PART TWO ; doubts
Beca had yet graced her philosophy teacher of her presence, and the middle of the semester was approaching and she still had no intention of showing up. She had always found something way more interesting to do instead of going to that class. Today was no exception, apart from the fact that she was supposed to meet up Chloe in the quad before they went to grab lunch. Beca had asked the other Bella if she was free and she had found it a bit weird of her to hesitate, but she didn't comment on it.
"Hey!" she called out from a few feet, waving at Chloe walking towards her.
"How're you?" the redhead asked once she met up with her friend.
"I'm good, thanks. You?" it was an innocent question, but after the conversation she had with Cynthia Rose the day before, being with the very person the ginger was crushing on made her feel quite awkward.
"I'm okay, yeah." She replied simply, nodding her head.
They walked to a diner just outside of campus, and Beca felt like her friend wasn't herself, like something was up. Chloe was unusually quiet and as soon as they sat down, she didn't rush to be close to Beca like she did whenever they were sitting side by side, instead she sat in front of her. She started playing absent-mindedly with the corner of her paper doily.
"Hey, do you… do you mind if I ask you something?" she started, earning herself an alarmed look from Chloe, who quickly regained herself and smiled gently, nodding. "Did I.. uh, do something wrong?" she asked awkwardly.
"What?" Chloe's eyes jolted on Beca's face, trying to see if the brunette was kidding but she was deadly serious.
The older woman felt her throat knot and she swallowed hard, her gaze shifting. She fidgeted with her hands, pulling invisible threads from her jeans, taking one too many seconds to answer for it to be natural coming from Chloe.
"No, no, of course not. Why would you think that?" she tried to hide her anxiousness with a chuckle, but she didn't fool Beca, who frowned but decided to let it go.
"Nothing, I don't know… I just.. You seem… different." She said with a shrug.
Chloe tried to push aside the little voice telling her Beca knew, and was going to run away as soon as lunch was over, but even as she kept looking out for signs, the brunette remained her snarky and sweet self. They were midway through their meal when Chloe finally started to relax, and Beca noticed her sigh in relief, which intrigued her, but she didn't say a word. She felt good with Chloe, but it was different than the good she felt when she was with any other Bella. She was getting more and more attached to the ginger, and she was really starting to be afraid.
Beca had never bothered with love, always going for somebody with whom it was easy. Girls, boys, she didn't really care as long as they were available and didn't lingered in her life too much, she was satisfied. She had been with one or two girls before, but it had never felt like being with Chloe, even if they had never even kissed. Beca knew what that meant, but since their first encounter, she had known the ginger was as straight as could be. You can't be serious, Mitchell! Beca scolded at herself when the revelation of what she had just thought about sank in. You do not fall for a straight girl: that was clear, damn it, Beca! Her subconscious kicked her in her imaginary balls and she winced at the thought of it.
"What's wrong?" Chloe asked, frowning when she did so.
"Uh? Oh, nothing." She eluded with a shy smile, not wanting to spark a hint in Chloe's mind.
She knows, oh my God, she knows! Chloe's mind went into full panic mode as her features remained smiling and nodding. She is going to tell me nothing can happen and this friendship will be over. Chloe's mind was racing, trying to find an excuse for her blatantly unusual behavior, but nothing came to her mind. It was Beca who spoke up first, and Chloe was about to blurt out an apology for her feelings when she realized she had asked if she was ready to go.
"Yeah. Do you, uh, want to hang out?" she asked after they paid and were outside.
"I would love to, but I've got some mixes I'd like to work on before today's rehearsal. I'll see you then, though?" she said with a sorry smile, which left Chloe feeling like a total wreck.
"Yeah, sure. See you later, Beca!" she tried to look completely normal, but her insides were burning and as soon as the brunette was out of sight, she dialed Cynthia Rose's number.
They met up ten minutes later at Chloe's dorm. Cynthia Rose found the redhead lying on the couch, staring at the pale ceiling with a concerned frown. She pinched Chloe's wrinkled forehead, smiling softly at the older woman.
"Stop worrying so much. Do you want me to talk to her? Try and see if she's feeling the same way towards you?" the other woman asked kindly.
"No!" Chloe shot with a scared look. "That would be so obvious! And that's like…high school-ish." She whimpered, darting her blue eyes away.
"Come on, Chloe, it's not that hard. Just walk up to her and tell her 'Hey Beca, I think I have a crush on you, want to go out on a date with me sometimes?' and she'll either say yes or no, and that's it. You're overthinking it, Chloe."
"She already knows and she's not taking it well, Cy', I don't know what to do!" Chloe cried, tears stinging at the corners of her eyes.
"You already told her?" she said, looking quite surprised.
"No, I didn't need to, she figured it out." She whined, rolling on her belly to hide her face in the couch's cushion.
"Did she talk to you about it?"
"No, but it was obvious that something wasn't normal, and it can only be because she's guessed that I have feelings for her." Chloe seemed so convinced of that it actually made Cynthia Rose chuckle lightly.
"Baby girl, I don't think Beca is that good at reading people. That's your thing." She reassured the older Bella.
"You think?" she asked, her words muffled by the fabric covering her mouth.
"Yeah, I'm pretty sure she thinks she did something wrong if you're being with her as you were when you told me." She pointed out with a smirk.
"Well, she did ask that." Chloe stated, rolling once again on her back. "Do you really think I should tell her?"
"Yeah, I really think you should." She said, thinking about the text she had received just seconds before Chloe's call from Beca.
'Help, I think I'm crushing on a straight girl!' it read and there was no doubt who she was talking about. Cynthia Rose hadn't had time to reply to it and she fidgeted with the idea of showing the text to Chloe for long seconds before deciding.
"But what if she says no and she doesn't want to talk to me anymore because she's disgusted?" Chloe pleaded, already imagining scenarios that were going worse and worse.
"Chloe, I don't think she'll stop talking to you." She said with a chuckle, already swiping her finger on her screen before putting her phone right in Chloe's face, who read the text.
"You think the 'straight girl' is me?" she asked, her eyes lighting up instantly.
"Well, she did text me that seconds before you called me, so, yeah, I'm pretty positive she's talking about you." She barely had time to finish her sentence that Chloe was on her feet, ready to leave.
She quickly turned on the ball of her feet though, looking at Cynthia Rose with a frightened look on her face.
"What if this is just a fling and I end up hurting her because I can't really be with a girl?" she asked, her voice shaking.
"Chloe, take things one at a time. If you end up going on one date and kissing the girl to realize it's not what you really wanted, then that's okay too, baby girl. Don't stress yourself over this." She replied with a reassuring wink and Chloe nodded before storming out.
A/N ; I forgot to mention it in the first part, but yeah, this is a multiple one-shot series :) there's still one part coming, I'll update probably by Sunday, maybe before that but I doubt it! Thanks for all the reviews, this idea came from my friend, her tumblr is aca-rewind, you should go and follow her for this awesome fic prompt! and most definitely keep and eye out because she had another version for this story that she's working on and it's going to rock! :D keep the reviews coming, I like to read your thoughts on my work! :)