No Money, No Love

By: Witch Baby

A/N: I am so so so SORRY for such a late update. But you do not know how much I STRUGGLED with this chapter! It was torture I tell you! TORTURE! But I did it all for you my dearest fans! Please read and review! And I'm taking a moment to be shameless and tell you all to read my Okane Ga Nai one-shot 'Cemetery'. Read it and review! I demand it!

WARNING: MAN-SEX AHEAD! Pretty much just man-sex...

"Once I made a promise that I'd never lead you on,

But I feel the yearn to love you even though I know it's wrong

You'll have to take my hand and lead me slowly through the door,

I'll be wrong in what I'm doing, but I can't refuse you anymore

Lead me on and take control of how I feel,

I can't do this on my own, 'cause it's against my will

I need love warm and tender in a way I've never known,

If you want me I'll go with you but you'll have to lead me on..."

Chapter Ten: If I Close My Eyes, Its All The Same

By the time the apartment came into view, Ayase had more or less calmed himself. It was hard to be distraught when he was pressed intimately next to Kanou. Confused would be more like it. He had missed the feeling of warmth the older male used to bring him. The world was a much less scary place when Kanou stood beside him, protecting him from all the things out to hurt him. Ayase liked to think he was strong enough to hold his own, but there was no doubt that Kanou's presence was reassuring. Funny really, how the one person that caused him the most grief, seemed to be the only thing that gave him peace of mind.

The stairs leading up to his door loomed ahead, but Kanou found a little comfort in the fact that Ayase pressed closer against him. He didn't like that fact that he would soon be parting with Ayase, much less the dreadful place he was leaving him. But he had given his promise, and when it came to the blond, his word would be something he kept. Even if he loathed the idea with everything he had.

Ayase was surprised that what once had seemed like a safe haven for him, now flooded his veins with panic. The door was a reminder that soon, they'd have to part ways. Even if it was the right thing to do, it didn't mean that it hurt any less. He stole a peek up at Kanou in hopes to see if he was feeling something similar. Of course though, there was no emotion that flickered across that strong profile. Ayase looked away in uncertainty. He would give anything to know what was going through the older males head. There must be some type of true affection somewhere deep inside, he was here after all. Yet, if that was true, then why had he done the things he did?

Kanou took a step away, gritting his teeth as he did. He shoved his hands in his pockets to prevent himself from reaching out to crush the young male to him. 'This better be worth it Someya...' he growled silently.

Ayase dug the keys out of his pocket, fiddling with them before unlocking the door. Taking a deep breath, he pushed it open, before turning to face the taller man. He could feel Kanou's intense gaze on him, and it made him tremble slightly. "Will I... see you tomorrow?" he asked quietly.

"Is that what you want?" Kanou asked, silky voice sliding over Ayase like a physical caress.

The blond hesitated, biting his bottom lip as he shyly looked at the ground. "Yes I... would like that..."

Kanou smiled, something that didn't bode well for Ayase, but was comforting all the same. He leaned in, brushing Ayase's white blond hair over his ear and sensually whispering, "Until tomorrow then."

Ayase whimpered when Kanou pulled away, mind going dizzy as the touch he craved suddenly left him. Without thinking, he called out to Kanou's retreating form. "Wait! Kanou..."

The older male paused, turning around slowly to pin the nervous blond with an intense stare. His heated eyes spoke volumes. 'Call me in and I can't promise to hold back.'

Such a burning stare made him pause. Was he really ready to go through with this? He knew that too much Kanou was not good for him... but it couldn't be that bad could it? Ayase took a deep, calming breath...

"Would you like to come in for tea?"

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Ayase paced around his kitchen, waiting for the water to boil, and berating himself for ever calling Kanou back. He wasn't ashamed of that fact that he wanted the older man. Throughout their time together Kanou had brought comfort as well as pain. For every hurt, their had been a soft touch to smooth it away. Still, such adoration didn't take away from the fact that Kanou was selfish and demanding.

Then again, wasn't Ayase being selfish as well? He had invited Kanou inside, knowing full well what might happen the longer they stayed alone. He could feign innocence, claim that, 'a cup of tea meant just a cup of tea,' but somewhere along the way he had realized something: he wanted Kanou. He might not like the way the older man treated him, he might not like all the things he felt around the man, but that didn't make him stop wanting to feel those arms wrap around him tenderly. It didn't stop the shiver that trailed along his spine when he felt Kanou press him against the counter, his hands possessively gripping the blonds waist.

Ayase whimpered when those hands squeezed him gently, Kanou's tongue darting out to trace the delicate curve of his ear. Kanou was angry at him, Ayase could tell in the rough way he lifted him and set him on the counter. Kanou loved foreplay; loved to taste and tease Ayase until the smaller male was crying and begging for it to end.

There would be none of that gentle toying tonight. Ayase could taste the pent fury in the hard kiss that assaulted his mouth. Kanou's tongue plunged past his lips, demanding compliance. Tiny sounds of need sounded in the back of Ayase's throat, and it only seemed to drive Kanou even more wild. The counter was cold and hard, Ayase's head hurt from where he had bumped it against the cabinet, and his lungs burned in need of air. Yet all of that didn't matter as Kanou began to grind his hips against him, mouth trailing down to attack the sensitive flesh of Ayase's neck.

