After that, Matt was on me more than ever. He picked me up every day from school and took my home like I was a five year old needing to be escorted to and from school not a powerful witch about to graduate high school.

I began to wonder if Silas had given up to me though. I hadn't so much as heard from him outside a dream since my most resent failure.

"Bonnie you have to go back." He persisted, wearing his own face instead of a mask, because in my own mind that's what I saw. "You've got to open the doors. It's time now."

The chant haunted me. When I was at school, when I was at home, when I was in the shower, when I was eating, when I was asleep. It was cold. I felt cold even when Matt pulled me into his arms for the fifteenth time this week when he pulled up in front of the grill instead of my house.

"You need to eat, Bonnie." He murmured when we pulled apart and I sighed. I guess he'd noticed that at lunch, while Caroline went on about Tyler's absence, I merely pushed the food around my plate.

"I know." I responded, following after him into the grill (because it's easier than fighting it). He slid into a booth near the back, nodding for me to slide in after him and I did, sitting across from him. "Don't you have to work?"

He shook his head. "I'm working the late shift tonight."

"Oh." I answered, but I found myself looking longingly over at the pool tables where Jeremy and I had once played. I could feel his arms around my waist, hear his laugh, and it was beautiful. He was beautiful. We were beautiful.

All too suddenly, a perky waitress appeared, asking for our drink orders and forcing me from the landslide of memories that was beginning to pour before my eyes. Matt ordered me a coffee when I didn't speak up. My arms wrapped around my arms, rubbing slowly to attempt to force some friction to warm my skin.

"Are you cold?" Matt asked and before I could dispute him, he was shedding his letterman jacket and handing it to me. If he would've given me time, I would've told him that I wasn't physically cold. I would've told him that the cold penetrating my body now wasn't something his jacket could fix. I would've told him that it came from somewhere deep inside of me. Instead, I slipped my arms into his jacket and forced a smile.

"Thanks, Matt."

He nodded. "Course.. what do you what to eat?"

I looked unseeingly at the menu, trying to focus on the words, but instead fighting off the sound of Jeremy's voice echoing through my ears at his words. "Um, a burger."

"Sounds good to me too." Matt agreed, flashing me a genuine smile that I wished I could return. Matt was such a good friend to me. I wasn't giving him anything, but he was fighting to make me feel alive again.

"What have we here?" The blood in my veins boiled. "Finally rebounding from my dead brother?" Elena's voice asked, trickling with laughter as she did.

Matt's face went blank, fighting the urge to defend me because we were supposed to being nice to Elena. "Great to see you too, Elena."

She nodded, leaning against the side of the booth with a wicked smile. "Of course, why wouldn't you? You only watched him die and didn't do anything."

Matt's face contorted angrily before he composed himself. "Elena, lay off."

"Why should I, Matt?" She answered, looking down at me coolly.

"Elena, are you playing nicely?" Damon asked, appearing over her shoulder and grabbing her arm.

She smirked back at him. "You know I'm not, Damon."

Damon smiled over at Matt and I. "Sorry about that...enjoy whatever this is." He said, looking between us assumingly and I sighed, relieved when he dragged her away.

"Bonnie, I'm-" Matt began, but I shook my head, shrugging off his jacket.

"Don't say it." I answered, handing him the jacket with a weak smile. "Thanks, Matt, but I'm going to walk home."

"Are you sure, Bon-?"

I nodded, standing. "I'll be fine, I promise."

Matt nodded. "Okay, well, just be careful."

I nodded, then walked out of the Grill, walking toward my house. I still felt cold, though, cold and sad. There wasn't anything to fix it though. Once I got home, I got in bed and went to sleep.

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