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Chapter 26

Deeks watched the woman in his arms as she was soundly asleep. This was what he wanted and nothing more. But he had to get up and leave her behind. Her and his girl. He turned over and faced the alarm clock. Only four more minutes and the 5 a.m. alarm would go off. Deeks sighed and kissed Kensi on her head. She murmured at bit and snuggled closer to him. He couldn't help smiling and he pulled away from her embrace. On his way to the bedroom he turned the alarm off, giving Kensi her precious sleep.

Freshly washed Deeks stepped out of the shower and put on his clothes. As he put on his shirt, he realized he had never brought his clothes to the bathroom. He quickly glanced into the bedroom and saw the bed empty. With a smile on his face, he walked into the living room. There was Kensi standing behind the stove and Narah was sitting at the table.

'What is this?' he smiled. Kensi walked over to him with a plate.

'Breakfast,' she told him and she kissed him. 'Just so you know what you have to miss while you're away.' Deeks smiled and he pulled Kensi to kiss her more firmly.

'Please, teenager in the room!' Narah joked and Deeks turned to her. He stroked her head and Narah smiled.

'Thank you both,' he said and he looked at his breakfast. 'I'll most definitely not forget what I left behind...and I will be back.'

'Safe and sound,' Kensi told him strictly.

'Safe and sound,' Deeks promised and he sealed it with a kiss. He quickly ate his food and looked at Kensi and Narah, who are taking a slower pace to eat their breakfast. Narah even almost fell asleep sitting at the table. They had given up two hours of their precious sleep to say goodbye to him. He watched as Kensi joked with Narah and he watched them laugh. His little family.

Deeks took another deep breath. The time had come that he had to leave. He glanced at Kensi and she nodded. He looked at Narah, who was standing in the corner, trying to put on a brave face. He walked over to her and he hugged her. It took her a few seconds but then she gave in to the hug.

'I will miss you,' he whispered to her and she nodded against his chest. 'Be a good girl and give Kensi some Twinkies. Make sure she doesn't make a huge mess of my place.' Narah started to laugh and she looked up at him. Deeks was surprised to see tears in the girl's eyes and it made him fight his own tears. It had never been so hard to go undercover. He let Narah go and he turned to Kensi. His beautiful girlfriend who was calmly looking at him. She knew what undercover work meant. She knew the dangers. Deeks walked over to her and kiss her.

'I'll be fine,' Kensi told him but Deeks saw it was a lie. He took a deep breath. He had thought about this all night. About what he was about to do. He looked long at Kensi, whose face turned more confused as time passed. Then he slowly started to speak.

'Kensi, there is no one in the world I loved more than you,' he started and Kensi held her breath. 'You are the most gorgeous woman in the world, and just as dangerous. It is you I want to spend the rest of my life with...and this is all kind of last minute...and I didn't completely prepare it all...like I have done before...but Kensi Marie Blye...Fern...will you marry me?' This time both Kensi and Narah gasped and Kensi even began to cry. She placed her hand on his cheek and tried to find words. His heart began to beat faster and faster. Then Kensi averted her eyes and his heart sank.

'Deeks, I love you too,' she told him, looking up again. 'But this is not the way to do this...not now that you're going undercover for who knows how long...I'm sorry, Deeks.' Deeks swallowed and he nodded. He understood. It had been a bad plan. He wiped Kensi's tears away.

'It's okay,' he told her and he kissed her. 'I will come back and ask you at the right time, the right moment.' She smiled through her tears and hugged him. Deeks extended his arm for Narah to join. He gave both his girls one last kiss and he walked out the door.

'So Deeks went under?' Sam asked casually when Kensi walked into the bullpen on her own. Kensi slowly nodded and she sat down behind her desk. As she tried to go through her e-mails, the silence was loud. No silly remarks or jokes from Deeks. Just the rustling of Sam's newspaper. Kensi sighed and rested her chin on her hand.

'You're okay, Kens?' Callen asked and she smiled at him.

'I'm fine,' she told him and she turned back to her e-mails. One of them sent a shiver down her spine. Miss Rooney wanted to speak with them, both of them, needing some more information. Deeks had only been away for two hours and already trouble was starting. How was this going to work when Deeks was gone for a long time? She looked at his empty desk. He had been only away for a couple of hours now...only hours. Not even a day yet and she was already missing him. It was quiet in the bullpen without him.

'Miss Blye, a moment in my office please?' Hetty asked politely and Kensi looked up curiously. Callen and Sam both shrugged and Kensi quickly went over to Hetty's office. Hetty stood there with a cup of tea in her hands. 'Would you like a cup as well, Miss Blye?' Kensi shook her head and she sat down in the chair.

'I just received some papers from Mister Deeks,' Hetty said and Kensi smiled. 'As I guessed you already know what they mean. After this case, Mister Deeks will become an NCIS agent. But until that time, for as long Mister Deeks is undercover, I have to assure you that I will help you with anything that's needed in order for you to adopt Narah.' She was holding a piece of paper and Kensi recognized the handwriting with ease. She started to smile. Even when he was not in the room with her, he had her back.

'Thank you, Hetty,' she smiled at her boss, who simply nodded.

