A/N: Miss me? I have a feeling that will go away once I'm done with you chicas, today!
That may or may not be a good thing...we shall see.
-A
Bullets (Augustana)
Talk about cutting our time short!
All of Quinn's talk of me not coming home and then just two days after we sat on that beach, she got a call from one of her professors and had to go back home.
I mean, being a lawyer was her dream and so I fully supported it.
Maybe it was just that I had gotten really happy that she was with me for a full two weeks and then it ended up just being five days.
Quinn was happy though and so I had to be happy too.
Well at least I tried to be happy for her.
She was actually going to be sitting in on a trial that would begin on the next Monday and there was no way that she was going to turn that down.
And even if I was a bit bitter, I wouldn't have let her.
I tried not to be hurt by Q leaving me before I had the chance to really talk to her.
But she had other ideas.
Even as Q was standing in the bedroom packing her things, I knew that by the end of the day the darkness would return.
It was just under the surface.
Maybe I should have called out to my wife.
Told her that I was going to go with her or anything that could have helped to save me.
But I had already broken my promise.
It was like the moment that Quinn got that phone call from her professor, things started to go to shit.
But I'm getting ahead of myself...
Again.
We laid in bed together that morning, naked and sweaty.
Q's face was glowing as she held me close to her.
The last few days had been bliss.
And I was really starting to be happy again.
"I love you, San."
"I love you too, baby love."
"Mmmmhmm."
"What's on your mind, Q?"
She smiled and blushed at bit before licking her lips.
I kissed her just as she was about to speak and then pulled away and looked into her eyes.
All the passion there made me tingle.
There was no better place for me than in her arms.
"I think that after I'm done school...maybe we could buy a place."
"Maybe." I whispered, still not sure if that would be possible.
I thought for sure that I would have a record deal by now and even though I had a seat at the table it was still far from the best seat.
My life wasn't working out the way that I had planned...
But I knew that I needed to be patient...I needed to pay my dues.
I was deep in my head...alone...seeking out the darkness looking for her...
Every time that I got down on myself it was her that pulled me together.
This was the first time that I was seeking her out with my wife right in front of me.
But she was still gone.
"San?"
I looked up and could see the worry on Q's face and was about to speak when her phone rang.
She was intending to ignore it but I was insistent that she answer it...all because I didn't want to talk about my own shit.
I shouldn't have been upset.
She could have missed that call and her professor would have called someone else...but it was my own fucking fault that she answered.
When she sat there biting on her lip as she wrote down something, that's when I knew that I wasn't going to like it.
This was her serious face...the one that made me feel really cold inside.
Her eyes were sparkling but there was still worry etched on her face, especially when she glanced at me.
I felt the darkness that I had been seeking out finally pass over me.
Be careful what you wish for.
"San, oh baby...shit...fuck, San, please...uh...uh...I have to go." She groaned as I pressed her against the front door.
"Not yet." I growled as I buried my fingers inside her sweet wetness and thrusted.
She had been all wet and ready for me and it made me crazy.
How could she be taking this away from me?
Now that I needed it...needed her more than life.
"Oh fuck!" She shivered as she grasped at the door frame that was holding her up.
"Don't leave." I selfishly pleaded.
I could see the contention on her face as I hovered centimeters from her lips.
Her eyes kept rolling back...
She was so close to coming...
"San baby...this is a big...oh God!"
I ripped away from her just as her orgasm was about to peak.
"You should go then." I stormed towards the kitchen.
This moment was reminiscent of that night in New York.
Leaving her pressed against a wall by the front door after fucking her senseless.
Running off to lick my wounds.
She tried to come after me...
Tried to convince me to come up for a few days...
But I had come to hate San Francisco.
Being there reminded me of the time in my life when I didn't need the darker part of me.
It was when I was truly happy and I would never have that again.
My stipend was almost up.
My degree was almost complete.
I would have to find a job to support her in her final two years of law school.
My dreams would be on hold and I was going to be just another wannabe.
I watched with tears in my eyes as she pulled down the driveway.
"Stop crying."
"I just want her to stay here with me." I whimpered.
"Don't be a wimp."
"I'm not...I just...there's so much to deal with all alone."
"You're not alone...ever."
"I know but I'm just worr-" I got cut off.
"Don't worry, Ana...Auntie Snix is going to make it all better."
And just like that she came back.
She took over and I submitted to her.
From then on...she was in control.
And I just watched...as she screwed it all up.
We were flying down the freeway as the sirens flashed behind us.
I wanted to stop but I couldn't.
She was leading me.
Driving me.
And so when we lost them.
She got rid of the car that she stole and wiped our fingerprints before we ended up stumbling through the gate.
"Santana?"
My head snapped to the side and there sat Cesar looking at me.
Worried.
But what for.
He didn't know about my condition.
Unless Quinn told him.
Had she?
"Hey." I muttered.
"Are you okay? Do you need a hospital or something?"
He looked at me horrified and so I looked down at myself.
I was covered in blood.
But it wasn't my own.
Which was part of the problem.
I couldn't be just standing here...
People were looking for me...us.
He didn't know that though.
"How about you just forget that you saw me and let me be."
"I can't let you walk to your house like this...I may forget seeing you like this but you are guaranteed to be seen by someone with much more power than me."
I could feel her getting pissed off even though I saw that Cesar was just trying to help.
"You got a better idea?" She snapped at him.
And then suddenly...
I was really scared.
She had finally been nice to Cesar though and let him drive us back to our gate.
I had hoped that she would let him go after that but of course she had stopped listening to me.
Even if I pleaded with her to stop this madness.
It was like she just didn't give a fuck anymore.
Maybe she had given up on my dreams too.
And she had become unhinged.
Or maybe...
Nah...that's not possible.
Could it not be her?
Could it be another?
I wasn't sure.
All that I knew was that she was feeling reckless tonight.
And unfortunately that meant casualties.
We had been seen.
But I was stuck.
I wanted out.
The stereo was blasting as I climbed from the shower.
I had lost time but I was finally back.
There was a trail of blood leading across the white carpet.
Trey was going to be so pissed.
She was sleeping and so I was awake.
I needed to see how bad things were.
My phone sat untouched where Quinn had put it on the dresser earlier.
I picked it up and saw seventeen messages from her.
She was worried.
Halfway to Fresno and was turning around.
Who knew how long ago that was?
But that didn't matter anymore.
Because as I opened the bedroom door to survey the rest of the house...I was greeted by a gun to my head.
And then cool metal on my wrists.
And just beyond that...
Darkness.
A/N: More to come in the next few hours. I hope that you all had a great time while I was gone! I'm finishing this up...gearing up to write a short sequel for this and for Fall...
Aren't you just a lucky bunch?! ;)