Tears fall down Riley's cheeks and she shakes her head; guilt starts to settle in the pit of her stomach and a shock of pain electrocutes her head. Everything feels raw and incredibly unfair. Now she finally gets why Lily didn't come by, she probably blames her for what happened.
Brooke gently caresses Riley's cheek. "Sweetie, you need to take a deep breath; in and out" she persuaded maternally.
"No, they're okay. I was just with them and they were okay. I just saw them and they were alright" Riley shakes her head; this can't be fair, Andy and Karen were good people.
"Sweetheart, you were with them four days ago. Karen and Andy…the other car hit you guys so fast and they were thrown…they passed away a few days ago" Brooke doesn't want to get to descriptive about what happened with her fourth grader.
"No, this isn't fair. No…no" the child complained guiltily.
Brooke attempts to hug her, but Riley pushes her away. Being the kind of person she is, Brooke pulls her daughter into a tight hug. She can hear Riley's breathes become uncontrollable. "Shh, baby, it's okay. You're okay, just breathe" she advised rubbing her back.
After a few minutes, Brooke let's go and Riley starts to cough and can't seem to stop. "Rye, you'll get sick if you keep coughing. Do as your Momma said and breathe in and out" Julian said running his hand through her hair.
Riley does as she's told, but tears continue to trickle down her puffy cheeks. If she hadn't come to Tree Hill, none of this would've happened. Andy and Karen would still be alive and everyone would be just fine. Julian and Brooke should send her back.
Julian studies his sullen daughter looking concerned. "What are you thinking about, Rye?" he asked tucking a dark curl behind her ear.
"When can I go home? I miss Jude and Davis" Riley asked, wanting to dodge her father's question. Julian resists the urge to call his daughter out on avoiding the subject.
Brooke checks her watch; Ted and Victoria are probably going insane with the twins. When they aren't home for long periods of time, Jude misbehaves and Dave hides in the washing machine.
The mother answered warmly, "We just need to sign you out and then you're free to go."
Riley watches her foster parents leave wishing things had turned out differently. Lily must hate her guts. Hell, everyone must really hate her for what happened.
Austin sits down on the porch beside Lily. Over the past few days, she hasn't talked much. In fact, Austin doesn't remember her uttering a word since Karen and Andy were pronounced dead.
"Riley's awake" Austin breaks the uncomfortable silence; Lily's green eyes brighten slightly at that.
Lily smiles weakly, after hearing about Riley's condition; she didn't know if she could take it if Riley had died. Her first Dad, Andy, and Momma are all gone and now she's alone.
Austin said softly, "She wanted to know where you were."
"What'd you tell her?" Lily honestly doesn't know how to feel about all this, her parents are dead and now Rye's awake.
"I didn't" Austin answered quietly. "Haley told her some crap about you being busy. You should see her, she wants to see you."
The little girl plays with her hands. "Does she know about my parents?" she asked curiously.
"Yeah" the boy answered somewhat uncomfortably. Riley and Lily are a lot alike; they prefer keeping everything bottled up and hidden.
Lily nods and looks out the window. Austin follows her gaze wondering what she's thinking about. "Austin, Lily, Sawyer, dinner" both children jump at Peyton's voice.
Austin starts out the door, he looks over his shoulder for Lily and when he doesn't see her following; his brow furrows. "I'm not hungry" Lily stated adamantly.
Peyton looks at her little sister; it really isn't her place to tell Lily what to do and yet she has to. "Austin, would you excuse us? Lily and I need to talk" the mother ordered remembering how it feels to lose a mother, actually two mothers.
"Umm" Austin isn't sure he wants to, Lily needs him and Peyton telling her to eat, won't do a thing.
Lucas appears at the door with Sawyer in his arms. "Hey, A-man, come on. You need to eat" the father encouraged winking at his wife.
"Okay" the boy sounds a bit reluctant to do as he's told.
Sawyer grins at her big brother; this has been a lot of fun. Sort of like a sleepover, only Lily isn't happy like usual. The little girl can tell something is most defidently off. Austin offers his sister a gentle smile, he has to act tough for Soy, but he can't handle this. He's never had to lose someone this close to him, before. Course, Pops ditched him, but that isn't the same thing. Pops is alive; Andy and Karen are gone.
