Callie was still fresh off of her fathers trip to Seattle. She was so grateful that they didn't leave on a terrible note. She was grateful that he reconsidered and chose to come back and make things right. All she wanted and all that she had hoped for was for him to make an effort. It warmed her heart to know that he was. He was going try and accept her for who she was and that's all she could ask of him. She knew that it was going to take time. She didn't want to push him or force anything because all of the information he had received was overwhelming for him, but she was more than thankful that he was trying to understand who she was and where she was coming from.
After a week of madness at the hospital Callie and Arizona found it difficult to see one another. There had been so many surgeries, so many patients, and so little alone time. Though Callie made an effort at seeing Arizona whenever she could within the last few days, it didn't always seem to be reciprocated. She had planned a quiet dinner for them at her place last night, but things didn't go quite as she had hoped they would. By no means did anything go terribly wrong, but it didn't feel like their normal date nights. They ate and they spoke frequently, but then Arizona left. She finished her dinner, finished her wine, and said goodnight. Callie wasn't expecting sex or a wild night out on the town, but she had hoped that after a week of barely seeing one another Arizona would at least spend the night. She didn't want to nag or beg for her to stay, so she let her go without asking questions.
After a night of lonesomeness and tossing and turning Callie woke up early and showed up at the hospital twenty five minutes earlier than necessary for her shift. Even though she was tired from her lack of sleep from the night before, she wanted to check in on her patient that Addison was working on today. She was a pregnant twenty year old, who had taken a nasty fall down several stairs in her home four days ago. Callie had put several pins into her wrist after suffering a fracture from the fall. She grew to really like the girl. She seemed incredibly sweet and personable, but it was evident that she was also lonely and sad. She couldn't quite figure it out, but there was something about the girl that reminded Callie of herself. After learning that she was on her own in Seattle while being pregnant and very young Callie tried to talk to her at least once a day, attempting to make the girl not feel so alone in a big city. She was a very sweet young lady, who didn't really have anyone there for support. Callie just wanted to make sure everything was alright before Addison took her in for surgery. Callie walked down the hall rather quickly. She turned the corner without really paying any attention to her surroundings. She ran into Arizona, they bumped heads.
"Oh crap." Callie said holding her head and wincing in pain.
"I'm so sorry, I didn't even see you there." Arizona said while looking down. She reached up to put her hand on Callie's shoulder. Once Arizona noticed it was Callie that she had bumped into she quickly moved her hand away and put it in her pocket.
"It's okay, my fault. I wasn't paying attention. I'm just looking for Addison. Have you seen her? Well actually I'm looking for a patient, Kylie McCarthy?"
"I haven't, no. And the name isn't ringing a bell." Arizona said quietly.
"Tall, blonde, green eyes, pins in her hand, pregnant?" She could tell Arizona had no idea who she was talking about, "Never mind. I'll just find Addison."
"Why are you looking for them?" Arizona curiously asked.
"Oh, well she was my patient the other day and she seems really lonely and nervous about her baby and all." Arizona nodded once, "She's young and I just felt bad, so I figured I could just hang out with her for a few minutes before her surgery. Ya know, let her know nothing will happen to the baby."
"Oh. So you guys are like friends or something?" Arizona asked. Her question came across extremely sarcastic, but it wasn't how Arizona intended for it to sound.
"Are we friends? No. She was just my patient." Callie snapped back slightly aggressive.
"I was just asking if she's been your patient for a while or something? Just seems really sweet of you to take some time to see her, that's all." She knew Callie was now annoyed.
"Oh. Well, not really. She's just twenty years old and pregnant, she's worried about her baby. Her parents disowned her when she told them she was having a baby and her boyfriend bailed. I just… I guess if that were me I'd just want someone there I could at least talk to." She began walking. Arizona followed her. She didn't really respond to Callie's reasoning for finding Kylie or Addison. She just held her chart closely to her chest and walked. Callie stuck her head in almost every patient's room as they walked down the hall. The quiet was slightly awkward because she knew Arizona was walking with her, well at least behind her, neither of them were now talking. She didn't mean to snap at her before and she felt kind of shitty for it so she thought she should say something before things got even more awkward, "So last night."
"Last night?" Arizona questioned.
"Yeah, you left really fast. Like abnormally fast." Callie said continuing to walk ahead of her.
"I didn't." Arizona said.
"You did." Callie turned the corner, Arizona continued to follow.
"Did I?" She asked.
"Yes." Callie replied quickly.
"I'm sorry, I just... I just have a.. a thing." Arizona scratched the back of her head and apologized.
"A thing?" Callie abruptly stopped and turned around. Arizona walked into her.
"Yeah. A thing."
"Hm." She nodded. She didn't exactly believe Arizona, but she wasn't in the mood to argue.
