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Tris POV
"I don't know…" I say. After going home last night, Christina woke me up early to go get a coffee with her, and now she is drilling me.
"It's the best thing to do," Christina says. She wants me to tell everyone.
"It's not that easy to do," I say, quieter now on the subject.
"I know," she says, "But they will think that you don't trust them."
"I've known them for, what, a week and a half?" I defend.
"You told me," she counters.
"That's because I-I" I say. Why did I tell Christina again?
"You told Four," she points out.
"That's because he's someone I feel like I can confide in," I say.
"You two are perfect together," Christina says, changing the subject. I am relieved.
"He's perfect," I say, staring off into space.
"Have you?" she asks, giving me the you know look.
"Oh my god! No!" I nearly shout.
"Just asking!" she says.
"Why would I sleep with a guy I just met?" I ask. Wait, why would I say that I love a guy I just met? Did I really mean it?
No, I push the thought out of my mind. Of course I did.
"He loves you a lot," she says, but it sounds distant.
"How can you tell?" I ask curiously.
"The way he looks at you, the way he always smiles when you are around. Four never smiled before you came here," Christina says.
It doesn't take a genius to tell that her mind is somewhere else. "Do you like anyone Christina?" I ask.
"Hmm? No, no…" she says, but I can tell that she is lying.
"That's a lie, tell me," I demand.
"Promise you won't tell?" she asks hesitantly.
"Of course I won't tell. You keep my secret, I'll keep yours," I say.
She relaxes, and says, "Will."
"Will?" I repeat, but it comes out as a question. Now that I think about it, she has been sneaking glances over at him every now and then, very discrete but now perfectly obvious now that I know.
Christina sighs, and says, "It's hopeless, I know it is. You don't have to tell me."
"You never know," I say. I haven't talked to Will much, I don't know what he would do.
"How did you and Four get together?" she asks again.
"He took me on a picnic in a beautiful park. We ate sandwiches, I told him about me, he told me about him. I doubted myself when he confessed his feelings for me, and I kissed him," I say.
"That's so romantic," Christina says.
"Yeah," I say, now day-dreaming about Tobias. I wish I was with him right now; I hadn't talked to him since last night.
"What should I do?" she asks me, "I've liked him for a while now, but I don't think he's even noticed me. We've been friends forever."
I don't know what to say, I'm not good with relationships, "If it is right, it will happen," I finally say.
"Marlene likes Uriah," Christina blurts out.
"What?" I ask, surprised.
"Marlene, she told me," she explains.
Wow, I didn't see that one. I shrug, and ask, "Okay, any other secret crushes in our group?"
"I don't know about Lynn, if that's what you mean. For a while I thought she was, you know, but I've seen her talking to this guy, Matt. I don't know what's going on with them," Christina says.
"Hmm," I say, not knowing how else to respond. Girl talk is so boring, I wish we could do something with the whole group. Oh yeah, right, they're mad at me.
"I know, I feel that way too, but we should talk to them," Christina says. It's funny how you can know someone for such a short period of time, but they can practically read your mind.
Ding! I look down at my phone and see a text from Tobias, and I smile.
T: I miss you
"Ooh, who was that!" Christina exclaims.
"Four," I say, not looking up.
"What did he say?" she asks, yanking the phone out of my hand. She reads it and says, "Aww, that's so cute!"
I take my phone back and respond.
Me: I wish I were with you right now :(
T: Why aren't you? Everyone is at Zeke and Uriah's house except you and Christina…
"Did you know that?" I ask Christina as she reads our conversation over my shoulder.
"No," she says, "But we should go."
"But what should I do?" I ask, now nervous.
"Pretend it never happened, hopefully they won't be stupid and bring it up again," Christina says.
I sigh, and say, "Okay."
Me: Is it all right if we come over in, say, five minutes?
"Five minutes! You're giving me five minutes to get you ready?" Christina asks. I look down at my outfit, and find that I look somewhat decent already.
"I'm fine," I say.
T: I'll be counting down the seconds… :)
I decide to tease him.
Me: Um, creep?
T: *creep that loves you
Me: You're alright ;)
T: I am offended to be referred to as anything less than your amazing wonderful boyfriend
Me: Ha! Whatever you say Four… ;)
T: I'll see you in four minutes and twelve seconds :)
Me: See you then :)
Christina looks at me dreamily, as if fanaticizing about my relationship. Or her imaginary relationship, either one.
