Chapter 3

She watched the squad car pull away tears streaking down her face, what the hell had just happened. She didn't move as she watched the car drive off. She looked around at the crowd watching her shaking their heads.

"What the hell you looking at!" she screamed at them.

She felt an arm across her shoulders.

"Come on baby girl let's get inside" he said to her feeling her body shake against him.

"No I need to go, I need to be there for him" she tried to pull away from him.

"Olivia the Cap is on his way, he is going to call when he finds out what is happening, let him sort it"

She knew he was right but she wanted to be there for Elliot. In all their years together she had never seen him crack like this. The man taken in the back of the car wasn't the man she had known for the last 12 years.

She let Fin lead her back into her apartment and she dropped onto the couch. Fin cracked open a beer and handed her one, before sitting next to her.

"He will be ok Liv; the Cap will sort him out" Fin said trying to be positive.

Olivia shook her head "No Fin, it's going to take more than the Cap to sort this out and you know it"

"Yeah I know" he said quietly.

"How did I not notice? How did I not see how bad he was handling things? I should have known"

"Don't do this Liv, don't blame yourself, we all should have realised"

"No I'm his partner; I should have been there for him. I knew he took the shooting hard. I knew he was drinking and he was angry…..but I thought he would sort himself out if I gave him space." She stood up and started pacing the room.

"I should have gone after him when he lashed out in the crib. Christ Fin we all know he has a temper but never ever would he use his fists on me. I see the look on his face that day he was scared and I done nothing about it…. We kept it quiet"

"I know" Fin said standing up and walking towards her.

"If we had told the Cap he could have done something forced him into therapy or something, but we just let him leave."

"Liv you tried to call him, you left messages, you went round to his place what more could you have done?"

"I should have kept looking till I found him, I shouldn't of give up on him…. He would never have gave up on me"

Fin knew she was right, they had all just figured he would sort himself out like he had in the past none of them realised how bad he got this time. It was pure hate and anger he had seen in Elliot's face as he tried to calm him down. Something he had never seen before, something he hopes he never sees again.

They both sat down on the couch and drank their beers.

"Liv can I ask you something?"

"Sure"

"Is there something more between you and Elliot"? She turned to look at him; she knew the rumours that had been flying around the station for the last few years.

"Why would you ask that now?"

"The look Elliot gave me was of pure hate as he shouted at me about moving in and taking his place…..it's like he was jealous that I was here"

"No Fin nothing has ever happened, not physically anyway" she looked at Fins confused face.

"We have always cared for each other sometimes I think too much. I think over the years our feelings have changed ….my feelings have changed. I fell in love with him Fin; I don't know when I just suddenly realised. I thought about telling him but I couldn't. He was married and loyal to his family there was no way he could ever feel the same so I kept it to myself."

"And his feelings for you?"

"I honestly don't know, he's not normally a man who shares his feelings, but I always hoped deep down he felt the same" She took a deep breath it felt good to finally tell someone how she felt.

"Well you know Baby Girl; I think after the look he gave me tonight I would say he felt the same"

They were interrupted by Fins phone ringing. As he took the call Olivia opened another beer for them.

"That was the Cap he is taking Elliot back to his house tonight and he is going to give Hang a call…"

"What is it Fin?" she could tell he was holding something back. "Just tell me"

"Liv he told the Cap he should of just pulled the trigger to would have been better for everyone"

"No" she said shaking her head "No, he wouldn't do that, he is too strong for that" she sobbed as Fin put his arms around her and held her tight.

I promise the story wont be depressing the full way through, I will try and lighten the mood a little, but if Elliot did Crack I reckon this is how it would be.