The Perfect Storm
DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN ANYTHING EVERYTHING BELONGS TO SHONDA
AN: I think once the trust is gone its hard to get it back. Even if you love someone there comes a point in time that love is not going to be enough. That's why its so interesting to see what will happen to calzona in s10.
If callie is not a victim like shonda said then she will definitely leave Arizona and move on. As for Arizona dealing with what she did she will only finally realize the impact and hurt she inflicted when callie is gone.
Like what they always say you only realize what you lost when you finally loose them. Now the how will they get back that's interesting cause they are forever changed both of them.
Chapter 3
Arizona
Please tell me she's ok….
Bailey: we did everything we could Arizona but she's to unstable its still touch and go.
We closed her up if she survives the night then we go in again tomorrow.
Derek said we won't know the extent of damage she sustained unless she runs some test when she awakes but her right hand suffered massive subcutaneous tissue damage where the point of contact is made.
Derek is concerned about the nerves in her hands.
Avery took care of the burns.
Im sorry Arizona.
Yang: our major concern for now is her heart and lungs.
There was a direct myocardial lesion a rise in tissue temperature can be seen.
There is a damage to the heart tissue (myocardial contusion) by the shock waves.
There was also a Blood clot formation in the peripheral arteries.
We are hoping that cal stabilizes enough for us to fix it.
Bailey: all we can do is pray and wait.
She's in intensive care.
Do you wanna go see her?
Hearing all this information being given to her is overwhelming she couldn't believe how worse her wife's condition is.
Silent tears went streaming down her face all Arizona could do was nod when bailey asked if she wanted to see callie.
As I enter the intensive care I felt numb seeing my wife with all those wires and tubes connected to her
. all I can think about is she has to make it.
She has to hold on.
I slowly walked towards my wife's bed.
I held her left hand and I caressed her face I kissed her forehead and whispered
"you have to fight cal, sofia needs you… I need you"
I feel a pain in my leg I winced but I don't care all I care about is my wife
. Karev probably saw me wince he offered me a chair so I can sit.
I sat beside callie holding her hand praying for all the gods that I don't believe in to please save my wife.
I kiss my wife's hand then I realized callie's ring is missing.
Callie
It was dark I cant see anything.
I don't know what's going on.
I cant hear anything.
Im cold and alone.
Where am i.
I don't understand whats happening.
When suddenly I felt a familiar body embracing me.
Holding me with those strong arms.
A familiar smell, presence I had missed so much. Mark!
"Mark?"
Hey Cal.
"Where are we?"
I think you know cal.
"Oh my god. Im dead"
Well technically not yet.
"I might as well be mark."
Don't say that cal. Who's gonna take care of sof.
"im dead inside mark,
Arizona cheated on me and she can't forgive me for cutting leg off.
She hates me because I forced her to live a life she never wanted."
Do you really believe that cal?
And besides you have a lot to live for.
Is sofia not a good enough reason for you?
You are an amazing mother.
Badass ortho god who created cartilage from scratch.
You build bones out of nothing and legs like god.
How can you look so defeated.
Arizona does not define who you are cal.
Walk tall torres.
"I really missed you so much mark. Sof misses you too"
Im always watching over my girls cal.
Im always here for you.
You cant see me but im always there.
'What am I going to do mark?"
I can't tell you what to do cal.
Everything is up to you.
I believe that everything happens for a reason and someday you would understand.
I know its hard but you have to fight cal.
You have to be strong.
You have to keep on going so you can reach where you are destined to be.
Like Eleanor Roosevelt said
You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.'
You can do this cal. You can survive this.
What's meant to be will be. I believe in you torres.
"thank you mark I wish everyday that you lived but I know you love lexie to much for you to stay.
So how do I go back?"
Come on cal let me show you something.
They walked for a little bit until they can see a waterfall.
"wow mark this is beautiful"
Can you see that waterfall cal.
If you choose to go back you have to climb until you reach the top of the waterfall then you have to jump cal.
You need to surrender everything have faith then jump. Take care of our little girl cal.
You will figure things out. I know you can.
I have to go now cal.
"thank you mark…
ill take care of sof.
I love you and iL miss you"
I love you too cal.
Mark is gone callie sat there admiring the waterfalls pondering if she wants to come back and face the pain
or just stay here and leave everything behind.
Arizona
Karev can you please ask the nurse where they put callie's things.
Right away boss. You need anything else?
Can you swing by callie's office.
Sofia stuff is there. sof is afraid of thunder she needs her blanket for her to calm down.
Bailey: Arizona why don't you go see sofia for a while. We will take care of callie.
I can leave her here bailey. What if I go and something happens. I cant…
We will watch her.
if something happens to her we will page you but you have to take care of your daughter she needs you as much as callie.
Ok please take care of her bailey..
Arizona stood up kissed her wife's forehead.
"I will be back soon baby I will just go check on sofia. I love you."
Arizona entered callie's office looking for sofia's things when an envelope caught arizona's eyes.
I was addressed to her with callie's handwriting.
She took the envelope and sat down on callie's chair.
She opened it taking out the paper callie's ring and heart necklace fell out..
She picked up the ring and necklace knowing what it meant.
Her hands are shaking. Tears in her eyes. She cant breathe.
She willed herself to read the letter.
My Dearest Arizona,
You are the love of my life. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. You came into my life when I was at my lowest. You gave me a reason to smile and walk tall again.
Who would have thought that a kiss in a dirty bar bathroom can lead us to this. I thought we are finally past all the hard stuff. Me being a newborn, you not wanting kids, the grant, the car crash, the plane crash.
I thought we survived it all we made it together but I was wrong all those issues we didn't really resolved them we just settled for them because we don't wanna loose each other.
When I think about it all those times it seems like you were giving up a piece of yourself bit by bit until you don't know who you are anymore. Ive forced you to give up your dreams, forced you to raise a child that you didn't want trapped you in a life you never wanted.
Im so sorry Arizona for doing those things to you. Im sorry I couldn't keep my promise not to cut off your leg. All I wanted was for you to live because I love you and I cant imagine myself living my life without you in it.
I already lost my bestfriend the father of my child. I couldn't bare to loose you too. And if you hate me for that then so be it but im glad I did because your still here and you lived but I guess you can never forgive me for it.
I tried so hard for you to be ok I took all the blows because I love u. but there comes a point in time that even loving you was never enough.
You wanna be happy and feel like your old self and I couldn't do that for you. All I want for you is to be happy zo.
Lauren did that for you. Im so sorry for everything. I hope someday you would be able to forgive me.
So as much as it pains me to say this.
ARIZONA IM LETTING YOU GO….
With all my love Always and Forever,
CALLIOPE
She letting go… she's leaving me…
Arizona felt sick… she did this to her wife…
Im so selfish… so focused on my pain I didn't realize what I was doing to my wife and daughter…
How could callie think that I didn't want them..
I love her and sofia… I choose to stay because I wanted to because I want to be with them..
They are my dream… and in one night I destroyed my family..
I destroyed my dream just because I wanted to feel like my old self.
I sacrificed my family for a few minutes of pleasure…
How am I going to fix this… I want callie… I need callie..
I need my family… I can't loose them…
There is no point in living if I loose my family…
I will make things right….
I will fix everything I broke…
I will get better so I can treat them better…
I will do anything… no matter how long it takes…
I will not give up… I will fight for my family…
Putting her ring and callies ring through the chain of callies necklace…
she vowed that someday that they would wear those rings again…
She would do everything to deserve to wear her ring again…
With a renewed determination arizona stood up so she could go see her daughter and take care of her wife….
I will not let this win! I will fight with everything I have…