Chapter 2: Regrets

Rin continue to read that book. Thinking "I'm so innocent that time" with a sad-smile face. Memories keeps rushing to her mind.

Thursday, 29 November XX

07.00 a.m

I wonder if Len's okay. After what happens yesterday...ah come on, think positively! He'll be fine! By the way, it's starting to snow today! I want to build some snowman with Len when he's better xD well then, jaa! (Going to school._.)

I walked to school in my favorite yellow jacket and brown boots.

"I wonder if Len comes today.."

Then I went to change into my indoor shoes. I went to Len's class to see if he came, but his friend told me that he's still absent. So I text him, "Len are you feeling fine?"

Several hours has past and he hasn't replied it yet. It's the fourth period now. I can't help it but to worry about him.

(Last period)

It's already the last period now. No reply. I stared at my phone several times. Until "vrrrrrr", finally! A reply from Len!

"Sorry for late reply, I'm fine. I'm just watching over my cousin.."

Then I smiled in a relieve. Thank God he's fine. Then I reply;

"Yokatta... I thought something had happened to you since yesterday your friend told me that you was feeling unwell. Ne, can I ask at what hospital and what room is your brother in?"

Not long after that, I got a reply.

Unlucky for me, the teacher notices that I'm playing with the phone and I got scolded. There's no choice, I should wait until the lesson ends.

(After school)

"Fuwaaah! That was tough! So glad that the teacher didn't took my phone!" I said to myself as I took my phone out of my pocket. I opened the text that Len sent;

"It's V-hospital, room 409. Please tell me first if want to visit. Do you want to meet after school?"

I immediately replied a yes. Not long after that, he sent me another text;

"Okay then let's meet in the hospital's park."

I took my bag and rushes of to the hospital. Wait- why am I this excited to meet Len? Even my heart is racing...saa na.

As soon as I arrived, I went to the hospital's park and waited at the cafe there.

"Rin-nee!" A yellow-messy-haired boy running towards me. "*cough* *cough*"

"Ah Len! Are you alright? You shouldn't have run you know, you were just feeling unwell yesterday.." I said.

"*cough* No, it's fine haha *cough*" Len said, coughing many times. His face looks kinda pale too.

We chatted as usual. Len doesn't seem very well. "So? Where's your cousin? Can I visit him now?"

"I'm sorry, he's still resting.." Len said with a forced-smile.

"You aren't hiding something ar-..." Before I could finish my sentence, Len grabbed me and kiss my lips.

As soon as he lets go he said with a blushing face, "s-sorry"

"I-it's fine.. Just don't do that..." I said, blushing too.

"Why? Nee, what am I to you Rin-nee?" Len asked me with a red face.

"Wha- what are you asking so suddenly?" I asked with a blushing face. Damn. I can't look into his face.

"Just answer me, ok?"

"A.. L-little brother? I guess..." I answered hesitantly.

"You guess? Haha Rin-nee is so cute.."He said.

I'm blushing real hard by now. Dammit. It's so embarrasing! After a few minutes chatting, Len suddenly coughs a lot more than before. His face looks even more pale.

"Are you alright? Since we're in the hospital, let's go to the doctor! You look really pale!" I said worried about him.

"No. I.. I'll excuse myself, jaa ne Rin-nee.." He said as he rushes off.

"What's with that?" I said to myself. "..and I thought I could play the snow with Len.. *sigh*"

6.30 p.m

Today I almost got punished because of playing my phone in the middle of class! Yokatta it's makihara-sensei, so it's fine~ anyway, is Len really okay? He really looks pale today and he also coughs a lot. Then...he kissed me again today. Seriously, what is that kid thinking.. My heart was racing again.. I can't even look at his face! Is it really love? I love Len? Really?

I closes my journal and dozes off. Do I really love Len? I wonder from when did I started to like him..and I just realized this? Oh man..this makes me want to meet Len again. Is he alright? Oh I want to know! Besides, I want to tell him my feelings as soon as I can!

I took my yellow jacket and went to the hospital again. I ran as fast as I can, smiling like a weirdo. "Wait for me, Len!" I thought to myself. I entered the hospital and went straight to the lift. I saw a guy being carried in a 'moveable bed'. His face is covered by a fabric. I don't know what age since I can't see his face. I don't really mind it and rushes to room 409, guessing that Len will be there. If not, at least I could ask his cousin.

"There it it!" I knock at the door. No one answered. I opened the door and there's no one there. "Len?" I said. There's only a thing that catch my attention; a letter tied up with a yellow ribbon. I opened it out of curiousity.

Rin-nee..

If you read this, it means you broke our promise not to go to this room without telling me..but it's really fine.

I wrote this before I went to my final operation. I'm sorry for hiding this from you all this time. I don't want you to be sad. Then I guess that make us even? Heehee..

I don't really know whether I'll survive or not but.. If I don't, please don't forget about me. I will always live in your heart if you remembers me, you know.

If someday you got your man, please introduce him to me..

Last, I know you like me.. I just knew haha.. You blushes a lot when I kissed you..you like me right?even just a bit?

..and I will always love you, more than anyone else.

"Yes Len.. Yes, I love you! I really do!" I said, crying. I kept crying and crying when I realize that there's a nurse knocking at the door. I erased my tears and opened the door.

"Are you one of Len-san's acquaintance?"

"Y-yes.. How's Len?" I asked, my tears kept falling from my eyes.

"I'm sorry.. We tried our best.. His family is already downstairs, we just moved him just now.." The nurse said.

My tears kept falling out. Then I remembered the guy that I saw. "I-it's Len, isn't it?" I said to myself.

Then the nurse showed me my way to Len. I saw him laying in the bed with a peacefull face. I gave him a final kiss with the tears that won't stop.

11.00 p.m

It's raining. Len has gone. When I finally realized my feelings.. I.. If only I had realized this from before...I love you Len.. I really love you, always... Always.

That was the last thing I wrote on my journal.

(PRESENT)

Rin closes that book and smiled. She then tied up her hair with that yellow ribbon she had been holding. She took that book with her an leaves her house. Right before she leaves, she whispered one single thing,

"I love you Len, even until this very moment."

-END-

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