Peyton sits down beside her sister. "Lily, you know my Momma died when I was your age. She was in a car crash too and it hurt. It hurt so much I felt like my insides were raw and numb to the world" she said rubbing Lily's back, soothingly.
Lily leans into her sister. "Does it still hurt?" the fourth grader asked feeling her breathes sharpen.
"Sometimes, but you learn to let yourself live again. You learn that it's okay to laugh, smile, and enjoy life."
"Why'd they hafta die, Peyton?" Lily wondered her broken tone just about breaking Peyton's heart.
Peyton answered comfortingly, "Oh sweetie, I don't know…sometimes bad things happen and there's no answer as to why."
"I want them back. I want my Momma. I want Andy" Lily sobbed finally letting the tears drip down her cheeks.
"Come here, Lily-pad" Peyton holds out her hands and holds Lily close, like she had when the girl was an infant. "Shh, you're okay, its okay to cry, Lily. We all need to get our sadness out somehow"
Lily looks up at Peyton with tears shining in her bright eyes. "Will I be sad forever?" she asked her lower lip wobbling.
"No, baby girl" the young woman replied wanting to take away her baby sister's pain.
Lily blinks feeling her body ache in agony. "I-I…I-it feels like I can't breathe" she explained sadly; Peyton gets it, when her Mom died, it felt like she couldn't breathe without it burning.
"Eventually, sweetheart the pain will go away and you'll be able to breathe again" Peyton combs her fingers through Lily's light brown hair.
Lily hugs her sister; sobbing all the while Peyton strokes her back, whispering words of comfort.
Jamie sits down in front of his parents. He's had a lot of time to think about his actions today. He still can't believe he acted like that to his Momma and Aunt Brooke.
"Mom, I'm sorry for talking back today. I was just mad" Jamie explained; knowing anger doesn't justify his actions.
Haley smiles patiently at her son. "Jimmy-Jam, we're all mad" Jamie wonders if his Mom feels the way he does. "Mad at the world for taking Karen and Andy and a little in ourselves" she murmured feeling hot tears push against the walls of her eyes.
Jamie nods finally feeling understood, his Momma feels the exact way he does. His Dad probably does too. "I should've stopped them" the blonde boy murmured quietly.
"Who?" Haley asked with alarm in her eyes.
"Austin and Riley, I should've stopped them sooner" Jamie shakes his head in dismay. "If I had just told you and Dad sooner…" he trailed off.
"James Lucas Scott, don't you dare blame yourself, Austin, or Riley for what happened" Haley said softly. "This whole thing sucks, I know, but we have to be strong for Lily."
"I will" Jamie said with determination in his tone, once he sets his mind to something, he can accomplish anything.
"That's my boy, I love you Jimmy-Jam. Goodnight" Haley kisses the top of his head and leaves feeling tears rush to her eyes. Growing up, Karen was like a second mother to her.
Nathan sits down beside his son. "Jamie, what happened wasn't anyone's fault, but the driver who hit Karen, Andy, Lily and Riley. You know that right?" the father asked, concerned.
"I just wish they didn't hafta die. Why do good people die?" Jamie wondered as Nathan shakes his head.
"I don't know, son" Jamie looks down, sadly. "But, I do know, I love you and you're a good kid" Nathan ruffles his son's hair, before exiting the living room in search of his sobbing wife.
Victoria takes a sip of her wine…or well Brooke's wine, but it's basically hers all the same. The boys are safely asleep in their cribs. Ted stares at his beautiful wife. "You know, you look really sexy right now, Mrs. Davis" Ted pointed out offering his wife a sincere smile.
That's most likely a lie; she's been lugging around two little boys who can't sit still for the life of them. "Do I?" Victoria smirks at him as Ted wraps his arms around her and kisses her gently on the lips.
Ted wishes he had been there more when Brooke was young, if he had only put the effort forward; they could've been happier. "You do, you always do" he murmured quietly.
Victoria rolls her eyes, but her eyes are smiling with delight. Ted smiles softly knowing his wife is simply brushing the compliment off with an eye roll.
