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Chapter 3: pulling youself together.

Reid awoke to a gentle hand nudging him. The memories of the last couple of hours came flooding back to him. His mum had an accident and wasn't in a good way. He was on his way to visit her. He knew she was sick. Really sick. Dying. Reid's eyes darted open and his team stared at him.

"Reid are you alright?" JJ asked softly. Reid just nodded not to sure if he was ready to talk.

"We are nearly there" Emily said, "Is there anything we can do for you". Reid just shook his head and stood up.

"Bathroom". Was the only word he managed to croak out. His team gave him a concerned stare but no one had the heart to stop him. When Reid got to the toilet he quickly locked the door and stared at himself in the mirror. He was a mess. His hair was knotty and his eyes had red and purple bags under them. His actual eyes were still bloodshot from his earlier breakdown. Reid knew he had to stop feeling sorry for himself and get a grip.

'What are you doing. What if mum wakes up and sees you like this. You need to stop being weak and compose yourself. You can't keep breaking down like this your team are going to think you're a weak baby who's not capable of doing anything.' He thought angrily to himself. Reid opened the door and walked confidently to his seat.

"You ready?" Asked Hotch.

"Yes" Reid answered this time his voice not failing him.

"Have you considered who you want to come with you to the hospital?" Hotch asked, slightly pleased that Reid had composed himself.

"JJ, if that's alright?" Reid replied.

"Of course it is Reid and just to let you know that I'm always going to be here for you." JJ replied, happy at the thought of him trusting her but also afraid of what they would have to face when they arrived at the hospital.

" , I trust?" Said the doctor standing before Reid and JJ. "I'm , I'm your mothers consult."

"Hello doctor how is she?" Reid asked quickly. This was the first time he had spoken since leaving the jet and his voice quavered when he spoke.

"During your mothers episode she managed to accumulate a kitchen knife. She stabbed herself three times. Once in her arm just avoiding her wrists, another in the abdomen however she avoided all major organs. It was however the final wound which seemed to cause the most damage. The knife managed to cut right through her kidney causing it to heavily bleed internally. By the time your mother came to us she lot a lot of blood and we nearly lost her twice in the surgery. She's had a transfusion to replace the blood and we removed the kidney, but she's weak. The odds she will recover are strong but her body's not in great shape so the recovery will take long". The doctor summed up.

Reid absorb each word the doctor said. Shivers ran through him when the doctor told him about each stab wound and his stomach dropped when he heard that they nearly lost her twice. But the fact that she was going to recover was all he needed to hear and a ray of hope washed over him.

"Can I see her?" He asked hesitantly.

"Of course but you have to understand she's unconscious at the moment and might be for a while." cautioned him. Reid nodded to show that he understood.

"I'll wait out here for you okay spence? Take all the time you need." JJ spoke reassuringly. Reid nodded and followed the doctor to see his mum.

"Hey hotch it's JJ. She's going to be okay." JJ said not even trying to hide the relief and joy in her voice.

A.N- hey everyone thank you so so much for the nice reviews. You may think the story's done here but trust me there's a twist coming. I will try to update as soon as possible and I hope you enjoy reading this:)