'As for your work, I think you, Mister Callen and Hanna can manage with just the three of you,' Hetty said and Kensi nodded. She didn't want any other partner than Deeks. Hetty nodded. 'We shall see how long Mister Deeks' case last; until then you won't have a partner.'

Narah was sitting on the couch, worried about she had seen on the laptop. Cops died going undercover. So many covers were getting blown...what was the chance that would happen to Deeks? They kept saying he was one of the best, but even the best die. She quickly closed the laptop when Julia walked into the room.

'Hey, shouldn't you be making homework?' she asked and Narah shrugged. She didn't feel like making her homework when Deeks' life was in danger, every second of the day. Narah understood undercover was sometimes the only way to catch the criminals but why did it have to be Deeks? Why didn't he sign those papers and work for just NCIS?

'Narah?!' Julia said and Narah looked up. Julia looked like she was expecting a reply to some question or something but Narah had missed it completely. Julia sat down on the couch next to Narah. 'Are you okay, sweetheart?' Narah put on her brave face and she nodded.

'Just not wanting to make my homework right now,' she answered. 'Besides I made almost half of it at school already.'

'Okay,' Julia said. 'You can do something else, as long as you make your homework after dinner, promise?' Narah nodded and as soon as Julia left the room, she opened the laptop again. Not much could be found about undercover cops, except for books and TV shows of course. But Narah wanted to find the facts. How many of the cops died while undercover? Were undercover cops even able to adopt children? She knew a safe and stable job was important. Deeks did not have that. Actually neither did Kensi. What if the application was turned down and Deeks and Kensi weren't allowed to keep her. A hand pushing the laptop down shocked Narah and she looked up right into Julia's eyes.

'Looking up all the facts will make you go crazy,' she told the teenager. 'You just have to trust that Deeks will do whatever it takes to come back to you and Kensi. He will take no unnecessary risks.'

'But...' Narah started and Julia smiled, taking the laptop away.

'Trust me, you can better concentrate on the good things,' she said. 'And if there aren't any...make some good things. Also talk to Kensi. She is probably as worried as you are.' She stroked Narah's head as she walked out of the room taking the laptop with her. Narah sighed and glanced out of the window.

She didn't remember the bed being this empty. She couldn't remember if she had ever been in this apartment without him longer than one afternoon. Deeks was always by her side in this room and she missed that. Kensi turned her head as she heard the door open. Narah came walking in, wearing her pajamas already. She smiled at the teenager who was holding two bowls of ice cream.

'Deeks left us some ice with the note to eat it and not to worry,' Narah told her and Kensi gestured her to get over to the bed. She took the bowl of ice cream gratefully. Cookie Dough, her favorite. Always taking care of them. Narah leaned against the wall, eating her ice cream quietly.

'He knows us quite well, doesn't he?' Kensi smiled as she sat down next to the girl, who nodded with a spoon full of ice cream. Kensi patted Narah's leg. 'We will make it work with the two of us. We can eat all the ice cream we want and watch Top Model all day...'

'We could watch a movie right now,' Narah suggested and Kensi nodded.

'Any on your mind?'

'What about The Notebook? I really wanted to see it. They said it was good but Deeks wouldn't let me watch it...saying it was too much of a chick flick and no one was watching it near him.' Kensi started to laugh.

'Yeah, I remember the time we tried watching it together. But I think it's a good plan to watch The Notebook, since Deeks is...' Kensi quickly took a spoon of ice cream and Narah held up the DVD.

They didn't get far into the movie before Narah started to ask questions about Deeks' undercover, which was so much on her mind she couldn't give any attention to the movie at all. Kensi tried her best to answer any of her questions.

'If you see him on the street, ignore him and get as far away as possible,' Kensi told her. 'He is undercover and any hint of his real life is a danger for his cover. And he will become worried when you're so close to his case…think more about keeping you safe than himself...which is why you have to get as far away as possible.' Narah nodded and toyed with her melted ice cream. Kensi stroked her hair. 'He will come home. He knows me and Hetty will kick his ass if he dies.' Narah smiled weakly. The answers eased her mind a little but still she wasn't comfortable with it.

'Does it ever get easier?' she asked Kensi, who shrugged.

'I usually go undercover with Deeks, so I wouldn't know...It's probably the hardest part of dealing with Deeks' undercover: I am not there to have his back like we're used to.' Narah slowly nodded and suddenly she felt tired. She put the bowl away and glanced at Kensi.

'Can I stay with you for the night?' she asked carefully and Kensi nodded.

'Of course you can,' she said and she kissed Narah on her forehead. 'I'll get rid of these bowls and then we can get some sleep.' Narah nodded and watched Kensi walk out of the door. When she was alone in the room, she carefully touched her forehead. No one had kissed her on her forehead in such a long time. To her, kissing the forehead was something of pure love. Pure love between parent and child. The last time she was eight years old and was abandoned not long after. Narah turned to her side and sighed. It wasn't right. Not yet. She had to do something before it was alright. Before she could live her dream. So when Kensi walked back into the room, Narah sat up.

'I want to go to my mother.'

TBC

Wow, already 60,621 words on Word...that are a lot of words O.O Felt like a lot less when I wrote them xD