Chapter 14

"I don't think I could eat anything else" sighed Haung falling back into the chair.

Olivia smiled at him "I know what you mean" Elliot walked over with a beer for each of them. Haung looked at him as he handed him one.

"Relax Doc it's just a beer and I'm only having the one" he told him as he sat on the floor in front of Olivia. Haung nodded.

"When did you start drinking heavily Elliot?" he asked him.

Elliot glared at him, wanting to ignore the question but knew Haung wouldn't let it go.

"The same night I killed Jenna"

"Elliot you didn't kill Jenna" said Olivia placing a hand on his shoulder.

"Yes I did Liv she was 14 years old and I took that shot knowing it would kill her"

"From the reports I read Elliot you made the right choice you were cleared of any wrong doing" said Haung.

Elliot jumped to his feet "Well the report is wrong, I could of shot her in the leg or arm but I didn't I aimed for her chest, I aimed a kill shot" he said his voice rising as he became angry.

"And why did you do that Elliot?" Elliot glared at him his eyes narrowing.

"What!"

"Why did you take that aim?"

"She was out of control, she was firing at everyone I couldn't let her…I couldn't let her kill you" he said looking at Olivia. "I couldn't let her hurt you, she had to be stopped, I stopped her" he ran his hand over his head before downing the bottle of beer in one go. He walked over to the fridge and took another bottle out opening it.

"El" said Olivia, he looked at her hearing the concern or pity in her voice "Is it a good idea to have another drink" she asked him.

He shot her a look his eyes close together "its cause of you I started drinking in the first place"

"How the hell do you figure that out" she asked standing up.

"You weren't there for me!" he shouted. "I killed a kid to save you and you weren't there for me" Olivia went to say something but Huang held his hand up and shook his head, Olivia backed off and sat down, she knew she had to let the Doc do his job no matter how hard it was for her to hear this.

"Why wasn't she there for you Elliot?"

"Cause she was too busy screwing someone else, 8 hours after I shot Jenna she was with someone else."

Olivia looked at him shocked then back at Haung shaking her head.

"How do you know this Elliot?"

"I left the station and went to a bar, I needed a drink. Olivia had gone to the hospital. I tried to call her but the call went straight to answer phone so I decided to go over. I looked up as I crossed her street and seen her through the window, some prick had his arms around her, holding her" he drank the rest of the beer before throwing the bottle across the room smashing it off the wall.

"So what did you do then?"

"I went back to my place and got wasted till I passed out" he lent back against the wall. "I drank most nights after that to block out the visions in my head". Haung stood up and walked closed to Elliot leaning on the bench opposite him.

"Elliot….was this the night you thought about killing yourself"

Elliot raised his head slightly and looked at him shaking his head.

"No…..it was the day I was cleared of the shooting, the day I hit you" he said looking over at Olivia.

"What happened?"

Olivia stood up she wanted to be anywhere but where she was right now, she didn't know if she could handle what he was about to say.

"I felt like I had lost everything. My kids hated me, I had just hit Liv, Fin had looked like he could kill me, I had nothing. I went home and got my old revolver as I had left mine in my locker at the station. I then went and checked into a hotel. I sat on the bed for hours drinking, just thinking about how I made everyone's life hell. I just figured everyone would be better without me, sure the kids would be upset but they would get over it. I put a round in the chamber and took the safety off and….put the gun in my mouth" Elliot slid down the wall and sat on the floor.

Olivia felt the tears falling as she sat and listened to him talk.

"So what stopped you from pulling the trigger?" asked Haung.

"What?"

"Why didn't you pull the trigger, what changed your mind"

Elliot looked up at him. "I didn't"

Olivia snapped her head round to look at him.

"I pulled the trigger, I pulled the trigger over and over but nothing happened" he sobbed. "I wanted to die and I couldn't even do that right" Olivia looked at Haung, she couldn't believe what she was hearing. She was scared, angry and upset with him, as she watched him sitting on the floor. She stood up and walked over standing in front of him.

"Is he finished" she asked Haung. The Doc nodded at her.

"Yeah I think that's enough for tonight" he told her.

"El" she said reaching down for his hand and taking hold of it "Come on" she told pulling him up to his feet. He didn't say anything as she walked down the corridor and into her room holding his hand. She closed the door behind and left loose of his hand and walked over to turn on the bedside lamp, before walking back to him.

"Liv I'm …."

