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Thought/Flashback/Dream

Chapter 11

Elmont raised his sword to support a blow. The young knights gathered around the captain and his first man as they fought. Many of the knights looked with great admiration and fascination to the movement and speed of the captain, his movements were graceful and fast due to the years he pledge to this art.

The two were unarmored, both had black trousers and simple shirts while Elmont wore a light shirt that was white, Crawe sported a dark red. Elmont ducked to avoid the blow and strike with the hilt of his sword against the chest of Crawe making him gasped for air. Both were panting because of the exercise they were having. Crawe always like to fight against Elmont, which meant that he could not contain himself. His heart was beating fast with the adrenaline of fighting someone who could match up to its strength.

Crawe folded with the force of impact and Elmont collide his elbow against the face of his friend. The strength made him stumble and eventually fall to the ground.

"Get up Crawe!" Elmont said harshly.

With the adrenaline still running through his veins Crawe started laughing, rising slowly as he run his hand through his lip feeling the hot liquid drain and saw blood and in that instant he knew that his lip had been opened.

"You truly trying to kill me?" he said in a playful voice and the face of Elmont softens realizing than he hurt his friend.

It was the second time that Crawe hugged the ground and by the look of Elmont if they continue to fight that wouldn't be the last. The stare of Elmont showed that his mind was darkened, something occupied his mind and Crawe could tell that his friend could not find rest on this subject because in days Crawe saw Elmont in that spirit and today was the worst, he seem that he wasn't there.

"Are you hurt?"

"Are you blind?" the knights around them start to laugh; Elmont passed the back of his hand across his forehead wiping drop of sweat and smiled slightly. Despite the turmoil of his thoughts it was hard not to smile but the smile didn't hide the guilt, confusion and tiredness which hovered in him.

"Willas if you are up to the challenge you may continue with..." Willas approach his captain with a smirk in his face. Elmont didn't like that smirk and overconfident that Willas always wear and that could be a problem. Maybe if choose... "Edwin..." Maybe he learns something. Edwin was one of the best Knights that Elmont likes to train. "Come forward, and the rest of you... start to train"

The knights began to disperse and Elmont approach Crawe with the intention of helping him but with a simple gesture he realized he didn't wish help. He raised the sword that was still in his hand and buried it in the scabbard that was around his waist.

"What is in your mind?"

If Elmont answers to the question he would say that was Elissa. The moment in the room left him confused. It was Elissa who approached him; she would have kissed him if Isabelle had not entered at that time. Perhaps he thought he see her face tilde, preparing to kiss him, he might have imagined the shining eyes and the blush in her face.

"I was just thinking..."

"Really? I did not notice" said sarcastically causing the Elmont look at him "By the way... you could be gentler."

"Sorry about that..."

"No, you don't have to apologize. We here training, there is always the possibility of hurting..." Crawe's body shuddered as he touched the lip "What was you're thinking anyway!" Elmont sighed.

"Something" Elmont wasn't trying to clearing the mind of Crawe about the subject that filled his mind "You will not tell? That hurts" said in an amused tone. Elmont ignored him and grabbed him by the arm "Say what you have in mind..."

"Come on, you need to clean and close that wound."

The captain of the guard approaches a handmaiden announcing and asking her to call someone to help Crawe. Elmont knew Crawe had to gain some points in that wound, it was certain that he did that wound and somehow wanted to relieve the pain that his friend should be feeling. Elmont looked behind him and saw the young knights fighting.

"Elmont, I cannot know what occupy your mind?" said in a more serious tone.

The captain laughed, it was difficult to talk about what was on his mind. Crawe almost guessed what should occupy the mind of his friend, saw him more immersed in his thoughts since Princess Elissa come back and say with great certainty that she was occupying his mind. What was the secret that Elmont kept so close to his chest?

It was true that she was occupying his thoughts but what Princess Isabelle had said to him also troubled him.

I understand that it is impossible for you to believe, but the time will show you that you're not the only one who shares these feelings. At heart, what both of you feel is not so different!

