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This chapter is only a small one so I won't keep you, So on with the story.
ElouiseRose
Chapter 4 Going Under
Previously
As the crowed claps, whistles and makes various lude comments to us I say a thanks to Jess and let her go back behind the bar.
I talk in to the mic and give them a hint to the next song by the out fit I'm wearing.
Now
"Put your hands together for the lovely Miss Jessica everyone"
I look over towards Jess at the bar and see that she's getting lots of attention, she looks over towards me and gives me the evil "I hate you" I just give her the "you still love me smile".
I look back through the crowed and spot the Cullen's again Jasper, Rosalie, Emmett, Esme, Carlisle and every god damn insulting name under the sun were all lined up each with the same look on their face the look of surprise and hurt. Tthe surprise is understandable, most people are when they first hear me sing but the hurt is different all together I whisper low enough so only they can hear me. "If you think these songs hurt this is nothing compared to how you really made me feel when you All left me"
I took one last look at them before I introduced the next song and a caught I a slightly different expression in one of their faces but before I could say any thing Christian gets my attention to carry on with the next song.
"This next song is dedicated to a certain group of people, you know who you are"
(Bella, Brooke)
"Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me (going under)
Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented...Daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again...
(Chorus)
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you( drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not (soI don't know what's real and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head (ooooooo, ahhhhhh)
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
(Chorus)
So go on and scream
Scream at me
I'm so far away (far away)
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under
As I finish the song I see Matt coming up the stage steps and heading towards me and hands me a piece of paper, I gave him a questioning look but he just shrugs his shoulders and walks off.
Huh oh kay then, I carry on and tell everyone we're going to take a 15min brake and really kick it into gear.
I look at the piece of paper in my hand and open it up...