"Yeah, no biggie." She dismissed the situation.
"Right. No biggie." Callie turned back around and kept walking. Arizona was once again right behind her, " So are we still going to dinner later?" Callie stuck her head in the last door in the hall and she found Kylie. Before Arizona could answer her, Callie smiled at the young girl and spoke up, "Kylie!" Arizona entered behind her, but stayed by the door.
"Hi Dr. Torres." Kylie responded softly.
"Kylie, this is Dr. Robbins." Callie introduced Arizona. The young girl stuck out her hand to shake Arizona's, but soon remembered that her hand was filled with pins and covered with a cast.
"No worries. It's really nice to meet you Kylie. Dr. Torres has said lot's of nice things about you."
"Aw, wow thanks, it's nice to meet you too. She's been really great to me." Kylie said.
"Yeah, she's a pretty incredible doctor. " Arizona smiled while looking at Callie. Callie didn't look back towards Arizona, even though what she had just said had been extremely kind she didn't want to turn around. She felt herself being meaner than she wanted to be, but she couldn't help it. She was annoyed at how weird Arizona had been acting lately and for Callie to hide how she's feeling was almost impossible for her. She stood in front of the hospital bed. Kylie paused for a moment examining the two doctors who seemed to have some tension. Though Callie wasn't paying any mind to Arizona, Arizona was admiring her from afar. She truly loved how much Callie cared about her patient's. Kylie smiled at the two doctors who stood there in silence.
"So, um, are you like doing some sort of surgery on me too?"
"Oh, no. She's just here with me. I just wanted to check in on you, make sure you were feeling okay. Are you?" Callie moved closer to the bed.
"I'm okay for now. Dr. Montgomery says everything should be okay with the baby too. So hopefully she's right." She said nervously.
"Well Dr. Montgomery is the best doctor in this hospital. You're in good hands, you are both in good hands." Kylie smiled at Callie and nodded, "Do you need anything?"
"No, I'm okay. Thanks so much for checking in. It means a lot." Kylie said quietly. Callie smiled.
"You'll do great. I'll see you after, okay?" Kylie nodded . Callie and Arizona began walking out of the room.
"It was nice to meet you, Good luck!" Arizona said.
"You too. Thank you." Arizona smiled before shutting the door behind her. She walked up to the nurses station where Callie was currently standing.
"She seems sweet." She said as she stood next to Callie.
"She is. I feel bad for her. Hopefully everything goes well." She avoided making any eye contact, "So are we still having dinner tonight or no?"
"Oh, I forgot dinner. I can't, tonight's not a good night for me."
"Okay." Callie knew something was up with her.
"I'm sorry. I'll make it up to you, promise. I gotta go though. I'll call you." Arizona said as she began walking away.
"Tonight?" Callie asked.
"I don't know, maybe." Arizona walked off and left Callie standing there. She didn't want to hover or ask what was wrong with her, so she just let her leave, again.
After a full day of work and not seeing Arizona again Callie stopped by Kylie's room. Addison had finished the surgery a few hours ago and Callie wanted to check in. She knocked on the door and stuck her head in slowly.
"Hey." Callie said softly.
"Hi Dr. Torres." Kylie said sitting up.
"Oh, stay where you are. Don't worry." She said grabbing a chair and placing it next to the bed, "How are you feeling?" She asked.
"I'm okay. I feel fine for now." Kylie said with a weak smile, "I had a little girl. Dr. Montgomery said everything went really well. That I should be able to see her within the next few days. So that's pretty exciting, right?" Kylie said.
"That's very exciting, yes. I'm glad everything worked out. So, have you decided on a name?" Callie said as she leaned back into her seat.
"No, not yet. I honestly didn't even have any picked out yet. I didn't expect her so soon. I guess I have some time to think while I'm in here." Callie nodded. There was a silence between the two, but it wasn't uncomfortable for either of them. Kylie looked down at her IV, "So is everything okay with you and your girlfriend?" She asked.
"Girlfriend?"
"Yeah, Dr. Robbins was it?" Callie didn't respond. Kylie's cheeks turned red, "Was she not your girlfriend? Oh god, are you not gay? I'm so sorry. My dad used to say I speak too much, it's like word vomit though, things just fly out before I can think them through." Callie laughed.
"Kylie, it's okay. She is my girlfriend." Kylie put her hand on her chest and her cheeks were almost back to their normal color, "Was it really obvious that we're dating?" She questioned just out of curiosity.
"I could tell the way she looked at you. Sort of like you're this amazing piece of art or something not as corny." She laughed softly, "She stared at you and smiled while you were talking to me earlier." Kylie smiled, "She kinda looks at you like you're on this pedestal and she's happy that she's able to just look at you and hear you speak. You guys must be really in love." Callie could tell Kylie was about to cry, "That's how I used to look at my boyfriend." She wiped a single tear from her eye and continued talking, "Anyways, it seemed kinda tense in here before, so I figured you were mad at her or something.."