There would be the possibility, however small that Elissa share his feelings? Elmont felt that she would take some initiative, but the appearance of Isabelle... The thought seemed absurd even impossible but his mind betray him when he tried to push the thoughts that threatened him to go mad. Even if there were such a possibility and she felt something for him that would only lead to heartache... That would always intend, even before they start, to never be something real... They would create a relationship that never had a future.

He knew that he could not hide his feelings for her forever. He wants her! He desires her! He Love Her!

Elmont wished he could get rid of the weight that this secret had but how could he tell what he felt for Elissa? Elmont was afraid... Besides we could not do it for various reasons but the control that sustained him, the control that he was proud to have was increasingly difficult to achieve. Increasingly it was difficult to control his actions; it was increasingly difficult to try to deny the wishes of his heart and body...

"I need to think... Crawe take care of the train I will come back shortly" he began to move away from Crawe but heard him speak.

"Whatever is that is occupies your mind for a moment, do not think..."

The dream haunted her mind. Elissa wanted to know the meaning and significance of the past nightmares. It was interesting how the nightmares appeared at times when she was most vulnerable psychologically. She recalled that when her mother died, nightmares assault her mind during nights. The reason of nightmares irritated her. Nightmares showed her how much she was vulnerable, more vulnerable that she wanted to believe. Always tried to show she was strong but the emotions were something she had tried, without ever being able, to manipulate. Elissa always tried to take a meaning in every gesture; every word was always an intention behind... At the end she never ceased to have the courage to pursuit what she wanted.

But what now torment her and filled her mind were Roderick requirements. At the moment we entered the room and asked her a moment alone with her, Elissa knew that nothing good could come from the mouth of that man and she was afraid of what could she say.

Roderick demanded that she dismiss Elmont from her services and forbade her to leave the castle. Elissa was surprised and just looked at him, she knew how much he disliked when she leave or disappear from the castle she even suspected how much he disliked Elmont but never thought he demanded something of that genre.

"Why are you saying this?"

"Because I am your betrothed and..."

"But you are still not my husband"

"I do not like when you leave the castle as I don't like Elmont protecting you. He failed once..." something in the look of Roderick appeared but Elissa did not know what it was since disappeared as quickly.

"Elmont is the best; therefore he is the captain and did what he could do to protect me. It's not supposed of you to wish my protection?"

"What I am saying has nothing to do with protection"

"But interferes with my protection ..."

"I do not want ..."

"I don't care of what you want!" she shout "As I said before you are still not my husband and I will do anything for you not to be. Leaving the castle when I want its one of the things that makes me happy..." As Elmont "And I will not turn away that just because you want me to."

She saw anger flash in his eyes and for a moment she was afraid of what he could do.

"Do not challenge me ..." he muttered and she smile confident.

"I will do more than that."

With that she leaves her room hearing Roderick call for her. She didn't care what she wanted, she never cared but now she had say it to his face that she would do anything in her power for him not to be her husband, she had been foolish to say that but Elissa can't stand him much more and she still and to marry him. Elissa touch slightly in her necklace. She would fight for her happiness and freedom no matter what. When Elissa run she passes her sister, she wanted to be away from the world, looking for peace and knew she would find only in one place. Wished to seek discernment, longed to be alone and not have to talk to anyone.

The exaltation of Elissa increased at every step, and when she finally arrived she couldn't restrain an exclamation of delight before the beauty that breathed in every breath in that amazing place. For more years that passed she couldn't stop being enchanted by the beauty and peace that flowed from that place. A majestic stone stood at the center of the lake, the gaze of the Elissa traveled thought the place to contemplate it, the moment her gaze fell upon the fall of water she ran into someone else.

