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Chapter Eleven.

Stephen's POV.

We had been in about an hour, the minute we walked through the door they both kicked off their shoes and flopped across Leah heaving out a big sigh and said she was knackered I laughed at her god knows where she gets it from. I was in the kitchen unloading there lunch boxes when it went suspiciously quite there was only two meanings for this they was either doing something they wasn't allowed to do or they had fell asleep, I had my fingers crossed for the first one if they had fell asleep they would never sleep tonight. I strolled in to see Leah leaning back on the sofa with her eyes fixated on the TV but they was glazed over, she was going to be asleep any second and Lucas was sitting on the floor pushing a fire truck across the floor but with very little effort. Bless them they looked like they could both just drop off at a flick of a switch. I walked towards the sofa and sat next to Leah,

"Oi missy, best not be falling asleep."

"Im not, im watching telly."

"Ya look like a zombie, do ya want some dinner?"

"Yeah, chips."

"Coming up, chips, fish fingers and beans good enough?"

"Yep."

"How about you Lucas, chips, fish fingers and beans good enough for you?"

"Yeah."

"Alrighty then, I am going to make it, don't go a sleep or you won't be tired later yeah?"

I got two little nods from the pair of them. I walked into the kitchen and raided the freezer and cupboards and then turned on the oven, tonight would be a simple dinner couldn't be bothered with cutting up all the veg and crap just for them to leave it at least I knew they would eat this. I cooked the dinner every so often calling to make sure there awake. I sat down at the small table whilst I waited for the food to cook, it was the first time since I woke up this morning I have properly sat down and been able to actually relax, but it also means I have time to think and I don't want to do that, I don't want to think because if I do I start thinking of him and then I start thinking about why he has left me, and then I go into some sort of self-absorbed coma and all I can think about it somehow destroying Seamus Brady.

I placed their food on the table, I didn't have any I wasn't particularly hungry so I dawdled into their bedroom and sorted out their pyjamas. When I returned to the kitchen Leah had already finished and Lucas was following, I grabbed them both a chocolate mouse and passed it to them both, I watched by as they scoffed it down. I washed there hands and face and passed Leah her pyjamas whilst I helped Lucas change into his. I turned over the TV to Rugrats and told them they could watch it then it was bedtime, they both sprawled out on the floor with their chins in their hands.

I pulled the door to their room shut and walked towards the sofa and plonked myself down on it, I looked around the room and thought to myself, this time last week I was the happiest man on the planet I had my kids, a business, a home and the most amazing boyfriend anyone could ask for, yeah he was petty, liked expensive stuff and basically ate everything in my cupboards but I loved him none the less, and now I still have the business, I still have the best kids anyone could want, I also have a home but I no longer have the amazing boyfriend, and without him everything seems dull, at work I would look forward to seeing him come in and ordering his seedless jam sandwich that was only made for him, at home I would look forward to see him strolling through the door whenever and playing around with the kids, but now he is not here to do all of that. Then I got thinking on the reason why he was gone, that sick man was the reason I was suffering. I had to get rid of him, I had to get him out of our lives for good that way this wouldn't happen again. I knew how I would wait until Cheryl was at work and I could do it then, or I could find a way of luring him out of sight somewhere, but the question wasn't how was I going to do it without being caught the question was, how the fuck am I supposed to do it with no 'weapon', who around here would have contacts to get me a gun or something like that? The only dodgy people I knew round here was Brendan and he was no use, there was also Walker but what with him trying to kill me, wanting to hurt Brendan in anyway possible way and nobody had a clue where he was. Why was it when you needed some bad guy they wasn't around but when you wish for them to disappear they are always there? Warren, he would have been able to help for the right price but he was in prison thanks to Brendan. Then it clicked, Warren might have gone but his son wasn't, Joel, he used to hang around Brendan like a fly did shit, surly he would know someone, he had no choice Joel was his only hope at the moment. I pulled out my phone from my pocket and scrolled through my phonebook, Bren gave me his number in case there was ever an emergency and I couldn't get hold of him, I didn't ever think I would have to use it.