"Tense?"
"Yeah, like you were super pissed at her."
"I'm not pissed. Did I look pissed? Do I look pissed?" Callie began to feel bad.
"Well not now, but you kind of did before." Kylie laughed harder this time. Forgetting that she had just been cut open a few hours ago, she placed her hand on her stomach which was now in a little bit of pain. She took a breath and began speaking again, "Well if you're not pissed you should probably tell her that. She looked a little bit sad."
"Sad? You just said she was smiling. I even saw her give you a smile, she wasn't sad." Kylie rolled her eyes at Callie's words.
"She was smiling at you, but only when you weren't looking. Other than that she seemed sad. It was like one of those sad smiles. You should apologize."
"I did nothing wrong. I should be the one that's sad. She cancelled dinner on me." Callie stated.
"Well someone seems angry. Maybe she cancelled because she thinks you're mad at her. I mean, I thought you were mad at her."
"I've barely seen her. Why would I be mad at her?" Callie questioned as if Kylie would actually know.
"Maybe I'm wrong. I don't even know her that well. I mean, I don't even know you all that well I guess. Perhaps she's just tired."
"Tried from what? Tired from me?"
"I don't know Dr. Torres." She laughed.
"You can call me Callie."
"Okay, well maybe you should ask her what's wrong Callie." She paused, "You guys seem cute together though." Kylie said.
"Thanks." She said while thinking hard about the situation.
"You know what, she could also be stressed out about something."
"You think?" Callie said leaning into the bed.
"You could always ask." Kylie said laughing at Callie's eagerness to find out what the problem was.
"I'm not gonna ask. She left after dinner. She cancelled. I'm the one that's upset."
"Okay or be stubborn and never know what's going on with her. Your choice." She said playfully. Callie got up from her seat and smiled. She tilted her head and stared into Kylie's eyes. She had a genuine smile on her face.
"I'm glad you and your baby are okay." Kylie took a deep breath.
"Thanks. I hope you and your girlfriend are okay." She replied, "And thanks for checking in on me today. My parents didn't even return my calls about the baby. Neither did my boyfriend…well ex boyfriend, I suppose. No one else I know really cares, it's nice that you do, even though you don't really know me." Kylie said softly.
"You seem like a really good kid. They're all missing out." Kylie nodded and put her head down. Callie exited the room. She let everything that Kylie had said sink in.
Over the next two days Callie and Arizona had texted several times, but other than that Callie hadn't seen Arizona anywhere in the hospital. She began to think that Arizona was avoiding her. She didn't want to approach Arizona first because she felt that she had a right to be upset with her, but Callie could feel herself wearing down. She passed ped's floor several times and felt a frown form on her face every single time. She felt like she hadn't seen Arizona in weeks, she missed her. She just wanted to kiss her and find out what was going on between the two of them. Callie didn't want to be the stubborn one. She drove over to Arizona's apartment once her shift was over. She knocked on the door and she could hear the television on from outside. No one answered. She knocked again. She heard a cough. What the hell? She knocked once more, a bit more assertively this time. Once again she heard a loud cough and what she thought sounded like someone blowing their nose.
"Arizona?" Callie yelled from outside the door. She heard the television shut off or be put on mute, but she didn't hear anyone respond, "Arizona?" She said.
"Callie?" Arizona questioned. Callie was confused if it was even Arizona behind the door, she sounded so stuffy and congested.
"Hey, are you okay?" Callie asked still standing outside of the door.
"I'm fine. You should go." She responded. Callie felt herself get upset and tried her best to calm down, but she was so unsure of what was happening with Arizona that she couldn't help, but blurt out everything she was feeling in one quickly spoken statement.
"You know what, if you're only acting like this because you think I'm upset with you, I'm not. I probably should be though. I made you a lovely dinner the other night. I mean, I went out of my way to get your favorite wine. I even brushed off the fact that you just left. I brushed off the fact that you cancelled dinner plans the other night, but I'm not upset with you. If that's what's happening here. And if it's not that and I've done something wrong to you, I wish you could just tell me what it was. I mean, I think I've been a decently good girlfriend lately. I've given you space, I haven't hovered or bothered you. So whatever it is that I did to piss you off or make you upset, I'm sorry. Okay? I obviously didn't do it on purpose cause I honestly don't even know what I could've done to make you upset and not want to talk to me or see me, but whatever it is, I'm truly sorry." The door swung open. There Arizona stood in a blanket wrapped around her upper body, pajamas on, and tissues in her hand.
"I'm not upset with you Calliope. Not at all." Callie stared at her, "I'm just sick." Arizona said embarrassed.
