Sorry for a late update, been a bit busy. Personally i think this is a bit of a crappy chapter. I know how i want this to end but its getting to it thats the difficult bit. But please leave a review and let me know what you think. Thanks. x
Chapter Six
Brendan's POV.
I sat there trying to ignore him as he said those names he had said when I was a kid. I felt Stephen tense up more than he already was if that was possible. I was hoping to god that he would ignore him too, but he knew Stephen too well and just as he thought these words Stephen had jumped up, not giving me a chance to grab hold of him to stop. His finger was waving in my da's face; I was panicking, would da hit Stephen? I willed myself to move to grab Stephen pull him back down onto the chair but it couldn't.
"How can you of all people call him sick? Look at ya, you're the sick one. Yeah you might be catholic you might think being gay is wrong, but im pretty sure its wrong to touch up eight year olds too but you did it!"
I couldn't move, I felt like I had been paralysed, my eyes where fixed on Stephen begging him to sit down in my mind, but my mouth wouldn't open, my tongue had restricted me from speaking. We all sat there in silence all taking in what had just been said. Da was the one to break it, he spoke slowly and calm but I knew deep down his blood was boiling; our little secret had been spoken off. Making sure he worded his sentence he said
"Now young Stephen, I don't know what Brendan has been tellin' ye but what ye just said was a lie, it sounds like another one of his tricks to get a bit of attention, ain't that right Brendan?"
I looked up into his eyes, they was black and cold, he had that threating look in his eye that he wore every time he looked at him, if anyone was to see it they would run a mile, but it was only me who ever got to see it. I turned to look into Stephen's eyes, they was deep blue filled with love and comfort, but there was still that hint of anger in there. I thought to myself, if I agree with da say it was all for a bit of attention then I would lose him but he would be away from all of this drama, he wouldn't have to be involved da would leave him alone and he could carry on living his life. If I tell the truth, I will have to run, I will constantly looking over my shoulder to see If he is following me to make me pay for spilling the life threating secret, then there was Stephen who would also be in danger, how far would da go to keep it hidden? What if he hurt Stephen? I know he will want to come with me, he will want to run away with me, start a fresh, but I wouldn't be able to do that from him, he would be constantly running. I turned and looked into Seamus's cold eyes, then I looked into Stephen's warm loving eyes, and the decision was made.
"No, ye know that's not right, ye know exactly what you did to me."
The minute I looked into Stephen's eyes I knew I couldn't live my life without him. I raised myself from the chair and looked into the man im supposed to call da's eyes and tried to block out the fear of this man pumping around my body, I tried to mask it, I wanted him to believe I wasn't scared anymore even if I was truly terrified.
"Now now Brenda, ye was always taught not te lie."
I looked at Stephen and with him being there it gave me the strength to fight back.
"Ye, I was taught not to lie, but not by ye. Ye made the person I am today, ye taught me not trust anyone, not to love anyone cause they will always turn their back on ye, just like ye did to me when I was eight years old, how you destroyed my childhood."
"How touching, Im sure that was well rehearsed, now even if that did happen we wouldn't ye poor little sister finding out, can you imagine how much it would crush her to find out her big brother is making up lies about her da?"
There and then I decided this was going to stay a secret, no one else would ever find out about it. Just me, Stephen and da, that was it, I couldn't risk Chez getting hurt, I couldn't risk losing her either. Seamus let a low fake laugh and said
"I thought so- he turned to look at Stephen- ye see Stephen, no matter what I will always win cause Brenda here is always going to be that same queer."