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chapter 8: it was just a dream.

"Spencer?" Came a light knock from the door of the cubicle he was in. Spencer lay on the floor of the cubicle feeling exhausted. All he wanted to do was sleep and forget the last 24 hours, but he knew he had to get up of the floor and pull him self together. He promised himself that he would wait till he was in the safety of the hotel room until he started loosing it again. Slowly he lifted himself up. His head was pounding and he felt awful. He unlocked the door and was instantly greeted by the worried faces of Hotch, Rossi and Morgan.

"Where did that come from?" Questioned Morgan. Confused by Reid's sudden run to the bathroom.

"Are you alright?" Asked Hotch.

"Just take your time." Reassured Rossi. Spencer felt overwhelmed and just nodded. He walked over to the sinks and washed his face, not bothering to look at his appearance; he didn't need reminding about how awful he felt and looked.

"I'm sorry it won't happen again." He croaked out.

"Reid there is nothing for you to be sorry for its fine, okay. We were just worried about you. Now your probably exhausted so one of us will take you back to the hotel whilst the rest of us need to sort a few things out." Hotch said gently.

"Thank you." Reid whispered.

"Right come on pretty boy, I've been nominated to drive you back. You ready?" Morgan asked lightly trying desperately to at least get a smile out of Reid.

Meanwhile Reid thought about Morgan's question. Was he ready. Was he ready to leave his mothers body behind and finally let her go. Was he ready to be on his own and face a retonight ignite sleep. Was he ready to face the pitying looks from his team when he let the bathroom. Was he ready to move on a bit.

"Yes." Reid replied. Even if he didn't want to let go of his mother he knew he had to and with that he followed Morgan out of the bathroom. Just as he had expected he was greeted by many pitying looks and many questions asking 'if he was alright', and 'how he was holding up' to which he just nodded. The drive to the hotel was silent. Reid didn't have the energy to talk with Morgan about his feelings so just sat there blankly only nodding when he had to. Morgan on the other hand was trying his hardest to get the young agent to open up a little. He knew first hand that if you kept your emotions bottled up they always found a way to get out and when that happened things got messy. When they finally pulled up to the hotel both agents were secretly relieved.

"You've got your own room you know pretty boy. You should consider yourself lucky I have to share with my baby girl and as much as I love her she is a little crazy." Morgan said forcing a chuckle and feeling slightly disheartened when he got no response from Reid.

"Well this is you." Morgan said opening the door to Reid's spacious hotel room. Garcia had already been in and sorted out his stuff for him which he was grateful for.

"I let you get some rest okay? If you need anything and I mean anything at all I'm just in the room next door." Morgan sad sincerely. Reid was grateful for this to and knew Morgan only had the best intentions.

"Thank you Morgan."Reid managed to get out.

"Anytime." Morgan said with a smile happy his genius was talking. Morgan left the room and left Reid to get some rest. After Reid heard the door click he jumped into his bed fully clothed amd welcomed the darkness which overcame him quickly.

Reid was walking down The corridor of his mothers sanitarium. It had been a hard day and he just wanted to see his mum. However when he got to her room he was welcomed by a strong ghastly smell.

"Mum." He called out wondering where see was. He walked into her room only to realize the smell was getting worse. He ended up holding his breath to prevent himself from throwing up. It was then he saw it. Lying in his mums bed was a rotting dead body. Not any old body but his mums. He instantly started crying trying to work out what had happend. When it came to life.

"This is all your fault spencer." Screamed the rotten corspe Diana.

"I'm so sorry mum." Said spencer who was violently sobbing and screaming.

"I've never been proud of you. I mean who could be. You are given a gift yet don't achieve anything with it. Your useless and I've never loved you." She screamed.

"I'm so sorry mum." Spencer said. Each word had stung him badly.

"Sorry won't make up for all the times you never visited because you we're ashamed. But that doesn't matter now because I'm dead and I'm never going to come back ever again." She spoke her voice full of venom. Just like that she disappeared. Spencer sat there screaming for her to come back.

Spencer awoke screaming with a mixture of tears and sweat rolling down his face. In front of him was Hotch who was holding him down, obviously restraining him and trying to wake him up. It was just a dream spencer thought over and over to himself. But if it was just a dream then why was he feeling so much pain, he thought again. Tears started streaming down his face and Hotch instantly hugged him fatherly.

"It was just a dream." Hotch said calmly. "Just a dream."