Hi all i'm very sorry for leaving you all hanging like that for so long not only did i lose the original chapter but R/L has had me all up and down with being in and out of work suffering from depression, stydies and recently finding out that i was 5-6 weeks pregnant and a week later ending up in hospital with a rupture ectopic prgnancy.
BUt with out further adue here is the latest chapter in What Dosen't Kill You (Makes You Stronger)
See you at the bottom
El xoxo
CHAPTER 7 Jar of hearts
Previously
As I sang that last word to the song I open my eyes I immediately notice Edward missing and Jasper and Emmett with smiles plastered on their faces mirror image to the guys, my fellow band mates, my brothers feelin the love we all have for each other as a family.
As the song finishes the boys change positions again and i move to the keyboard Tony is now at the mic and introduces the next song Drops of Jupiter by Train I play the intro and no sooner Tony starts to sing.
While he sings i start to think of the next song to play/sing that the guys know. I doesn't hit me till were about ⅔ way through the song that i know what song i want to do next.
As we come to the end of the song i grab the mic Brook used and tell the boys that i've got the next song with Brook and Tony doing back up i look out to the audience towards where the Cullens are standing and taking a deep breath and letting it out releasing some more of my broken and hurt emotions and i played those first keys on the piano.
As the first words come out of my mouth i knew i wouldn't be able to hold my tears back letting the pain/anger/sadness show through.
I know I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
I start to put some of my anger in the chorus, line by line
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
the tears start to flow down my cheeks but i can't stop now my mind wants me to stop but body won't let me
And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
leading into the next verse i knew this part would hurt the most using up more of the bitter hurt feeling left inside me when i sang about breaking promises.
And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
Tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Playing the final note and singing that last line i struggled to keep it together not to break down on stage in front of everyone.
I received a large applause for that number and as i said my tanks to the audience i announced that i let the boys have some of the limelight.
I know it wasn't much but the rest of the chapters will be coming alsog sooner rather than later and leave a review or comment and let me know what you think :)