Sorry for the late update, it has been busy couple of days, but thought i would update it now i am back home and bored out my nut. So this is a short chapter cause i wanted the next bit to be its own chapter, i am writing it now so it should be posted later today.

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Chapter Four.

Brendans POV

"Brum brum" I was pushing my cars along the window sill at the holiday home. Chez was on the beach with nana. I concentrated on my cars, I could hear his heavy footsteps approaching I tried to block them out but I couldn't, I just carried on playing with my cars.
The door creaked open slowly and I heard him step inside my fortress, yet it was no longer safe in here, I could smell the stale Tabaco along with the fresh smell of smoke also the faint smell of whisky. He placed his half smoked cigarette on the unit next to my bed. He told me to turn around and face him, he was unzipping his trousers. I glanced over to the burning cancer stick, and watched as the ash fell to the floor…

I bolted upright, cold sweat dripping from my forehead my breaths fast and shallow, I could feel the tears welling, look at this, a man in his thirties still having nightmares from when I was eight years old its pathetic. Stephen had sat up, he placed an arm around my shoulder and rested his chin on it.

"Hey, it was just a dream, its ok."

We just sat there for a couple of minutes like that then I broke the silence.

"It started when I was eight, we were at the family holiday home in Ireland, I had been playing in my room when he came in, he told me I was a puff, a fairy, then he told me that what he was about to do would make me a man, instead of the mouse I was. Then he, did it. Told me if I told anyone I was weak and it would ruin our family, Chez would hate me, so I didn't say anything, it happened everyday for the rest of the holiday. When we got home it stopped but then two weeks later we went back to the house, and he did it again, that time he didn't stop though, he carried on when we got back home. My nana knew."

"What do you mean your nan knew?"

"She knew what he was doing to me, but she never tried to stop him."

I could feel Stephen's tears landing on my shoulder, I turned round to look him in the eye, I went to comfort him, but instead before I could stop myself I said it.

"I killed her."

Stephen sat up and gasped,

"You- you killed her?"

"Ye, I didn't mean to, I wasn't planning it. I warned her after she told me she knew, she kept walking towards me, I was telling her to stop before I did something stupid, then she hugged me, and i…" My voice trailed off.

"Bren, if she knew and was just letting him get on with it, it makes her just as bad as him, she was a cause of it, if she spoke up then things could have been different."

"It was my nana you know?"

"Yeah I know."

"The one person I thought I could 100% trust, she was always nicer to me than Chez, used to give me a little extra money and stuff, then I find out she knew the whole time, she let him do that to me."

"Hey, you've got me, well actually ya stuck with me cause im not going anywhere."

"Good, cause I don't want ye to." I placed a small kiss on Stephen's lips, I laid down onto the bed and pulled him into me.

"Good, but I think we should sleep know, both got work in the morning and I gotta drop the kids of at Leanne's."

"Night Stephen, love you."

"Love you too."

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