"Hello?"

"Hello Joel, its Ste."

"Oh, what do you want?"

"I need your help, do ya mind poppin' round quick?"

"Why? What do ya need?"

"I will tell ya when ya get here."

"Ste, if you want to know about Bren-"

"I don't, I just need a favour be quick yeah?"

"Yeah."

With that I hung up. I was pretty surprised how simple that conversation was, I had been expecting me to have to beg him to come round but no he just agreed, probably curious as to why me of all people is ringing him to ask for help. Now I had to think how was I going to word this? Would he tell Cheryl what I was asking of him? I had to think fast because if he is coming now he will be here soon.

There was a banging at door, I dived from my chair and practically ran to the door, I didn't want him waking the kids up.

"Do ya have to be so loud? I do actually have kids!"

"Sorry."

"Drink?"

"Please."

"What do ya want? Tea, coffee I think I got a few beers in the fridge."

"Beer."

I pulled open the fridge and grabbed to beers, I passed one to Joel and gestured him into the living room. He sat down on the sofa but I stayed standing, I was too nervous to sit.

"What do ya need Ste?"

"What makes you think I need something? How do you know I don't want to just ask you something?"

"If you wanted to ask me something you would have said it over the phone, plus Im not the first guy you would come to for a little chat, so what do ya need?"

"Alright I need something and you was the only person I could think of round here that might know about me getting it what with ya hanging around with Brendan quite a bit."

"Not something legal then I take it?"

"No, not exactly, I um, I, I, I need a gun."

I looked up at Joel to see him, eyes wide open staring at me with his mouth slightly open not even attempting to hide the shock on his face. I left him a couple more minutes to get over the fact I just asked him for a gun. After about three minutes I got a bit impatient waiting for an answer so I said

"Ya gunna be able to get me one or what?"

"Look Ste, I get that ya upset with Brendan going an everything, but this aint the answer."

I looked at him confused, until it dawned on me what he was saying.

"I ain't trying to kill meself! I just need it for something."

"You gunna tell me what?"

"Cant."

"So you want me to get you a gun and have no clue what you are gunna do with it?"

"Well yeah, that's what I was hoping for."

"Right, well I aint promising anything but I can have a lookout see if I can find anyone."

"Yeah, cheers."

Joel stood up to leave, but I couldn't just let him go, I couldn't knowing he might have heard from Brendan.

"Have you heard from him?"

"Brendan?"

"No Jesus Christ, obviously!"

"Yeah, he called yesterday checking the club was going ok, to see if Cheryl was ok and um, well you."

"Me?"

"Yeah, he said not to say anything but you know me. He hasn't spoken to Cheryl either, keeps ignoring all her calls, he said he didn't want to speak to her cause if he did he would come back or something like that. Im guessing the same reason he is ignoring you."

I just gave him a small nod.

"He loves you Ste."

"Yeah so much that he upped and walked."

"Yeah well, it's obvious why he left ain't it? His dad, not sure whats going on between them too but well they don't exactly get on, don't blame him, he seems like a knob from what I have seen, big act for Cheryl."

Joel's facial expression changed, he looked worried and he looked at me with a concerned face.

"Ste, that gun, your not gunna…"

"It don't matter what I do with that gun!"

"Yeah it does when im the one who is getting it for ya!"

"Why you give it to me then it is no longer your worry."

"It is, cause if Brendan finds out he will kill me!"

"No he won't."

"Ste, seriously think about this, is he really worth it?"

"Yeah he is actually, to me anyway, he might mean nothing to you, but to me he is everything alright?"

"Yeah."

"Right, well let me know if you find anything yeah?"

"Yeah."

Joel walked out of the front door and pulled it shut behind him, I locked it and walked towards my room pulling of my t-shirt getting ready to go to bed.

I was lying down thinking about the conversation with Joel, he knew, he knew exactly what I was planning to do with that gun, that meant I had to be careful. I attempted going to sleep but my brain was buzzing with every thought. I tried clearing my mind, but I couldn't so I lay there waiting for sleep to possess me.