Chapter 12

Olivia walked up the grassy hill towards the car the path in front of her a blur through the tears. She opened the door and climbed in and cried resting her head on the steering wheel, trying to calm herself down so she could drive without killing herself. Slowly she pulled herself together enough to start the engine, she wiped her eyes and put the car in reverse and slowly pulled away from the lodge.

"LIV STOP!" shouted Elliot banging on the side window.

Olivia glared at him her pain turning to anger.

"Your too late Elliot" she said as she put the car into drive and started to pull forward. Elliot jumped in front of the car.

"Liv turn the engine off now"

"Fuck you!" she screamed at him "You had your chance you blew it now get out the fucking way" she edged the car forward towards him making him jump back.

"Stop being stupid and get out the car before someone gets hurt"

Olivia jumped forward again making Elliot jump out the way, he ran to the side window.

"Please Liv stay" he begged her.

"You had your chance El and you blew it"

Elliot pulled his gun out of his hoody pocket.

"Get out the car Olivia" he growled at her.

She looked at the gun and smirked "What you gonna do Stabler shoot me"

"Don't tempt me" he replied before aiming his gun at the front tyre and shooting a hole in it, then turning and shooting a hole in the rear. Olivia jumped as the two shots rang out.

"YOU CRAZY BASTARD!" she screamed jumping out the car and looking at the front tyre "WHAT THE HELL YOU DONE"

"Stopping you from running away again like you always do when things get tough"

"What! Me running. You're the one looking for the escape hatch, cause things are hard" she said pushing his chest with both hands making him step back. "I said 10pm, or I was gone" she pushed him again "You didn't show so I'm going" She pushed him again making him lose his footing slightly.

"Stop fucking pushing me" he warned her.

"Or what El, what you gonna do about it?" she asked him. Elliot looked at her unable to say anything, he just stared. "Yeah that's what I thought….nothing"

"What the hell were those gun shots" asked Haung running down the steps in just pyjama bottoms.

"It's fine just Elliot Being his normal stupid, selfish bastard again" she said pointing at the tyres.

Haung looked at the tyres then back to Olivia and Elliot.

"Me selfish, that's a joke coming from the woman who disappears for 3 months just cause things got a bit tough"

"A bit tough you wanted me to take a shot that could of killed you leaving your kids without a father and you have the nerve to call me selfish"

"3 months liv no phone call nothing you could have been dead for all I knew"

"Yeah I could tell you were worried and missed me by the way you stuck your tongue down Dani Becks throat in the car park"

Elliot stood shocked by what she said "You….you seen that"

"Yeah I seen it, I came to the bar to tell you I was back and explain where I had been I arrived in time to catch the side show"

"Liv I'm sorry I….."

"Save it Elliot I don't want to hear, you want to jump into bed with first blond that bats her eyelashes at you then go ahead. I mean I'm used to losing out to the blonds in your life"

Elliot felt the anger building up again "what the fuck does that mean"

"Oh I don't know Elliot how about Dani leaves and the next thing we know you have Kathy pregnant again"

"Two fucking women Liv, Two in our full 12 years as partners do you really want me to go through all the men you have fucked in that time cause it might take a while"

Olivia threw her arm back and punched him on the side of the face "Fuck you, you bastard" she said storming off down the hill towards the jetty.

"Elliot" said Haung gently behind him.

"Back off Doc" he warned going after Olivia, already regretting what he had said.

Elliot followed Olivia back to the jetty and hung back slightly not wanting to feel her fist again.

"Liv I'm sorry"

"Forget it Elliot, just go, were finished. I can't do this anymore; I will request a transfer in the morning"

"Liv….."

"I can't do it anymore El. I can't keep playing second place to Kathy, knowing if she wanted you back you would go. Do you know why I slept with so many men without having a relationship with them?"

"No" he answered quietly not sure if he really wanted to.

Olivia turned and faced him.

"It was to try and replace you; I would let them take me home so for one night I could try and forget about you being at home making love to your wife, wishing it was me, I hate myself for thinking that way and for how I acted"

Elliot moved closer to her "Every time you went on a date I died inside, hating the man you were with cause it wasn't me, and I couldn't tell you how I felt cause I was scared to. I slept with Kathy that night and she got pregnant. I regretted it straight away; I hated myself for being so weak and not just saying no and leaving"

Olivia looked at him seeing the hurt in his eyes.

"And Dani, why her after such a short time as partners"

"Cause I wanted her to be you. I was mad at you for leaving and I just thought fuck it" he moved closer towards her.

"Please don't leave me again" he begged "I'm an idiot, but I'm lost without you, I need you more than I have needed anyone I'm begging you Liv, let me show you how much I love you"

Olivia looked at him trying her best to hate him, but how could she, she had loved and still did love him so much, and she took hold of his hand and looked him in the eyes.

"You're a prick" she said smiling.

"Yeah I know" he sniffed "I keep getting told that by a few people"

"Come on" she said leading him on to the jetty. Elliot looked at the blankets, cushions and candles.

"It was going to be our first date, until you freaked out on me" Elliot just stood not saying a word, as Olivia sat down on the blanket and crossed her legs looking up at him. "So are you staying or going?" she asked.

Elliot looked at her god she was beautiful, what made him even doubt his relationship with her.

"I want to stay" he smiled down at her before sitting down crossed legged and facing her. Olivia smiled at him making his heart melt. "I'm really sorry for what I said"

"I'm really sorry for punching you" she laughed.

He laughed as well taking hold of her hands.

"Liv…..can I kiss you please"

"I thought you would never ask" she said leaning forward as he did till their lips met. He felt her soft lips on his and moaned as he tasted them, he moved forward more pressing harder against her as his tongue found hers. Slowly he pushed her back till she was lying down and he hovered above her their bodies just touching.

"I love you Benson "he whispered softly before gently kissing her lips again.

"I love you to Stabler" she smiled at him. He pushed up and blew the candles out before lying down and pulling her into his arms pulling a blanket over them. She rested her head on his chest listening to his heart beat as his fingers brushed softly through her hair. Elliot looked up at the clear sky and watched the stars as he pulled her in tight to him almost crushing her.

"Liv" he whispered after lying there for about 20 minutes in silence.

"Hmmm" she said sleepily.

"Don't ever leave me, no matter how much of an idiot I am"

"I want El I promise" she said kissing his neck softly before falling asleep in his arms.

I promise things will heat up in the next chapter. i just figured a good argument would be best first lol.