Elissa gasped lightly when looking at the man. His eyes were closed; preventing her to contemplate the brightness of his gaze, the water of the small fall of water reached his face that towered into the clear blue sky. The way the body was relaxed indicated he found the peace that he aimed at. The water in the lake hit just below his waist and Elissa could see he was wearing black trousers; his chest was not covered by any type of fabric giving a vision of his body to Elissa. The muscles showed he had been trained to acquire strength and speed. She felt her cheeks warm while looking down at his torso, her eyes met small scars but one stood out. It was in the belly, and white bow. Crossed the center and gave back side disappearing on his back. Elissa's mind formed a vivid imagination, showing the ferocity of a fight. He should have turned his body in an attempt to escape the blade that scratches his side and back.

I wonder if he knew this place for a long time.

She approached slowly.

Elmont looked to where he had heard the rustle and found Elissa. Searching a place to think, he thought that Elissa was busy with something and did not expect her showing up in this place.

The Princess smiled and walked to the edge of the lake where the sword and shirt of Elmont rested. The Look of Elissa was stuck in the ground in an attempt to not look at the body that demanded so much of her attention. He smiled slightly and plunged into the lake.

The lake was not very deep. The profundity was greater around the stone that was in the center of the lake. Elmont always liked the water somehow soothed and relaxed him.

The Princess sat gently, her fingers playing with the grass.

"Princess... I didn't expect to see you here..."

Elmont emerged from the lake and Elissa raised her eyes, she saw the water streaming down his body. She closed her eyes and imagined for a few moments her fingers do travel to the same places that the drops of water. She still remembered how near had to feel the soft lips. The desire was intense.

He saw the red face of Elissa.

"Is there something wrong Princess?" he said in a playful voice.

"You could... you know... Wear something because it's hard to concentrate..." He chuckled lightly.

"I'm Deeply sorry my lady" she could hear the smile in his voice, Elissa smiled, she could clearly see that since she had return this was the moment that she find Elmont more calm and relaxed. It seemed that the storm that had always seen to occur through the eyes was somehow calmer.

The captain knelt beside Elissa and grabbed his shirt. It was somehow fun and confusing to know that she had any reaction when looking to him. He dresses the shirt covering his torso but the cloth tissue sticks in his skin because his body was wet.

"I'm curious..." he looked at her and saw that she was smiling; her gaze wandered the place with great charm.

When their eyes met he felt his desire and need for her increase. Not only he wants to posses her but press her against his body, tenderly. He lifted his hand to touch her but stopped... for a moment he forgot that it she was his princess but remembered before could do something. Elissa could see the desire in the blue-green eyes of Elmont or was she seeing what she wanted to see? She knew that his eyes were hiding something but could not tell what it was.

"How do you know this place?"

"Since I was a little boy... I Remember When my father and I..." Elmont stopped talking noting the twinkle in the eyes of Elissa. She was curious...

"Tell" He sat beside the Princess.

"So... Princess Isabelle is not the only one to like stories..." he said amused.

"I think everyone like... Besides is one about you, you really never talk about you."

"And the Princess wants to know more about me?"

"I always want to know more about you ... And it's Elissa" he widely smiles.

"You mocking me, do not mock me."

"No, I'm not mocking you... Come on, tell..." she said eager

It was one of the memories that he kept fondly of his father. That day was fun although at various times he did not feel confident.

"We were hunting and then... I really do not know how but we get lost... My father never cared much about the situation" he chuckled "I was only 10, I was afraid..." Elissa chuckled and a smile appeared on his face. "What?"

"I'm picturing 10 years Elmont" she chuckled "but it's hard to picture you with fear..."

"How do I look, then?" it was good, to talk to her the way he was doing. The amused in her voice was different and strange as it feels comfortable at her side. It was like everything was normal. As they talked now, perhaps the essence of that place had something...

"The only thing that I would say is that in my head you really look cute."

"Now I'm curious..."

"You should be" she was playing with him. Elissa was happy... She felt so good close to him. The twinkle in the grey eyes told that and more. Elmont opened his mouth to say something but she interrupted him with an amused smile on the face "Continue, please..."

"Are you sure that you don't what to tell me?"

