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Maura was surrounded by darkness. It was thick and suffocating. It kept encroaching on her space and she tried to call out. Her throat was hot and tight. Tendrils of black swirled around her, creeping across her skin and worming their way inside her eyes, her nose, her throat, she was choking on the dense impenetrable blackness. She felt her insides clogging and becoming heavy with darkness, she felt as if her body were giving up; her limbs felt heavy and unresponsive. She feebly reached out to her sides and hit resistance. She tried to stretch out and the same thing happened. As she felt around her she could feel the rough texture beneath her fingertips. Wood. It seemed to be getting impossibly darker and panic began to set in, she began screaming and shouting, kicking and hitting the wood to no avail. Sweat began pouring from her skin and her breathing was close to hyperventilation, she closed her eyes and tried to calm herself but closing her eyes just made everything darker. She called out again but closed her mouth abruptly as she roughly calculated how long it would be until she would be running out of oxygen; she didn't have long.

Dean hadn't moved a muscle and Jane wanted nothing more than to punch him in the face but she was aware of Susie standing behind her. "I said get out." Dean didn't say a word and still didn't move, Jane could feel the red mist beginning to descend, she was about to snap when Frost appeared out of the elevator.

Frost surveyed the scene warily, Susie looked petrified, Agent Dean looked the way he always did; Frost found it hard to read him and Jane, well Frost had known Jane long enough to know that when her jaw was clenched tight and her nostrils were flaring you wanted to get out of the firing line. It looked as if she was in a standoff with Dean and as much as Frost didn't want to interrupt, she needed this vital information. "Uh Jane?"

"Yeah."

It was a short and sharp, no messing around reply and she hadn't taken her eyes off Dean as she addressed him. Frost gulped, This isn't gonna be pretty. "The vic was, um, a possible associate of...um..."

"Spit it out Frost!" she wasn't in the mood to pussy foot around stuff, she wanted to deal with Dean.

"Paddy Doyle."

Jane felt as if she was reeling, her head went suddenly light and she had Frost's voice echoing around her head. Paddy Doyle...so it really is all to do with Doyle? ...Maura!

"He was Jane."

Jane's focus snapped back to Dean as he spoke, she snarled at him "Actually Agent Dean it's Detective Rizzoli." She gave him her best death stare at they remained at loggerheads with one another.

Frost winced at Jane's cold tone and wondered whether he should leave when the elevator doors opened and Korsak bumbled into his back.

"Uff!" Korsak took in the scene and winced in anticipation; Jane was in battle mode.

"Korsak! You remember Agent Dean from the FBI? He's just swooped in with some important information, information he's probably known for some time but decided not to share until us bumbling cops caught up with him. And now he's here to gloat!" she flicked her stare back at Dean "What is it hmm? Do you just love watching us scurry around like ants while you sit like a kid with a magnifying glass picking us off one by one?"

Dean sighed "Look if this is about what happened to Doyle-"

Jane cut him off angrily "You really have no idea do you?!" she looked at him in disgust.

"Jane?" Korsak spoke softly.

"What?!" she snapped at the older man before taking a deep breath and remembering he wasn't the one she was mad at. "What?" she asked softly.

Korsak swallowed hard "There's another body. Similar location. Reports say there's an unpleasant smell."

Jane nodded gravely and set her jaw, she looked back at Dean and sneered at him "Don't follow me. We all know how that ends."

It was suffocating in more ways than one; the intense heat that burned inside her body fighting its last battle fought with the icy chills than ran over her skin as fear dug its claws in. Maura felt like she was becoming part of the darkness she felt it seeping into her vital organs, her lungs tightened and felt like a vice, her heart was pounding to give her life but the blackness smothered its beats and held it until it weakened, she could taste the deathly intent around her as her body began to shut down. Maura knew these were her last few breaths and she tried to savour them. As she slowly inhaled images of loved ones flashed before her eyes; Constance and her father, to whom she had only very recently felt a connection now they had had a serious talk, Paddy's face appeared making her feel a strange mixture of confusion, love, sadness and anger, Angela Rizzoli who had been a mother to her whom she cared for deeply, Korsak and Frost who had always been friends to her even though they didn't understand her quirky ways, Ian even though he hurt her she couldn't help but care for her first real love, and finally there was Jane. Someone so polar opposite to herself it was odd to think just how close they had become. She smiled as she recollected their first meeting; Jane was undercover as a prostitute and Maura had offered to buy her coffee. A single tear slowly rolled down her cheek as the detective's face refused to budge from her eyes. Jane. Never before had Maura had a friend like her, she had never had a friend she cared so much for...and now she had ruined it. She pushed Jane away when she was hurting even as Jane had tried to make it better. I wish you could hear me Jane...I wish-