He lands a playful smack to the seat of her dress as his daughter shakes her head. "Really, do you guys have to do that when I'm right here? I think I'm traumatized for life" Brooke interrupted groaning at the sight of her parents making out.
"Dramatic as always, Brooke" Victoria smiles at her daughter and nods politely at Julian. "Where's your foster child, Ruth?" she asked purposely using the wrong name.
Brooke reprimanded sternly, "Be nice, and her name's Riley, but I'm pretty sure, you already knew that."
"I'm always nice" Victoria replied, quick to defend her actions.
Brooke starts to answer, but she stops when she sees her husband wheel Riley into the kitchen. They really should consider purchasing a ramp for her. Ted smiles warmly at the child. "Hi there, I'm Brooke's father, Ted" the man holds out his hand.
Ted gives his wife a look. Victoria's eyes narrow, the last time she got close to one of Brooke's foster children, it ended disastrously. "This is my wife, Victoria" he added shooting his wife a look.
"Hi" Riley uncomfortably shakes his hand, she's never shaken anyone's hand before and it's quite odd.
There's an awkward silence lurking around as the grandparents' eye her unsurely. "Sweetie, are you hungry? How does some microwavable pizza sound?" Brooke asked wanting to break the silence.
As usual, when meeting new people, Riley instantly becomes nervous and shy. She's never been good with new people, especially ones that don't seem to like her. Sure, she can trick people, but that's only cause the people don't know her. Riley wonders what she could've done to make Brooke's parents dislike her.
Riley replied hesitantly, "Sounds good."
"Great, I'll call you when it's ready" Brooke replied smiling down at her daughter who awkwardly wheels herself out of the room.
Julian tries to help, but Riley waves him off; she should start learning how to do this on her own. Once both parents are certain their daughter has left the room, they turn and glare at Victoria.
Victoria stares at her daughter and son-in-law. "What?" she demanded giving them each an annoyed look.
"Mom she's our daughter" Brooke replied firmly. "I'm not going to let you be mean to her."
"Brooke, I'm only trying to protect you. Have you considered her real family? How they could take her away?" Victoria asked, she doesn't want to get close with another child and have her leave.
The light hits Brooke's eyes and she suddenly understands. "No, cause we aren't going to let anyone take her away" Brooke answered standing firm with what she wants.
"Don't be childish, darling; her biological family could take her at any moment, you have to prepare yourself" Victoria said attempting to prepare Brooke and Julian.
"Victoria" Julian snapped unsurely. "Riley's parents gave up their parental rights to her when she was young. They can't rejoin her life without a judge signing off on it and I don't think he would."
"Oh and by the way we applied to adopt Riley, the papers are on their way. Thanks for making her feel welcome" Ted shoots his wife a look to fix this mess. "Riley Grace, dinner's ready" Brooke shouted ignoring the apologetic glance her mother's giving her.
"I'll get her" Julian exits the room shaking his head in dismay, he really though Ted and Victoria had changed. Perhaps, it's simply baby steps. He sees Riley plays with her hair. "What's the matter, Rye?" the father asked sounding like a troubled father.
Riley could say, she's upset about Andy and Karen, but instead goes for what hurts her more. "Victoria doesn't like me" she murmured more to herself than anyone else.
"Rye, they do…they will. They…when Sam lived with Brooke, she and Victoria were close. I think Victoria's scared, if she gets close with you too; you might leave" Julian pointed out.
The child looks up, slightly hurt. How would she leave? It's not like either one of her parents can take her back. Her parents both gave up their rights. "I'm not gonna leave, we're a family…right?" Riley asked with a hopeful smile.
"Right" Julian winked ruffling her dark curls.
Riley looks around quite curiously for her brothers, they must be in bed by now. "When can I play with the boys?" she asked kindly.
"Tomorrow, right now they're in bed" Julian spins the chair around causing Riley to giggle. "Come on, my little monster it's time for dinner and then bed."
"Bed?" Riley asked frowning at the thought. Hasn't she had enough sleep for everyone? It's not like she's in dire need of it or anything.
Julian agreed smiling, "Yes, bed."
"But, I've been sleeping for three days" Riley complained pleadingly. "Can't I stay up and watch T.V. or something?"