"I'm positive." he chuckled

"Very well then" he groan amused "I was afraid of not finding the way back home... For never again see those who I had learned to love." There was a brief silence before he continued, during this time she asked if he loved someone as a man loves a woman. And she came to the conclusion that yes, in the end he was handsome, charming and woman like those things, she like those things. But for her, he was more than that. Much more... "After hours we found this place. Speechless my father was and to tell the true so do I."

"You clearly like this place, how I never saw you in here?" Elmont smile sadly.

"I watch you countless times. I never wanted to break your peace. This was the only place where I saw you truly happy. You here far from the King, from Lord Roderick... Far from the people that treated you like a common tool to be used and set aside as necessary. The only happiness out from this place was Princess Isabelle... Was the adventures with your sister..."

"And you" she whispered. He looks at her with his eyes wide. For sure he did not listen what he thought she said...

"Princess..."

"Elissa... Please..."

A silence settled between them. They could sense the tension in the air. He made her happy? What she meant by those simple words?

Elissa hesitantly extended her arm and rested a hand on the shoulder of Elmont and she felt his body tense.

What she wants from me?

It was hard to fight against what he felt; he was feeling something so hard to fight. Now he wanted to touch her, kiss her, feel her heart just once against his... He wanted nothing more than to make love to her until neither one of them had any strength left in there body's. He wanted to make her his... And she wanted to feel him, to feel his body. It was overwhelm the need that Elissa was feeling to kiss him.

When he looks at her, she slowly swayed forwards to touch him, to feel... She did not know what power dominated her body but she rests her cheek against his and closes her eyes. It feels good to be so close to him. She could feel his goatee that tickles her skin and send shiver to her body. She felt his skin, his body, his heat, so close, so real...

Elmont hesitated but only for a moment. Every little thing liger his mind, one of them was she is the Princess but he Knew it was now or never...

Whatever is that is occupies your mind for a moment, do not think…

The voice of Crawe invaded his mind. Could he do it? Could he act upon his feelings? While his mind struggled his body approached increasingly hers.

Elissa became aware of the Elmont's goatee brushing against the side of her neck and could not stop shivering. Elmont caught her hand when she tries to wrap their fingers. And before she knew it he was kissing her, softly and gently. Slowly, she kisses him back and he slid his hand into her hair pulling her closer. It was amazing the feel of his lips against her, his taste... An overwhelming feeling of joy filled his entire being when he realized that she was kissing him back! He had thought about kissing her from the first moment they met. His imagination never came close to the feeling.

Elissa could not stop thinking about how much; his lips were soft and warm. It was true that they both wanted that kiss but now it was hard to believe that was more then only a dream. The kiss turn to be urgent, trying to express all that both of them felt.

The time passed as their lips moved and eventually, breathlessly, they parted. His hand was still tangled in her hair.

"Elissa..."

Elissa learn to kiss him again, she did not want to hear is apologize. Did not want to know if he regrets it, she just wanted to feel his lips again as they moved against her. Elissa could she feel her body heating, she felt right in her arms. Elmont was now fighting his feelings, hesitating while his mind struggle, his body surrender to pure feeling, he want to feel her trembling beneath his fingers. The kiss almost makes him forget what he and she were. When he broke the kiss and pinned her arms that Elissa were trying to wrap around his neck, he saw pain briefly in her grey eyes.

"Elissa... We... I can't..." was all he said before departing with a sudden movement. His teeth clenched as he felt angry at the world. "It is not possible, this is wrong!" He ran a hand through his hair furiously that was still damp.

Elissa's heart broke when she heard the words that came out of the mouth of Elmont.

"Elmont..." Her breath was ragged.

"I should not have kissed you" he rose, turning his back to her. Elmont was trying to take control over his mind and body that ordered him to return to her soft lips and feel more, much more...

"Please... Let me..."

"I have to go ..." Elmont's fists were clenched as he walked away with breathing erratic.

What did he do? What just happen?

