", he said capturing my lips in his.

"What if you don't come back?"

"I will."

"How do you know?"

"Just do", he answered quickening his pace, I was close I could feel myself tighten around him.

"Promise me", I panted.

"Promise", he replied, and then I finally clamped down on him. He found his release soon after me. "I really do have to go this time", he said apologetically. He put on his clothes quickly and kissed me on the lips before running out of sight. I put on my clothes slowly and started to walk towards Edward and Bella's tent. I was almost there when all the sudden Seth was in front of me.

"Hey", I said surprise to see him.

"Look I know that we haven't talked in a while but before everything goes down I just want you to know", he stopped suddenly and kissed me. And I kissed him back, what am I doing I scolded myself. Ok fine I was still in love with him yes I needed him but cheating on your fiancée is a shady road to walk and I knew that, so why wasn't I stopping. Maybe if I wasn't so mad at Emmett I would stop, maybe if I wasn't such a selfish person I would stop, and maybe if I wasn't so in love with him I would stop but the truth was I was all of those things. But for some reason unknown to me I did stop.