NOW

I was screaming in reality, tears pouring down my face. I miss them so much, and it's my fault they are gone. Me and my stupid powers. They didn't deserve their fate.

"Her past is far more complicated than I've thought." Mastermind states. I'm still crying, though they are all looking at me.

"That doesn't answer any of my questions"

"She can absorb energy, Mystique. If she had enough she could take out Jean as her enhanced form… the Phoenix. That's why she is so important." Do they not realize that I'm hysterically crying right now?

"Let her out of the chair then" Mystique sounds bored and uninterested.

Mastermind begins to walk toward me and attempt to unlatch the metal bars. Since when are there latches on these kinds of things? He does and I instantly jump up, and push him out of the way.

"Stop her! She may be of value to us!" Mystique yells. Wasn't I apart of her team though? Magneto starts to walk toward me, and I back away slowly.

"NO! STOP! Don't come anywhere close to me!" I scream, trying to shrink away from him. Wait, I still have some power from that electricity. Such idiots! I'm still crying, a lot. I miss my family more than anything, and they should have expected this. I choose not to remember, because when I do, these things happen.

I aim my hands at some crates, making them explode just to do it. My hands gravitate toward the ground in front of Magneto, exploding the ground and forcing him to back away.

The cat on steroids tries to attack me, and just as he reaches me I grab his hand that was outstretched. He looks genuinely shocked, and I push him to the side. He growls like Wolverine and stands again.

This time I aim to shoot him with fire and when I do he bursts into flames. He was screaming but thankfully for him Magneto levitated a large metal bucket full of water over him and doused him.

By now I was still crying, balling actually. I point at Gambit, who was still standing where he was, watching but not interfering. I fire at him, but he dodges. He needs to stay still.

I'm just about to do it again, this time ready to kill him, when Pyro grabs me from behind, holding my hands down.

"LET ME GO!" I try to wiggle out of his grip, but man is he strong. I can hear him breathing heavily, straight in my ear.

"Calm down," he says. I scream and it's loud and shrill. There was a cry at the end. All these people – I hate them. I hate them all. There is a reason why I don't get close anymore. The anger is bubbling up inside me – or is that sadness… or just my power? I don't know – they are all blurred together as the same nowadays.

I step on his foot as an attempt to escape, but he just tightens his grip.

"Stop, you don't know what you're doing," I tell him, still trying to get away.

Can't he just leave me alone and let me cause destruction? I just want to… I don't know what I want to do. Cry? Blow up things? Scream? No, I want to die. That's all I want right now. The choice has never been so clear, and I hate myself for ever thinking it. For now I just have to suffer with the memories.

"Yes, I do. I don't know what's wrong, but you can get through this, luv"

He's so wrong.

Still crying hysterically, I turn around and wrap my arms around him, and he does the same. He was so tall; his chin was rested on top of my head.

The tears are never going to stop, and the battle of life and death has just begun. I guess right now I just need someone, and Pyro's the only one that's actually trying to help. How about we just stop time right now, just us holding each other, because I don't think I'll last long after tonight.

I always said that I didn't need saving; that I can just save myself. Maybe I can't save myself, because I can't be saved.

I'm excited for you guys to read the next chapter: it's my favorite! :D