Through the rage though, Ayase could tell there was also hurt. This was Kanou's way of lashing out, of punishing the blond for the turmoil of the last few days. Ayase felt a pang of guilt, even if in the back of his mind he knew it wasn't his fault. But it wasn't like he was in any position to argue, when Kanou had him pinned to the counter. He had enough with the fighting anyway. He didn't want to think anymore, only feel.

Ayase cried out, hands clutching the fabric of Kanou's shirt, squirming when the older male pressed their groins harder against each other. He knew this was the last thing he should be doing, but he didn't want to stop. He didn't care anymore how this ended, he'd deal with the repercussions of his actions when the time came.

Kanou knew that there was something different this time. No protests left Ayase's lips, even with the savage way Kanou was treating him. He pulled at the blond's shirt, buttons popping and clattering to the floor. Ayase gasped as Kanou's mouth latched onto the bared flesh, teeth nipping to form a possessive mark. Suddenly, the blond was lifted into the older male's strong arms as he stumbled towards the bedroom, keeping their lips firmly pressed together. As his back met with the soft fabric of his small bed, Ayase grasped the last shred of sanity he possessed. "K-Kanou...wait I- mph!"

The protests where silenced with another bruising kiss, Kanou's tongue insistent on driving Ayase to the brink of madness with every tantalizing sweep and lick. Ayase knew the consequences of inviting Kanou inside, and now he would have to live with it. Strong hands skimmed down lithe hips, not quite touching their goal but teasing enough that Ayase whimpered softly. Fingers tugged at zippers and fabric until the remaining garments where tossed aside, leaving Ayase flushed in embarrassment at his nakedness.

His blush darkened at the older males hungry gaze, but didn't try to cover himself, learning long ago that Kanou was displeased by such actions. Ayase was no longer trying to fight the rush of emotions that coursed through him. All he could do was hold on tightly and hope that in the morning, he would be strong enough to deal with this. Shutting his eyes as Kanou's hands circled around his wrist to pin him down, Ayase let himself go.

His cry was wild and full of aching need as Kanou's mouth trailed down to tease one pert nipple. Ayase's back arched, tears of both uncertainty and desire filling his glazed blue eyes. Kanou's other hand tweaked the other sensitive bud, smirking triumphantly. "At least this part of you missed me..." He growled, his tongue flicking across pale flesh to earn another strangled cry.

Kanou was quick to remove his own clothing, frantic to feel soft skin sliding against his own. Three days, that's how long he had been away from this. Three days, each one dragging on for what felt like eternity. He wished he could have been a little more gentle when preparing Ayase, but he was mad with wanting. He needed this, the taste and the sounds. The feeling of being whole. Couldn't Ayase see that? Feel it in his touch? He would fall apart without the feeling of tight heat wrapping around his throbbing cock and the sight of Ayase's face twisted in pleasure as he screamed.

Ayase found it hard to catch his breath. With Kanou moving in and out of his, his body lighting up like fireworks, he couldn't grasp onto any coherent thought. It hurt, it always did with such enormous length that Kanou possessed, and their was no lube to ease the stretching. Even with the pain, it was still so very good to have Kanou filling him. To for just a single moment be one with the man that caused him so much hurt and so much joy. To see those usually emotionalizes eyes to fill with passion.

Blunt nails scrapped down Kanou's back, Ayase holding on for dear life as the older male began to move faster. Pushing and pulling in hot jerky thrusts, one hand snaking down to stroke over Ayase's own twitching arousal. Stars erupted behind his eyes, and with a loud moan Ayase lost himself to the white hot pleasure. With a few more jerky thrusts into Ayase's tight heat, Kanou grunted quickly, hands gripping tightly to Ayase as he came.

Ayase closed his eyes, wincing slightly as Kanou pulled out and laid himself beside the blond. He didn't protest or struggle as Kanou pulled him to his chest. As his breath slowed, his eyes closed as he listened to the strong steady heart beat of the older male. His last thought before falling asleep, was that even though he shouldn't have slept with Kanou, for the first time in days he felt complete.

A/N: Ahhh so glad to have this done. It was so difficult to get through this. But thanks to the lovely A Dangerous Notion for her confidence boosts and suggestions. You're amazing darling! Simply amazing! And the fans of course too! I do this for the fans!

Speaking of fans, I really hope you all the got the points I was trying to make. Yes, there are deeper meanings behind the sex! Mmmmm but the sex is soooo nice... ha ha ha... wow I'm a pervert...

Anyway, the song used for this chapter was a really old country duet with Loretta Lynn and Conway Twitty. I had another song planned for this chapter, but I was in the car with my mother when she played this song and I was like "AH! THIS SONG IS PERFECT HOLY CRAP!". Listen children, really listen. Its a wonderful thing, music is... The song I was originally going to use was "All The Same" by Sick Puppies. Listen, its a great song and was used for the title of the chapter!

This chapter is short, but mostly I wanted to get it out of the way. Like I said this chapter was difficult. I'm still not sure I did a good job on it... but this is about at good as it gets. Drama next chapter! This wasn't nicey nice make up sex children. ;)

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