Chapter 9

Elliot opened his eyes and blinked as the sun streamed into the room. He looked at the clock 06.10 am, he couldn't believe he had slept. He had woke a few times during the night with nightmares but managed to go back to sleep. He got up out of bed stretching; he thought how nice it was to wake up with no hangover, the first time in weeks. He picked up a pair of basketball shorts and pulled them on, before sitting down to put socks and sneakers on, and grabbed a t-shirt before heading out the door. He walked into the main room no one was up yet. He went out the front door closing it quietly behind him and jogged down the porch steps.

He looked down towards the lake and remembered a path through the trees that he seen yesterday and headed towards it, taking it easy until his muscles warmed up. He took in the sight, sounds and smells around him as he headed around the lake picking up speed as his body warmed up. The sun was already warm on him. After he had ran for about 20 minutes he turned around and headed back to the lodge picking up the pace a bit more, he can't remember the last time he felt this good. He slowed the pace to a stop as he got close to the cabin until he was walking putting his hands on his head trying to slow his breathing down. He took off his t-shirt which was soaked with sweat and dropped to the ground and started doing press ups and sit ups alternating between the reps. As he carried on his workout he didn't notice his admirer stood on the porch with a cup of coffee watching him.

"God he is fit still" they thought "his body is still perfectly toned he must work out often to keep in that shape, what I could do with that"

"Morning" said Olivia coming out the door smiling at Haung "how long has he been up and at it".

"Oh erm I'm not too sure" embarrassed that she had caught him staring at Elliot.

Olivia smiled knowing the Doc was embarrassed "He's still looks good topless doesn't he"

"What….I wasn't really looking?"

"Yeah whatever Doc" she laughed.

"It wouldn't matter even if I was" he said looking at Olivia. "Cause unfortunately he is as straight as I am gay" he said smiling at her "However it doesn't stop me staring like a horny teenager"

Olivia laughed as he walked past her smiling "I will get some breakfast and let you take in the nice view" he said walking into the lodge.

Olivia leaned on the wooden railings and watched Elliot work out the his back glistening as the morning sun hit sweat that covered his body, Jesus he was in perfect shape, as she watched him she felt a twinge between her legs as she thought about running her fingers over his body, she imagined lying under him as he done his press ups, his body pressed against her.

"Liv!...Liv" his voice snapped her out of her day dream "Liv you ok?"

"Erm yeah" she said not sure how long she had stood staring at him "Sorry I was miles away"

He smiled at her "I'm gonna jump in the shower before breakfast" he said walking into the lodge.

"Yeah okay" she said her eyes looking over his body as he wiped the sweat off with his t-shirt

Great she thought as she felt dampness between her legs. I really need the vision of him in the shower she thought, what the hell is wrong with you Benson, pull yourself together he is your partner since when did you start fantasying about Stabler, since the moment she had met him, she sighed. She stood up and shook herself before walking in for breakfast. She didn't know what was up with her but she needed to snap out of it he was her partner and he needed her help, end of. No more fantasying no more hoping she just had to forget about her feelings, this wasn't about her.

What the hell was that Elliot thought as he stripped off and walked into the bathroom. Olivia had just checked him out he was sure of it he smiled to himself as he climbed under the hot spray. He looked down and seen the erection he had just thinking about Olivia, Christ he wanted her so much. He took hold of his hardened shaft and gently started to stroke himself as images of Olivia went through his head. He lent forward resting his head on the tiles as his grip got harder and he pumped faster, thinking how it would feel to have Olivia do this, God he could feel the pressure building already he knew this was going to be quick. His thoughts went back to Liv her face, her body god he needed her, he needed her mouth on his, her hands touching him how it would feel inside her. The thoughts were too much as the orgasm ripped through his body and he exploded over the shower wall his hot seed spurting out him as his hand began slow, his legs shaking "I love you Liv" he said to himself quietly under his breath wishing she was there to hear him say it.

"So what's the plans for today" Olivia asked as they all sat round the table after breakfast.

"I have paperwork to catch up on so I will be stuck in here" Haung said standing up "so if you need me I will be here"

"What you mean I don't have to sit for hours with you pouring my heart out?" asked Elliot leaning back in his chair.

"Nope if you need to talk or I think you should be talking then we will….why do you need to talk now."

Elliot shook his head "Nah pretty good right now" he said smiling and standing up. "I think I will give fishing a go, I found some fishing gear out back, I've never done it before but it's supposed to be relaxing, and that's why I'm here" he said walking out the room.

Olivia's eyes followed him out the room and she let out a sigh which Haung picked up on straight away.

"You know Olivia" he said walking past her to head to his room "Elliot has kept things to himself for a while now".

Olivia looked at him unsure what he was going on about.

"And although I can't tell you everything that we talk about".

"Yeah I know that and I would never ask you"

"However I am going to tell you something because I think you should know after something you said last night"

He bent over and whispered into her ear "Elliot isn't with Kathy they split up for good 4 months ago; he isn't in love with her"

He swiftly left the room leaving Olivia alone to process what he had told.

Elliot is single, she thought to herself, why did he never tell her, in the past he had always confided in her about Kathy and problems at home, so why not this time. She stood up and began clearing the table. She stood by the sink and closed her eyes thinking back to all the times Elliot had come to her and she helped him sort through his problems and get back with Kathy. When deep down she had wanted to tell him to leave her, and to come home with her. She had plenty of chances to tell him over the years how she felt, why was she so scared. She had been scared years ago when Elliot was going through a bad time with Kathy. Elliot had told her he couldn't stand to lose her, so what did she do, she ran and hid for months from him. Just so she wouldn't have to face her feelings. When she had got back she was going to tell him how she felt, but she was too late. In her time away he had fallen for his new partner, it didn't work between him and Dani, but they found it hard to get their friendship and partnership back on track. Olivia had spent night after night crying herself to sleep, if she hadn't gone to Oregon and just told him how she felt, things could have been so different. She felt tears on her cheeks she hadn't even realised she was crying.

"Olivia talk to him" said Haung from behind her. "What are you so afraid of?"

"I'm afraid of losing him if I tell him, he has been in my life for so long if I tell him and he doesn't feel the same what happens then, he isn't in a good place right now, he doesn't need me telling him how I have felt all these years" she said her voice starting to rise " he doesn't need me telling him how for years I hated him going home to his wife every night, how I cry myself to sleep night after night wishing he was with me and not her". The tears flowed from her eyes.

"I'm afraid of telling the man I have spent 12 years with that I am completely In Love with him"

"You in Love with Me" said Elliot's voice from the doorway. The both looked in his direction to see him disappear back outside without another word.

OOOOPS you should always check who is lurking outside before you declare you undying love. Please review.