He kiss her and then he felt her kiss him... But it was good, more that he thought it will be. The feel of her, her taste and her scent around him was almost too much for Elmont to fight against. When he kiss her, it felt right, the feeling was incredible but it was not possible, it just was not possible. He wanted her and Elmont thought he had left it transpire, however what occur should not have happened and the fault was all is entire. He lost his reason and left himself take by the eagerness and desire he felt. He was older, much more experienced; he should have guessed that he would lose the reason... He should have been away from her. Elmont could not stay there, so close to her, he eventually would lose his mind and knew she would eventually lose the respect that she had for him and Elmont didn't want that. He was her guardian and it was there that he should remain even if his whole body and heart wish, plead for more. And she was engaged...

He wasn't supposed to love her. Elmont still remembered... Never low your guard, never fall in love. And he did something that he could never have let happen but we do not get to choose how we love. Elissa is the princess and he knew that nothing could happen, he was her guardian and beyond that she will be force into a convenient marriage with Roderick. He saw her fight, hoping that the King changed his mind but he never did... He saw the hope die slowly in her grey eyes; Elmont only wanted her to be happy with the twinkle in her eyes that only a few moments ago he saw... But didn't want to do anything wrong, didn't want to dishonor her...

But he hurt her; he knew it because he had seen in her eyes. Elmont hurt her when he promised that he would never do that. What he didn't know was that the pain he felt now was equal as the pain she felt.

He left her...

After they kiss, he just left her. Elissa wondered if it would be her fault. When she looked in the eyes of Elmont, Elissa had been sure that, like her, he wanted that kiss. She touched lightly on her lips, the kiss made her eager for more... Over the years she had felt on her skin how much it was difficult being away from Elmont, over the years she felt a tension around them grow, beginning only by a desire to be near him and becoming something more... Becoming an almost uncontrollable desire to want to touch him and feel his touch, to kiss him... Beside Elmont, she felt good, she felt valued...

But see him leave provoked to her a pain in the chest she never felt so strong, to hear him say that it was not possible left her devastated... Perhaps, Elmont had someone important to him, someone he loved and for that reason he left her, regret to have kiss her. Just thinking on that possibly situation hurt her.

How should I know?

He never said anything of his private life... But she knew him well enough to know how it has always been important to him to do the right thing, to do the honorable thing but if she could find a way to make him talk then maybe she could know what he was feeling, just maybe she could know what he was thinking and why he did that, Elissa wanted to hear from him the true reasons.

To give up on what she wanted as never an option for Elissa and now more than ever she wanted to know what was going on in the head of Elmont, even if it is something that would hurt her she wanted to know. She needed to know if the feelings she had for him were also shared by him or if it was a fantasy created by her head. The bright blue-green eyes stood in her head. Elissa would swear that she saw something hidden in his eyes but now she didn't know... She didn't know...

The energy returned to her body and in an instant she was lying on the soft grass, the next instant Elissa was crossing the garden. Honestly she didn't know where she was going, but the only certainty was that her legs showed to her the right way. In her angle of vision, in the distance Elissa saw Elmont and at the time she was preparing to follow him, she was stopped by a hand wrapped around her arm.

"Elissa, I was looking for you. Where have you been?" Elissa looked at Isabelle and sighed deeply.

"I needed air..." muttered, Isabelle smiled at her sister and realized that something occupied her mind.

"What happen, how was the talk with Roderick?" the soft voice of Isabelle calmed Elissa and she sighed again.

"He kiss me... Isabelle, he kiss me..." Elissa didn't heard what her sister said, she murmured so low that hardly her sister noticed what she said, Isabelle drove her sister to a bank that was close to both and forced her to sit.

"What are you saying?" Elissa looked deeply into the eyes of Isabelle. She loved Elmont, she was sure of it but now she was suffering for something that she was afraid of never being able to feel that she could never enjoy. Never she had so much fear of marrying as now had, never she had much fear of not being loved as she now felt.

What can I do?

"I Love him..."

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