"Let's go!" she finally says, and then runs out the door. I sigh, and run after her.
We arrive at the Pedrad house a few minutes later. Christina parks and just walks in without knocking or anything, me following closely behind. We find the gang in the living room, I've never seen it without a hundred people crowded inside.
"Hey guys!" Christina says. I say nothing; I didn't realize exactly how worried I was until I walked into the room. I don't want to tell them.
"Hey hey hey!" Uriah says, and everyone laughs. I don't, I'm too nervous to laugh.
I walk over to sit next to Tobias on the couch. He wraps his arm around me protectively, and I sink into him. His eyes show concern, I must not be doing a very good job of pretending that nothing happened. I give him a small smile, and hopefully he understands what I'm trying to say.
Thankfully he nods, but his grip on me tightens a bit. I love how he is always there. I hate to think that I am becoming one of those girls that is always clinging to their boyfriend, and that nothing else matters, but I couldn't imagine life without Tobias there by my side.
Tobias POV
"Hey guys," I say as I walk into Zeke's living room. There is tension in the air, of course there is. I blew up at everyone last night after Tris ran out.
"Hey," Uriah says, not looking up from his phone. The whole gang, minus Tris and Christina, is here.
Shauna clears her throat, and Uriah jumps to put his phone down. "Look," she says, "We were talking, and we're sorry about last night. We would like to know, but it is probably a sensitive topic and we pushed it too far."
At first I'm a bit shocked by their apology, but then I say, "Thank you, but I am not the one you should be apologizing to."
"We told Christina to bring Tris here, but she's been ignoring our messages all morning," Marlene says.
"Do you blame her? I wouldn't be surprised if Tris doesn't want to even look at you guys," I say. Honestly, I don't even want to look at them. I know that they apologized, but I don't necessarily forgive them unless Tris does.
"I know," Shauna says, "We really messed up, and we need your help to fix it."
"You want my help? Just because you apologized doesn't mean I'm on your side," I spit out.
"Look dude," Zeke speaks up, "We just want to make things right again."
"We just want you to get Tris here so we can ask for forgiveness, that's all," Marlene says.
I sigh, and take out my phone. I can't believe I'm doing this.
Me: I miss you
That's not I lie, I wish more than anything that we were together, alone walking through the park with our hands together.
T: I wish I were with you right now :(
It's like she can read my mind without even being with me, Tris is amazing. I wish I didn't have to force her to come here.
Me: Why aren't you? Everyone is at Zeke and Uriah's house except you and Christina…
In a way, I hope she says no. I feel like it will be better if she thinks about it all for longer.
T: Is it all right if we come over in, say, five minutes?
Wow, I wasn't expecting her to agree so easily. Then again, I wouldn't be surprised if Christina has been talking to her about it all.
"They'll be here in five minutes," I say.
"Thank you," Shauna says, and I nod.
Me: I'll be counting down the seconds… :)
T: Um, creep?
I know she is teasing me, and I love how she can be so sarcastic in the midst of such a serious situation.
Me: *creep that loves you
T: You're alright ;)
Me: I am offended to be referred to as anything less than your amazing wonderful boyfriend
T: Ha! Whatever you say Four… ;)
Hearing, or reading, Four from Tris is almost hurtful now, I love it when she says my real name. I then realize that Christina is probably reading this conversation as well, and am fine, in fact grateful that she thinks of everything to keep my name a secret.
Me: I'll see you in four minutes and twelve seconds :)
T: See you then :)
The time before she gets here is even more uncomfortable than before. No one really knows what to say to each other, so it is silent. Uriah starts tapping his foot at one point, but Zeke automatically shushes him.
A few minutes later, we hear a door open. Christina and Tris then walk into the room, and Christina says, "Hey guys!"
"Hey hey hey!" Uriah says, and everyone laughs. It is an awkward laugh though, brought out from the discomfort in the room. I look at Tris, and she looks nervous. I honestly don't blame her.
She walks over to where I am, and sits down next to me. I wrap my arm around her, I want her to know that I am here for her. Tris doesn't know what is happening next, a million emotions must be running through her and I wish that I could take them all away. But I can't
Tris gives me a small smile, and I pull her closer. I love when she is in my arms, and I wish I was able to protect her from everything. I would love it all much more if I didn't know what was to happen next.