*Kaoru p.o.v.*

Morning comes far too quickly. Hikaru shakes me awake, and I am so tired, I feel like I've been run over by several trucks. Then, like a 18 wheeler filled with lumber, the memory of last night hits me. Oh shit! I have to tell him! Okay, it'll be okay. I can stall. So, I roll over, away from Hikaru and flutter my eyes open to see my alarm clock. 4 EFFING AM. IT'S FOUR EFFING AM!

Okay. Breathe. You can use this to your advantage. Pretend your too tired to deal with this shit.

Hikaru prods at my shoulder blade with his long slender fingers and I wish that they would touch me more often. And under different circumstances. I roll back and preted that I'm so tired that I'm going to die.

"Hikaru...I got so little sleep last night.. I feel sick." I whine.

"Bullshit. Tell me what's going on." He relpyed, stone faced.

I realize that I've lost. There is no way to further stall.

"Okay... Well for the last two or so months I-"

Suddenly Hilary's phone starts blaring on the nightstand. He looks over at the caller I.D. and motions for me to give him a second.

"Oh Haruhi," he says with sickening amounts of caring in his voice, "I'm sorry you had a bad dream. Why don't you tell me all about it. No I'm not doing anything, it's okay. I don't care that its 4:15! Just tell me babe.".

I have been pushed too goddamned far, and like a twig, I snap. I grab Hikarus phone out of his hands and whip it against the farthest wall. The smashing sound it makes is just... Delicious. Meanwhile Hikaru is staring at me like I've gone insane. Yet again, I probably have.

*Hikaru P.O.V. *

My phone smashed loudly against the wall. What the fuck is Kaoru thinking?! I was talking to someone. But before I can yell at him, he goes off the deep end.

"Do you know what's been killing me for the last two months?" He says in a harsh low whisper, deathly calm, "No. You don't. Because all you care about now is Haruhi. That's what's been bothering me YOU STUPID UNCARING PRICK.". Tears are spilling down his cheeks but he keeps going, "That's what's been putting me into a spiraling depression, you caring about Haruhi more than me. You choose her over me everyday. All the time. YOU EVEN DID IT NOW WHEN IM OBVIOUSLY DEEPLY WOUNDED. and why? BECAUSE THE PUSSY HAD A BAD DREAM."

I've had enough. He can't insult my girlfriend.

"YOU CAN'T INSULT MY GIRLFRIEND," I sream over him, "SHE IS A GOOD PERSON."

"NO SHE IS NOT YOU BLIND IDIOT. I ASKED HER A MONTH AGO TO MAYBE INVITE ME INTO YOUR CONVERSATIONS ONCE IN A WHILE SO IM NOT COMPLETELY ALONE. SHE SAID THAT SHE WOULD BE HAPPY TO. THE FUCKING BITCH LIED. NOW EVERY TIME I ASK HER WHY SHE DIDN'T STICK TO HER WORD SHE JUST SAYS "ooh well!". SHE HAS BEEN FUCKING ME UP ON PURPOSE. AND YOU LET IT HAPPEN. NOW IM EVEN MORE UPSET BECAUSE NOW THAT YOU ARE DATING I WILL BE EVEN MORE ALONE. THIS ENTIRE PROBLEM IS JUST BECAUSE OF YOU."

He pauses for a second, before mumbling, "do you even love me anymore?". Sobs rack his body but in a blink of an eye my arms are around him. I can't believe that Haruhi could do that. And I absolutely can't believe that I let this happen. Guilt fills me and I hold my twin tighter.

"Look Kaoru. I love you so much. I love you more than I could ever love Haruhi. I'm sorry I have been ignoring you. Haruhi is my first girlfriend and I'm afraid to fuck up so I give her all of my attention. But that stops now. Okay? I'm so so sorry. And I am never leaving your side again."

Kaoru finally meets my eyes, and his look like liquid gold. They have little tear droplets left on his thick black lashes, and one last tear slips down his cheek. Before I can stop myself I kiss away the tear. And then his lips.

*Kaoru P.O.V.*

Suddenly Hikaru's lips are on mine and I am completely wrapped up in this soft sweet kiss. It isn't like our first kiss. It just feels kind and like... Love. I'm already wrapped up in a little ball, but now Hikaru shifts to completely cradle me on our bed. His hands run to cup my face and his thumbs trace circles on my cheeks. I wish I could just freeze in this moment in time and stay here forever. He pulls back, but instead of yelling at me, like last time, he showers my face in kisses. He kisses my eyelids, my forehead, my cheeks, my chin, my nose, my jawline. I am in heaven.

*Hikaru P.O.V.*

I am kissing Kaoru's angelically soft skin while the back of my mind is trying to process and justify what I just did.

Did I have to kiss him?

No, I didn't. I could've just hugged him and left it at that.

Is it okay that I kissed him?

Also no, technically I just cheated, and I kissed my twin, and I didn't even have to!

Why did I kiss him?

Many reasons. I hated seeing him upset, and I guess I wanted to make up for me and haruhi being romantic with us being romantic. Also, based on last time I knew I would love it.

Wait.

Back the fuck up.

Why do I love kissing my brother?!

Before I could stop it, the answer came pouring into my mind.

Because he is perfection. He is amazing and you have had a crush on him for years. You want him more than life itself. You tried to distract yourself from your ever-growing love by dating Haruhi. The real reason that you were ignoring him was because you are in love with him and you are afraid of it. You love kissing your brother because your are madly in love with your brother.

I unconsciously stop kissing and cuddle to my twin, as I come to the realizationI am in love with Kaoru and the two of us fall asleep in each others arms, like it was always ment to be