"Sshhhh" she said placing a finger to his lips "I don't want to talk anymore"

She reached forward and pulled the bottom of his t-shirt and started to lift it over his head, he raised his arms as she pulled it off, and threw it to the side. She reached up and put a hand behind his head pulling him down towards her and kissed him softly her tongue finding his before she pulled her mouth away. She placed gently kisses down his neck and over his chest as she moved down his body to the waist line of his sweatpants. Slowly she took hold of the waist band and pulled both his sweat pants and boxers down to the floor and he stepped out of them. She scraped her nails up the outside of his thighs as she stood back up letting his already erect cock rub against her causing him to gasp, as she kissed her way back up to his mouth. She pushed him back slightly until the back of his legs caught the bed and he fell back sitting down.

Without taking her eyes off him she unbuttoned her shirt and slid it off throwing it to the floor, Elliot sat on the bed watching her unable to breath properly as he watched her undressing. She undone her button and zip on her trousers and let the fall to the floor and stepped out of them. Elliot's mouth opened to say something but nothing came out as she reached behind her back and undone the black lace bra and pulled it down over her shoulders releasing her perfect full breasts, before pulling down the matching panties.

Elliot just stared at her he couldn't believe she was stood in front of him totally naked, Christ she was beautiful, her body was perfect more than perfect; he swallowed hard as he took in every inch of feeling his cock start to twitch.

Olivia walked towards him and climbed on the bed without a word and lay on her side facing him. Elliot moved back and lay down beside her, their body's inches apart. Elliot looked into her deep brown eyes. Trying to think of something to say, but no words would leave his mouth. He lifted a hand and brushed some strands of hair that had fell over her face behind her ear. He moved his fingers down her neck and over her shoulder tracing a line down her side to her hip where he stopped, before running his hand back up her soft flat stomach and up between her breasts sending a shiver through Olivia's body as he brushed over the top of her nipples causing goose pimples over her body. He lent forward and brushed his lips over hers barely letting them touch, as he let his hand roam over her soft skin. Olivia copied his motions as her fingers lightly stoked his chest and back as they kissed softly and slowly.

"El" she said her voice husky and low" I need you inside me, now" Elliot pulled away slightly to look at her, he seen the need in her eyes and he nodded, rolling her on her back and climbing on top pushing himself off her body as he moved between her legs. The tip of his cock touching her hot wet opening.

"Liv I don't want to hurt you" he said afraid that without the foreplay she wasn't ready.

"I don't care El I want you now, I need you" she said tears forming in her eyes. Elliot reached down and gently guided himself into her; she gasped as he spread her opening and entered her slightly.

"Are you ok" he asked her. She nodded.

"Don't stop" she told him.

He pushed in slowly god she was so tight and hot her inner walls gripping him tight. When he was almost all the way in he stopped to let her adjust to him, he slowly pulled back before pushing in again hearing her moan, he continued to pump in and out of her slowly, she felt so good, he could feel her walls gripping him every time he pushed in. He looked down at her, her breasts moving every time he pushed into, her nails scratched down his back and she grabbed him pulling him towards her as she pushed her hips forward to meet his thrusts.

"Faster El" she begged "I need more of you. He thrust harder and faster he could feel her hot juices inside her covering his cock as he slid in and out faster and faster. She lifted her legs and wrapped them around his waist using then to push him further into her.

"Christ Elliot I'm so close" she gasped. "Don't stop Baby"

Elliot looked down at her watching her face as he quickened his pace as he pushed in as far as he could pounding her hard.

"Come on Liv" he panted "Cum for me, fuck" he said felling her tight around him as her climax started; he knew he was close as well. He dropped his head as he fucked her as hard and fast as he could.

He felt Olivia's hands on his face lifting his head "Look at me El" she said between the gasps "look me in the eyes, I want to see you when you come " she gasped as she felt her orgasm building keeping her hands either side of face never breaking eye contact with him. Elliot knew she close he felt her gripping him tighter, her body began to convulse "God El cum inside me baby, I want you to come inside me", he couldn't hold back any longer as he thrust again his hot seed exploding inside her. She squeezed him tight as he came hard never breaking eye contact with her. As they both started to relax Olivia pulled his head down to her and kissed away his tears that had begun to fall.

"Hey" she said smiling at him "Why the tears"

"Shhhh…..Don't El, don't say anything" She said as he lay on top of her and she held him tight "I can't think about that"

They lay holding each other neither wanting to part, finally Elliot withdrew from her carefully and moved to her side, pulling her back towards him holding her tight as they fell asleep.

Hope you all enjoyed that I couldn't wait any longer to finally get them into bed a bit more fun next time I think.