Julian shakes his head. "Sorry, sweetheart, no dice; anyway it's already past your bedtime" the father said referring to her idiotic bedtime of 8:30 p.m.
Riley plays with the pizza; she doesn't like eating with a crowd watching her like hawks. "Riley, maybe you should sleep in the other bedroom downstairs" Brooke said making it sound more like an order than a suggestion.
Riley looks up disappointed. "Why? I like my room" she pouted thinking this is more like a punishment than anything else, being banished to another bedroom.
"I know, but it'd be easier for you if you slept on the first floor. It'll only be until you're out of the chair" Brooke explained offering her daughter a sincere smile.
"Okay" Riley sound dejected; she gets why, they want her to sleep on the first floor, but it sucks. Her bedroom was so cool; they finally got it to be the perfect purple.
Victoria can sense the child is slightly annoyed. "Don't worry; those three weeks will go by like that" Julian said causing Riley to raise an eyebrow at him.
Riley shakes her head in wonderment. "Wait, it's only two weeks in this thing…not three."
Julian and Brooke share looks of discomfort. "We were thinking maybe three would be better, for safety measures and stuff" Julian explained causing the nine year old to groan, overdramatically.
"This sucks" Riley slumps in her wheelchair and pushes the pizza away grumpily.
Brooke raises an eyebrow at her. "Don't say sucks" she chided smoothly causing the others to grin.
"But, it does" the curly headed child moaned causing a smile to form on Victoria's face; she defidently has Brooke's flare for dramatics.
Julian offers his daughter a sympathetic smile. "Hey, you'll be out of the wheelchair in time for baseball" the father said, he's been looking forward to playing baseball with his daughter.
Riley smiles, she likes baseball. Austin's Pops used to take them to the college games when they were little. He'd let them wander off while he drank at the bar.
"Awesome, how long will you guys be here?" Riley asked turning to her foster grandparents.
"Well, maybe we could squeeze in a few weeks" Ted offered as Victoria nods in full agreement. "We don't need to be back anytime soon."
A grin forms on Riley's face, she looks down feeling guilty for showing any hint of happiness. Lily's probably miserable and she's having a good ole time with the Baker Family. Brooke and Julian see her guilt, the pair share looks of concern. Victoria studies her newest grandchild with a newfound worry.
A Few Days Later
Brooke pushes Jude on the swing. Julian winks at her all the while pushing a giggling Davis. The pair decided they'd go to Lucas and Peyton's after everyone had left. They also realized since the crash, they hadn't spent much alone time with the boys.
"Momma" Davis shouted his face scrunching into a frown. Lately, the boys have been fighting with one another for the attention of their parents, grandparents, and sister.
Jude's eyes narrow at his brother. Brooke smiles as she walks over to her other man and ruffles his hair. "Hi baby Davey" the mother cooed at him offering her son a sincere smile.
Julian lifts the boy out of the yellow swing. His raven haired son has a disappointed look in his green eyes. "What's the matter, J?" the father asked tickling his son's side, the little boy giggles.
Brooke continues to push Davis on the swing. He likes the swing and his Momma's attention more than anything in the world. Too bad, Jude's not Momma's favorite. He seems to be Rye's favorite, but sometimes she switches.
Julian places Jude on the slide and waits at the bottom. "Come on, buddy, slide down" he encouraged as the little boy purses his lips together, unsure of this new ride.
Being almost two years old, Jude takes a deep breath before pushing himself forward and sliding into his father's arms. The father throws him into the air causing the boy to shriek with laughter. Brooke looks over at the scene and grins.
Lily wonders why these stupid things are called wakes. Nobody's waking up or anything, it's stupid. The child plays with her hands, mostly to avoid looking at people. Everyone keeps patting her shoulder or hair, like a simple pat will do anything. Yeah, that'll bring back Momma and Andy. Lily tries not to be angry, but she can't help it. How could her parents leave her like that?
Peyton gently runs her hand through Lily's light brown locks. "Lily-pad, you okay?" she asked looking down at the little girl who forces herself to smile.
