I am so sorry for the long delay! But I was in London and when I came home I slept for days (and read Clockwork Princess between sleeping, got it in London).

To make it up to you I wrote this whole thing in one day, even though I have a test tomorrow... Your reviews made me so happy! Thank you X3

Lots of talking in this chapter! Some of you guessed right to who the person outside might be, but it was really obvious...so...

I'll just stop talking now, enjoy and review (if you like...but I really hope you will).

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Chapter 9 "His Reason"

Why did this have to happen to him? Why always him? It was like he attracted bad things and pain. Just when he was finally happy, the world came crashing down onto him again and left him breathless with pain and shock. His happy moments were forgotten and he just saw his face.

Behind the windows was his brother, looking at him with…Alec didn't even know how to describe Jace's look. Pure terror? …regret?

"Alec?" Magnus asked silently, like he was afraid of something. It took Alec a moment to register what his date had said.

"Are you alright?"

"O-of course, I'll be back in a moment," he answered and stood up, slightly shaking. He looked back at Magnus, who looked confused and concerned, before he went out of Taki's.

Cold air hit his face and he shivered. A few meters right to him was Jace, looking at him with an unreadable expression. There was a small girl behind him, her fiery red hair fluttered in the wind and her green eyes were set on him and back to Jace. He told her something which the tall boy couldn't hear and she went round the corner, leaving them alone.

They stood there for a few moments; neither of the two knew what to say. Alec shifted uncomfortably, the cold wind making him feel numb and he didn't want to look at his adopted brother, afraid of what he would say.

"What…was that?" Jace asked him with a frown present on his handsome face.

What should I say? Say it was nothing? But Jace isn't stupid…

"What do you think it was?" Alec responded with a bit of sarcasm which surprised him. He was slightly angered that Jace interrupted his date. Everything had gone so well and then this. Just his luck.

His brother looked surprised for a moment, but maybe Alec had imagined that. Jace had a too calm expression which irritated the young adult. Jace was never calm.

"You kissed him, didn't you?"

"You say it like it would be bad to kiss him."

"Who says I don't?" Jace said with a serious tone in his voice. Alec flinched as he got his answer and looked his brother straight in the eye. The usual light golden swirls were darkened and stared at him like he was a disease. The eldest Lightwood had to look away; it hurt too much to know your brother hated you, for what you were, for what you loved.

"Yes, I kissed him."

Alec thought he heard Jace chuckle lowly without a hint of amusement in his voice, he didn't know why.

"Jonathan was right, all the time," he said and Alec's eyes widened in surprise.

"What?" he whispered.

"Jonathan always used to tell me you were…different. I didn't believe him, didn't want to believe him. I shrugged you weird behavior off, thought it was just the way you were. When I wanted to talk to you about girls you always spaced out, I thought you were just too innocent. I don't know why I thought that," he said blankly, like he wasn't really here.

"But it seems I was wrong. Jonathan called me today, said you had a date. I was happy for you at first but…" Jace stopped his talking and looked at the ground. Alec didn't dare to say anything.

"He told me you would probably be with…a guy. Jonathan said he watched you sitting with Magnus more often. Maybe you would be with him and here you are. You know, I don't believe in coincidences. This is something I call fate."

Alec sucked in a breath as Jace moved closer to him, their noses nearly touching. His golden brother had a dark look on his face, his eyes darker than ever.

"I give you one last chance, Alec. Either you stay with Magnus and you'll see what will happen or we'll forget all of this and everything will turn out the right way."

Jace looked away all of a sudden, a moment of silence passed between them.

What should I do? Why is he doing something like that?! I thought…he was better than that…or am I just wrong? And what does Jonatha-

"Alec, I…I just want to protect you," Jace told him.

"How should this protect me, Jace? You want me to make a decision which I can't make. Jace, I-"

"They…they will make your life a living hell. Look what they've done to Magnus! I couldn't stop it from happening! Your only chance to get away from them is to become a part of them!"

Alec didn't understand a word. At first he thought his brother hated him and anyone who was like him, he made fun of Magnus and said he was a…a fag, then he didn't talk to him. Now all of a sudden he wanted to protect him? What the hell?! What did he mean 'I couldn't stop them'? Stop them from hurting Magnus?

"What do you mean with 'becoming a part of them'?" Alec asked, scared of this whole situation, scared of how his brother was behaving.

"If you're friends with them, they won't do anything, but…Magnus thought he could stop all this. He went against them and they cut him down. Yes, I was with them, but-"

"But what?! You could've jus-"

"No, Alec, I couldn't," he cut him off," they would've done the same to me and I was…afraid of that. They are my only friends… I'm not the popular Jace you know; I'm just someone who is too scared to break free. I've no friends beside them."

"What about this girl from before?"

A slight smile graced Jace's lips and he continued talking.

"Maybe she's my way out of this nonsense. Alec, I won't do anything, regardless of what your decision is. But if you stay with Magnus…I'll not be able to do anything."

"What about Isabelle?" Alec asked. He was seriously worried about her, what might happen to her if…

"She tries to do the same that Magnus did. She tries to stop them, but Jonathan… Iz plans with Will to stop Jonathan gaining power of the school. I don't know how all this started, how he became popular, but he does it with fear, and that is what I am. Afraid."

Alec bit his lower lip and tried to understand.

Izzy tries to be a heroine, but maybe Jonathan will hurt her, like he always said… I have…I have to stop this. What if he'll do something to her if I don't stop meeting Magnus?! I-

"I don't know what to do," Alec whispered to no-one in particular, but Jace thought he asked him.

"I don't know either. I'm afraid of what he'll do. He set his eyes on Isabelle, that's why I'm with him, to protect her. If I don't do like he says, he'll hurt her."

"Jace! This is fucked up! Why don't just all go against him and he-"

"Because there are still some who are on his side, Alec! I don't even know who is, but this is the dangerous thing! You'll never know who listens."

The dark haired Lightwood rubbed his eyes in frustration and sighed. This was more complicated than he had expected. His sister didn't even know the danger she was in. And it was his responsibility to keep her save, even if it meant to not be happy.

"I'll stop."

"What?" Jace asked him confused.

"I'll stop meeting Magnus, for Izzy's sake, and for yours," he answered bravely, or was it just him being a fool?

The golden boy seemed to have a weight put off his shoulders, but another one put on.

"I thought you like Magnus; I want you to be happy."

"I am the older brother; I have to take care of you, not the other way around."

Surprisingly Jace embraced him and whispered into his ear.

"Can you ever forgive me for saying those cruel things against Magnus and you?"

Alec broke the contact between them and smiled.

"Of course. You're my brother, I'll always forgive you."

"Thanks," he said and looked at Alec funnily.

"Doesn't Magnus wait for you?"

Alec's eyes widened instantly and guilt washed over him.

"Shit! I have to explain it all to him. What will he say?"

He ran into Taki's without saying goodbye to Jace, but all he saw was an empty chair and a few traces of glitter at the table.

Magnus had left.

Dun dun duuuun! Sry ^^. I had a lot of fun writing this chapter, don't ask me why. You probably know by now that I love drama.

Jonathan is really bad, isn't he? I love him 3

I'm thinking of turning this into M, but I'll probably stick with T. Why is there no such thing as T-M?! WHY?!

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