AUTHORS NOTE:
Okay so it's a short chapter but I think I've made you all wait long enough to know whether or not Queen Clarion slaps Vixen or not. Also, please bare with me, updates may take a while longer simply because my school have decided 'hey! lets give them so much homework that they loose their minds and end up in mental institutions!' ... joy ... anyway... Enjoy!
I braced myself for the impact, closing my eyes, and turning my head slightly to the right. I waited for the blow which would sting my heart as well as my face, leaving a red mark on both. I waited for harsh tongue Queen Clarion, waited for her to shout at me, 'disown' me, if you like. I waited for my heart to shatter from the impact, breaking completely as the one fairy who trusted me, who believed in me, who comforted me and who I loved and thought of as a mother was about to strike me. I was tempted to disappear, but what good would that do? It would only make her angrier with me and I did not want that to happen. I waited, but nothing happened. I felt a touch on my cheek and I instinctively flinched away. "Look at me," her voice was softer, gentler. I opened my eyes, uncertain of what I was going to see. What I saw was a tall, elegant fairy, blue eyes showing comfort and love and a soft reassuring smile. I shifted my gaze to her hand which she had held in the air where my head had been before I flinched. I moved back into her hand, nuzzling into her. I needed her. I thrived around her. Her hand stroked my cheek, before moving to the back of my head, pulling me into her. Her other arm wrapped around my back. I clutched her, sobbing into her.
I don't know how long we were standing there for, but I didn't want it to end. She wrapped me in security, warmth, love and protection. She protected me from myself, numbing my senses with her smell, her soft and warm body beneath me as I would snuggle closer to her at night. I adored her, doted upon her, idolized her, treasured her. I lavished in every touch she gave me, every look, every smile. I adored her presence, craved it even. I needed her. I needed her as my queen, needing her as much as every other fairy in Pixie Hollow, if not more. I needed her as my mother, needing her more than every single fairy and sparrowman put together and timesed by the largest number in existence and I loved her just as much, if not more. Always she had been there for me, even when my parents were alive. There were times when we would go and see her, my mother being a very close friend of hers. I would look at the beautiful fairy queen from afar, until one day when my mother had to leave me at the Pixie Dust Tree whilst she went to deal with something. I remember that I had been watching Queen Clarion whilst she sat on a chair in her library, reading. Her eyes would glance up to me every now and then and I would look away. Then she caught me staring at her. She put the book down and beckoned me towards her with her hand. I flew slowly to her, thinking I was in trouble. She had lifted me up into her lap, wrapped her arms around me and cradled me into her. Instinctively, I had turned my face into her chest, nuzzling her. That was the first time I had ever fallen asleep in her arms. That wasn't the best memory I had. The most powerful one was when my parents had had to go to the mainland, leaving me behind. I had no one, the fairy who was supposed to be watching me wasn't actually watching me at all. In fact, she wasn't even at the house. I was exhausted from all the running and flying I had done during the day and had no energy to haul myself up the stairs into my bed. Due to that I had collapsed on the living room floor. All I remember was the pain of being on my own and then two hands in my shoulders, lifting me up and carrying me upstairs. I remember clearly the smell I had grown attached to, of flowers and honey. Then I opened my eyes to find Queen Clarion tucking me into my bed, before surprisingly laying down beside me and holding me in her arms for the entire night.
I was suddenly confused. I shot dust at her. Why isn't she shouting at me? Why isn't she pushing me away? I could've hurt her! I loosened my grip on her before pulling back and looking up at her. She smiled softly before nuzzling my nose with her own. "It's alright," she whispered soothingly. "I understand your fear, believe me I do. I also trust you completely, I would put my life in your hands. Yes you are just finding your talent, but darling you're extremely young and you're experiencing far more than any of us could ever imagine," cupping my face in her hands she stared into my eyes with such softness I was almost certain her eyes had turned into liquid. I became aware that the others had flown down.
"We want to help you, Vixen," Tinkerbell called softly. I turned to look at her.
"We don't want to see you get hurt," Fawn added.
"You see," Queen Clarion began, "every single one of us believe that you would never hurt us. Not intentionally and we can accept that if you do it would be by a complete accident." I was gobsmacked. I had nothing to say. I opened and shut my mouth uselessly. Then my eyes met Christians. All of a sudden something clicked in the back of my head, but I couldn't figure out what it was. He seemed to be fighting to do something, or say something. What? I don't know, but it had distracted me long enough to forget that everyone was there for a while. I looked away from him and a sudden yawn escaped my lips. I tried to stifle it but couldn't. I heard a gentle chuckle. "I think, you've been through too much today and deserve a nice long sleep, don't you?" Queen Clarion asked, wrapping her arms around my waist and pulling me back into her. I rested my head against her and nodded. Once again I was wrapped in warmth and love and security, never to be let go.
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