"Can I go upstairs?" Lily blatantly avoids using 'room' this place isn't her home. It's Luke, Peyton, Sawyer, and Austin's home; she doesn't have a home anymore. Maybe she could live with Riley.
Peyton smiles softly and nods; the blonde turns to talk with a few of Karen's high school cheerleading friends. She doesn't notice Lily leave the house and walk down the street. Riley does; she saw Lily weave past the cluster of people and exit the house.
Riley wants to follow her, but this stupid wheelchair is preventing her from doing anything. Brooke and Julian haven't let her out of their sight either, it's like they're afraid to leave her alone. They somehow managed to get everyone in her extended family, including Victoria and Ted to babysit her as well.
Quinn spots Riley by herself and quickly walks over. Brooke and Julian told everyone to watch Riley. "What are you doing by yourself, Rye?" the aunt asked steering her away from the hallway and into the kitchen; the visitors' have avoided that area.
"I don't need a babysitter" Riley grumbled crankily as Quinn wheels her away from the door and towards the kitchen.
"You think I'm babysitting you, oh God no, never. I just need an excuse to hang out with you" Quinn lied smiling down at the youngster.
Riley rolls her eyes and looks up at Quinn. She's really starting to show that's she's pregnant now. They've decided to keep the baby's sex as a surprise. "I can take care of myself" she pouted, realizing whining won't help her point.
Quinn purses her lips together; she doesn't know what to say about that, but she knows it isn't true. Thankfully, her husband appears at her side. They brought Logan to Nate's and left him in the safe care of Brooke's teenage employee, Tessa.
"That sounds like a challenge to me, what do you think baby?" Clay asked smirking confidently.
"Oh yeah, defidently" Quinn nods seriously causing Riley to half-smile as well, the Evans family are hilarious.
Clay taps his chin, feigning seriousness. He reaches into his pocket and pulls out a Crunch Bar. "Let's see, here. If you can get this Crunch by yourself, then we won't 'babysit' you anymore. We have a deal, little Brooke?" he asked holding out his hand.
"Yeah" Riley shakes his hand, seriously.
The nine year old squints looking around, the candy bar is kind of high up, stupid counter top. "Are you sure this is a good plan? What if she gets hurt?" Quinn asked worriedly.
Clay shakes his head, doubt appearing in his eyes. "She won't" he sounds so sure of himself.
Quinn asked, "How do you know?"
"I don't, but I'm betting on her losing. I mean, how could she possibly get it, it's too high?" Clay smirks at his wife causing Quinn to shrug, she doesn't know about that; Riley is very determined.
Riley wheels herself over to Lucas and Peyton's junk draw and pulls out a ruler. She then wheels over to the counter; using the ruler she guides the candy off the counter and onto her lap.
Quinn nudges Clay shooting him a glare. She promised Brooke, they would watch Riley while she consoled Peyton. "I win, you can't babysit me anymore" Riley claps her hands with delight.
Clay looks at his wife and shrugs. He didn't think Riley would be able to get the candy. "You used a ruler" he pointed out smirking.
"So?" Riley giggled nervously.
"You couldn't use any extra stuff to get the candy" Clay lied, he's almost Brooke will maim him if anything happens to Riley.
The child shakes her head. "You never said that" she answered smartly; Quinn wants to laugh, but it'd hurt Riley's feelings if she did.
Clay answered doubtfully, "I'm saying it now." He hadn't expected Riley to get the candy bar.
"You're making things up, that's not fair" Riley complained folding her arms across her chest and huffing.
"I'm the grown-up; I can make any rules I want" Clay shrugged causing the nine year old to roll her eyes.
Jamie walks over to them and offers Riley a kind grin. "Hey, Rye, you wanna hangout? Let's play outside" Jamie offered wondering what they could do.
"Cool, let's go" Riley quickly wheels herself out of the room; Clay and Nathan follow, knowing they're going to need to lift the wheelchair up in order to get the child outside.
Quinn smiles down at her nephew, proudly. "Thanks for offering to watch her, Bud" she said running her fingers through his hair.
"No problem, Aunt Quinn. It was kinda awesome how she got the candy bar, though" Jamie admires Riley, he wishes she'd let him be her boyfriend.
