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I knock on the door and Sian opens it immediately. I think she was eager if I really come or not. Maybe she was at the door just for waiting for me. That's why I fell in love with her at the first place. Her caring and loving is incomparable. All of the years we spent together was a miracle but I realized her first goal in life is to be perfect. It's not a problem but she always wants to reach the top of perfectionism which is impossible. Before the miscarriage our life was perfect. But Sian broke when this happened. I think she felt that she is imperfect because we lost our baby. And she thinks it is a fail in her perfectness. That's why she was blaming herself. But I never asked her to be perfect. The only thing I wanted is to be happy with her. But when Maddie came in the picture everything changed. She is a girl who don't care about her imperfections. She was a prostitute but still she could move on from this. And that's why I'm in love with her now.
Sian: Come in!
She said it with a big smile on her face. She is glad to see but I can see her eyes. Her eyes are bloodshot from the crying. I'm very sorry for her. I'm really thinking about telling her the truth about Maddie but I'm afraid because it would break her even more.
Sophie: Hi!
I went in the house and made an unemotional face.
Sian: Let's sit on the couch and talk.
So we sat down. We stayed in silence for a couples of minutes. But it was Sian who broke the silence.
Sian: I want you to know that I love you and most happiest times in my life were that when you were with me. All those…years.
I can hear on her voice that she is on the edge on crying. Poor Sian. I never meant to hurt her like that.
Sian: And now that we're going to have a baby I love you even more. There's no other person in my life who can make as happy as you. But if you want to divorce that's okay. I have to accept it but that doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt like hell. There's only one thing I want to know. What's the real reason you want to divorce? And don't say that because you don't love my anymore. I don't believe it, there's something more.
It's the time to tell her truth. I just don't know if I am strong enough to do that but I try.
Sophie: You're right. There's something more. I cheated on you.
I said it out and could not continue. I just looked at Sian's face and waited for a reaction.
Sian: You…cheated on me?
She asked in a low voice but I know deep down she is burning with anger towards me.
I attempted to continue.
Sophie: With a prostitute but she's not anymore a prostitute. I helped her quit.
I clearly saw surprise on Sian's face.
Sian: You helped her? Wow…do you want me to congratulate you about this? or continue?
She said it with anger in her voice.
Sophie: I started an affair with her but she ended the things with me because of you, when she learned that I'm married.
Sian: And now you want to divorce from me so you could win her back. Is that right?
I didn't answer.
Sian: Is that right?
She screamed it to me angrily.
I couldn't look at her eyes anymore.
Sophie: Right.
Sian: Do you want to leave us, me and the baby for a bottom bitch?
She tried to calm down but her voice was still very angry.
Sophie: I…I…just…
Sian: You just what?!
Sophie: I never going to leave my baby.
Sian: Well, you should because there's no way I would let you to see my child.
Sophie: You can't do that.
Sian: I do what I want. I don't want a lying, cheating bastard around my child.
Sophie: Please Sian! Don't!
Sian: You should have thinking about the consequences of you actions when you were fucking that whore! Now leave! I don't even now anymore how could I love! But I know I hate you now!
Sophie: Sian…
Sian and I stand up.
Sophie: I won't let you take away my baby from me. It's not my fault that I have fallen in love with Maddie.
Sian: Maddie? Is she your bitch?!
I feel so bad about this situation.
Sian: You get what you want. It's hundred percent that I'm going to divorce from you. Now get lost!
In this situation I only could make the situation worse so I go. I leave crying. I walk a few meters when I collapse on the floor. There's so much emotion in me. Fear, anger, suspense, love. And these feelings are painful. They are breaking my chest. I try to collect myself from the street and lean-to a tree and when the anger takes over me I put my hand in fist and I punch the tree until I feel physical pain. Then I go back to Steve. I cry in his arms feeling blood flow out of my hand.
Darlene: They didn't make up but never lose hope. It's not the end of the story just part of it. :)