Ok time for Olivia to step In and help I think.

Chapter 5

Olivia told Fin to go home about 2 in the morning saying she needed time alone, reluctantly he had gone. She had turned all the lights off and made her way into her bedroom and crawled into bed. She hadn't heard from Cragen since he had called to say Elliot was going home with him and that Haung was on his way over. She had wanted to go over but Fin had talked her out of it. She needed to see Elliot explain that she hadn't moved on she didn't have and didn't want a new partner, it was him and only him she wanted and needed.

She had never seen him look as angry as he had tonight for the first time ever he actually scared her, he was out of control. The day he had lashed out in the Crib was an accident he hadn't meant to hurt her, she knew that. She should have gone to his place that night instead of just phoning him then maybe none of this would have happened. She had let him down and as much as Fin tried to convince her it wasn't her fault she knew it was. Elliot was always there for her even when she told him she didn't want help, he was still there. It annoyed her so much when he always tried to protect her, it was protecting her that started all this. He said himself he killed Jenna to save her, he couldn't risk Jenna firing another shot and it hitting her so he took the shot.

She remembered the time he told her that they could never put each other first again, otherwise they wouldn't be able to be partners. Years later he had done just that and now their partnership was hanging by a thread, unless they could fix what had happened, fix him, they would never work together again.

Olivia jumped out of bed and got dressed. What the hell was she doing she needed to be with him. She needed to protect her partner from any more harm.

She pulled up outside of Cragens house and knocked on the door. Getting no answer she banged abit louder.

"Hold on Liv, Christ I'm coming" Cragen shouted from inside the house.

The door opened "Come in" he said standing to the side.

"How did you know it was me?"

"Cause it's been 3 hrs. Since I told you not to come and an hr. since Fin called to say he had left you alone, it doesn't take a genius to figure out who would be banging on the door"

"Where is he?"

"Upstairs sleeping. He's that tired he passed out in the shower earlier, Haung is up there with him sleeping on the couch"

She turned and started to head up the stairs.

"Liv stop! Leave him to sleep"

Olivia whipped her head round glaring at her Captain.

"Don't" she snapped " Don't tell me I can't see him, I'm sick of people telling me to give him space. Its cause I gave him space in the first place that he is like this."

She turned and ran up the stairs. Oh boy thought Cragen to himself its goin to be a long night. He had never had children but he imagined this is what it was like when they were in trouble. It never went unnoticed by people that he had a soft spot for his two detectives he had even heard them joking calling him Dad. He went in the kitchen and started to make a pot of coffee.

Olivia opened the door and walked in the room. Haung looked up from the couch and smiled.

"I wondered how long it would be until you arrived" he whispered to her "I will be downstairs if you need me. Olivia he may be hostile towards you and angry when he wakes up, or upset and quiet his moods at the moment will be unpredictable."

"No change there then" she smiled looking at him sleep, she heard the door close and she walked over to the side of the bed and crouched down beside it watching him sleep he looked so peaceful despite what had happened. She leant in and kissed him lightly on the forehead.

"I'm sorry El" she whispered "I should never have given up on you I let you down" she wiped a tear away. "I'm here now El and I'm not going anywhere until your better, we will do this together Stabler, you're not alone you never have been" she kissed him again on the cheek and walked over to the couch and lay down on her side facing Elliot's back.

Elliot lay still and let the tear roll down his cheek and fall onto the pillow.

Olivia woke up and looked at her watch it was just after 7am. She looked at the bed Elliot was sitting up with his back to her. Olivia stood up and started to walk over to him.

"Olivia stop" he said not even turning his head. "I want you to leave"

"Yeah well I don't really care what you want" she said not moving "You being alone is what has got you into this mess"

"NO!" he shouted "WHATS GOT ME IN THIS FUCKING MESS IS YOU" Olivia flinched slightly not moving "I LOST MY WIFE CAUSE I ALWAYS PUT YOU FIRST, I SHOT A KID FOR YOU AND ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY. MY KIDS WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH ME CAUSE THEY THINK I FUCKED YOU AND CHEATED ON THEIR MOTHER. SO I DON'T REALLY CARE WHAT YOU WANT JUST GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME YOUR DANGEROUS TO BE AROUND"

He picked up the small table next to the bed and hurled it across the room smashing it off the wall.

"GET OUT! JUST GO!" He yelled again.

The door flung open and Cragen and Haung were stood there.

"GET OUT" he yelled at them "AND TAKE THIS BITCH WITH YOU" he said glaring at Olivia. Olivia walked towards the door and pushed Cragen and Haung back out through the door, before closing it and leaning back on it.

Cragen looked at Haung "Is this a good idea"

"We will stay here just in case "he said the worry showing in his eyes.

"You finished now?" she asked calmly walking up to stand in front of him she could see anger and hate on his face, his fists clenched. "What you going to do Stabler hit me, will that make you feel better….. Well come on, what you waiting for. I've ruined your life haven't I, why not make me pay" she knew what she was doing was risky as she didn't know exactly how unstable he was.

"Come on El just do it" she pushed her hands against his chest; he lost his balance slightly and moved back.

"Back the fuck awya Benson" he growled at her.

"Or what? Your all mouth Stabler. You won't do anything you haven't got the balls, Jesus you weren't even man enough to pull the trigger and end it all…."

The next thing she knew he had her pinned up against the wall his hand at her throat.

"Do it El" She gasped. "I deserve it. I wasn't there for you. The time you really needed me I wasn't there"

Elliot stood his hand gripped at her throat his eyes like stone, he was shaking in anger.

"Please El Just do it" She begged Tears were streaming down her face. What the hell am I doing he thought to himself as the haze cleared and he seen the fear in her eyes. This is Olivia he couldn't even remember grabbing her. He slowly released his hand and dropped it by his side and stepped back away from her.

"Please Liv just leave" he begged her quietly.

"I can't El, Partners for ever remember, we promised"

His head dropped to the floor. "Then I release you from that promise"

"No way Stabler, I've always walked away from a relationships in the past, and I'm not going to walk away from you now just cause things are a little tough" she put her fingers under his chin and lifted his head looking into his eyes. "I need you just as much"

They both stood not moving looking into each other's eyes as the tears fell.

"Help me Liv, please" he begged his body starting to shake, "I'm broken and I don't know how to fix it by myself"

"You don't need to El I am here for you, we all are you just need to let us in". She put her arms around him and pulled him towards her holding him tight his arms slowly went round her waist as he stood and wept.

The door to the room opened and Haung and Cragen came in. Elliot looked up at them and walked away from Olivia and stood in front of them.

"I…I need help Doc" he said his voice cracking "Please help me"

Haung nodded as Cragen pulled him into a hug "We all will, Son" he told him.

I had to do a little father son hug at the end between Elliot and Cragen even if it was a bit soppy lol. Please review.