To distance yourself from everyone you once loved is hard, but you have to do it. You watched the windmill crash to the ground and watched the panic fill your best friend's eyes. She knows something is wrong, and you feel guilty because you could only sing along as the horror scene plays out before you. When the video is over and she is no where to be found, your eyes grow darker than usual. You point out that those weren't the stunt planes, and all your bass player can do is shrug. He cares, you know he does, but he will never show it. Your little luv is pronounced dead though no body is found.
Weeks later, you are sitting in your room when a distress call comes on. It's her! She's sounds urgent and is asking for help. You run to tell Murdoc, but he is in a drunken haze, claiming he'll go save her, then later says that it was just a recorded message for the fans. You head back to your room and sink to the floor. You're almost in tears when you make up your mind. You pack up your things and leave Kong studio behind once again.
You don't bother saying goodbye to anyone this time, you just get a flight and move away as far as you can possibly get. You wind up in the town you grew up in, it's not that far away, but it feels that way to you. You find a small flat in the middle of town and settle down there.
You don't have much in this new home, but it wouldn't matter. Nothing will fix anything, so you tend not to care.
You find it funny how when you come back, she always goes away. She forgets to say goodbye, too.
Why is it you were the one who wanted to be dead and yet she is the one who got your wish?
The only reason you stay alive is because, aside from leaving, she also always comes back. You know she will, you know that one day, you'll wake up and she'll be by your side again.
And one day, you did wake up, you opened the door, and there was your bassist.
He wanted you back in the band, but you slam the door in his face. As you stare out at the street below you, you see the many passing cars, knowing that right not you could jump into the traffic from your third story window and die. You are about to open the window and jump when you suddenly feel light-headed. Almost like you did all those years ago.
You begin to sway a little and you finally black out, the sound of cracking glass is the last thing you hear.
When you wake up, you realize you are in a suit case that you have to kick open. You put a hand over your eyes as the sun blinds you for a moment. With a quick survey of your surroundings, it obvious now that you aren't at home.
But where is this place?
Murdoc would later confirm that it was point Nemo, but you really don't care, you just want to go home.
The next thing you see scares you so bad, you think you're dreaming.
There was Noodle with a gun in her hands. She should be three years older, but she's not. You feel overwhelmed when Murdoc tells you that she is only a cyborg he created to replace your best friend.
You feel the hatred for the man thicken as he commands the cyborg to take you to your room, or rather, an underwater bunker.
To top it off, he made sure there was a whale outside your window, he know you are terrified, but he's only doing this so you will stay.
You stare at the ceiling of your new room for the next two years and you slowly begin to feel yourself slipping away. Murdoc doesn't seem to notice, he just wants you to sing with whatever collaborators he put on the beach.
And the one day, you finally reach your breaking point. You lay on your bed and sob hysterically, you are now beyond rational thought. You feel so numb, so helpless. You want it to be over, but with the whale outside watching you carefully, there's really nothing you can do besides cry your eyes out. The cyborg enters your room, she was supposed to bring you your lunch, but when she sees you, she begins to search her data base, trying to figure out what was wrong with you.
After minutes of searching she stops and stares. When nothing changes about you, she does something that shocks you both. She put a hand on your shoulder, trying to comfort you. It doesn't work, but Murdoc comes in a moment later.
"WHERE IS THA-" He stops when he sees you. He doesn't know how to react. He starts calling you names and tell you to man up, but you don't hear him.
Finally, he closes the window to hide the whale and sits beside you.
For once, the bassist says something you needed to hear.
"I'm sorry."
And there is your closure. That's all you ever needed to hear. So why was there the sound of gunfire?
As Murdoc and Cyborg tear from the room to go investigate, you stay behind, too emotionally drained.
Because the window is closed, you don't notice the whale that has tormented you for years charging at your room. You don't notice until water begins to fill your room and you are swallowed whole.
By now, you have no idea whether or not you are dead or alive. You don't care though.
Any other way, you will be reunited with your little luv soon enough.
A/N: One more chapter you guys! Just one more!