"Sick?" Callie was confused.
"Yes, can't you tell." Arizona seemed drained.
"I mean, yeah I can. I just…have you not been feeling well lately?" Callie asked.
"No, I told you. I have this thing."
"What thing?" Callie said with slight frustration.
"It's like this superpower. I always know when I'm gonna get sick." Arizona blew her nose again. Callie looked even more confused than she was before, "I knew I was getting sick a few days ago, which is why I left your house the other night, which is why I haven't kissed you in several days, which is why I cancelled on you the other night, which is why I was out from work the last two todays. I'm just sick, not upset. Just have a cold, that's all." She tiredly smiled. Callie let that all settle in her brain.
"You're just sick?" Arizona nodded. Callie let out a breath of relief, "Oh, thank god. I thought I did something wrong. I thought we were hitting a rough patch. Like a never ending rough patch which would've led to us breaking up. I thought we were breaking up."
"No, I'm just trying to not get you sick." Arizona rubbed her eye and cleared her throat, "Wait, breaking up? I don't want us to break up. You want us to break up?" Arizona asked with a concern look on her face.
"No, I don't."
"But you thought we were?" She asked.
"No, no. Well, yes. That's why I came over here though, cause I don't want us to break up."
"So we're not breaking up right?" Arizona asked.
"No, I don't want us to. Do you don't want us to?" Callie responded.
"No, not at all." Arizona quickly said.
"Wonderful. So we're not breaking up. You're just sick?"
"Not breaking up. I'm just sick." Both of them felt a weight lift off of their shoulders, a weight that was unnecessary, a weight they had created themselves, but a weight nonetheless.
"Good. Why didn't you just tell me you were getting sick? We could've avoided all of this."
"I honestly didn't think we had a problem. Besides I didn't want to bother you with my stupid cold. I also didn't want you to see me like this. And by the way, I called. I left you a voicemail telling you I was sick." She said softly. Callie held up her dead cell phone, "I still called. It counts." Callie smiled and began feeling bad. Arizona looked so drained and miserable, she just wanted to make her feel better.
"Is there anything I can do to help?"
"Yes, go away. You're gonna get sick." She said as she began closing the door. Callie stuck her foot out and held the door open.
"Hey, that's not fair. Instead of avoiding me and your sickness, you should have just told me! You're my girlfriend and you're not feeling well, I should be here taking care of you."
"I know, I know, but being sick is gross. I'm pale, my hair is a mess, I have tissues everywhere. Being sick is not sexy, I want you to think of me as sexy. Telling you would've meant that we'd be bursting that sexy bubble we've been living in. I didn't want to burst the bubble." Arizona said innocently.
"I don't care about living in a sexy bubble. We should just be living in a relationship bubble and as long as we're in a relationship bubble, which is a beautiful bubble by the way, being together and taking care of each other...that's all I really care about." Arizona made a face, "And you are always sexy, even while you're sick." Callie said stepping into the apartment and giving Arizona a kiss on the cheek, "You lay down, I'll make soup, I'll go buy some orange juice. And when you're finished with that I'll play with your hair and hold your hand until you fall asleep." Arizona smiled at the thought of Callie taking care of her, "See doesn't that sound nice?" She said walking towards the kitchen. Arizona followed behind her. She smiled while putting her bag down on the table. She turned around to face Arizona, "Okay?" She said placing a piece of Arizona's hair behind her ear. Arizona nodded and moved closer to her. She buried her head into Callie's chest and wrapped her arms around her.
"Okay." She sniffled. Callie smiled and she kissed her on the head.
"Now go lay down you dork." Callie said while playfully smacking Arizona's ass.
"Okay, okay." She said smiling as she laid on the couch. She stared at Callie while she took her jacket off and placed it on one of the dining room chairs. She felt so lucky to have this amazing girl in her life that cared so much about her. She couldn't even put into words how incredible Callie was. All she knew was that she was happy that she was in her life. She wanted to tell her how amazing she was and how much love she had for her, but she didn't want to scare her off or make her feel overwhelmed. She was in love with her. It was truly how Arizona felt, but she held back from giving those feelings a voice. It was still relatively early in their relationship and she felt fear that Callie didn't feel the same way about her yet. She simply wanted to let Callie know that she was grateful that she was with her, "Thank you Callie." She said with a genuine smile on her face. She was thankful, not just for her visit and for her comfort, but for everything she does. Callie immediately smiled right back at her.
"Hey, it's Doctor Torres. And you're more than welcome." Arizona laughed. She was already beginning to feel better.
Sorry this took forever, I went on vacation. I hope you enjoyed, nothing too crazy. A little regular Calzona... miscommunication, but eventually solving their problems ;) Stay tuned!