"Real awesome, she had Clay thinking he'd won" Quinn agreed watching her nephew follow his father and uncle outside. The mother-to-be goes upstairs in search of Hales.
Lily runs over to her parents gravestones. The flowers are still fresh and vibrant with life, yet her parents aren't. The nine year old stomps on the daisies and lilies, hot tears fall down her trembling cheeks.
"How could you just leave me like that?" Lily blinks, wishing her Momma would answer. "I need you! Why'd…this isn't fair. I hate you…I hate you. Momma, please…I'm sorry, I didn't mean what I said. I just…I want you back" the child explained wondering why she's talking to a stone that won't talk back.
She feels her entire body shaking. "I need you Momma. I need you Andy. I can't…I can't do it alone. Peyton and Luke try, but they aren't you. Why'd you hafta leave me?" Lily demanded softly, feeling her voice crack.
"Lily?" a voice asked causing the little girl to turn and glare daggers at the boy in front of her.
"What are you doing here?" Lily demanded seething angrily, she swears if Peyton or Lucas had someone follow her.
Andre takes a step back, more out of fear than anything else. "Just seeing my brother…it's his birthday" he explained weakly; it's been a stressful day, later today. Momma plans on bringing Quentin a cake.
Lily feels guilt yet again; she shouldn't have jumped down Andre's throat like that. Obviously, he has a valid reason for being at a gravesite. "I'm sorry…I just…I don't know…I'm sorry" Lily apologized shaking her head, why is she acting like such a bitch?
"Its okay, Q was…he's my hero. I remember him always being really cool and awesome and great" Andre murmured chuckling. "He was the best brother ever and…I sometimes don't remember him much."
Lily answered quietly, "That sucks."
"Like, I don't member his favorite color. I know that's dumb, but it's like…if I forget one thing, then I'll forget everything" Andre shakes his head, sadly. "I miss him a lot, so does my Momma."
"You're Momma" Lily echoed and for a brief moment she can't catch her breathe.
Andre winces realizing bringing up his mother was a stupid thing to do, he knows about Lily's parents. He should've just stopped talking the minute he had the chance.
The boy apologized, "I'm sorry about your parents." His Dad died when he was little and he doesn't remember him.
"I…I-I don't think I can do it without my Momma or Andy" Lily shakes her head feeling tears prick the walls of her eyes.
Andre stares at her with kindness in his eyes. "You can do anything; you just gotta believe you can. Oh, there's my Mom" Andre sees his mother walk towards them with a cake in hand. "Wanna have some cake with us?" he asked kindly.
Lily nods, "would your Mom mind?" she asked glancing into the sun and for a brief moment she sees her Momma, when she shields her eyes, the image is gone.
"No way" Andre stated offering Lily a kind-hearted smile, he likes talking to her.
Haley dabs her eyes and stares up at the wall. Karen's gone, she's really gone. The woman who practically raised her is gone. Now two of her mothers' are gone and…this can't be fair. Life really sucks disaster and Tree Hill go hand and hand.
Quinn appears at the doorway, she finds her baby sister sobbing uncontrollably. She totally gets why; Karen was like a second mother to all of them, but mostly Haley. Being the big sister, she wraps her arms around her little sister.
"Oh Haley-Bob, everything's going to be okay. Shh, just let it out. Let everything out" Quinn encouraged; rubbing her back, soothingly.
Haley shakes her head. "I can't…Jamie's here" she coughed wishing she could be stronger, but after everything that's happened; she can't.
Quinn replied softly, "He's not here, he's playing outside with Riley."
"What about Lucas and Peyton and…" Haley trailed off dabbing her eyes as she tries to catch her breath.
"Take a deep breath and talk to me, little sis" Quinn whispered feeling sorry for her baby sister, Haley was obviously a lot closer to Karen than she was.
Haley nods feeling hot tears fall down her cheeks. "Karen was…I loved her, Quinn. I loved her so much" Haley finally lets it out, she can't hold it all in. Karen was a wonderful woman; she didn't deserve this, nobody deserves that.
"We all did, Hales. Come on, just cry out all your tears. Don't worry, I'm here for you and I always will be" the photographer said as the two sisters hug and cry together.
