What Doesn't Kill You (Makes You Stronger)
Previously
As I watched the family walk out of the bar I felt an unusual emotion it wasn't sadness and hope I got from most of the family it was jealousy and hate,
I focused more to see who was having these feeling and it wasn't who I expected it to be.
It wasn't Esme or Carlisle or Emmett and if it was Rose it would have made more sense as Rose said what she meant and showed it too.
But it wasn't Rose,
It was Alice
Chapter 12 Facing The Music
Jasper's POV
I was dumbfounded I knew Alice hid most her feeling from me after the family left Forks surly Alice wouldn't have these feeling towards Bella, She was her best friend a sister to each other, NO! it must be something else to make her feel that way but i can't talk to her now about it i head over the the side of the stage and wait for Bella.
W.D.K.Y.M.Y.S
BPOV
I take a deep breath to try calm my heart rate down, I nod to Jasper to follow me to my dressing room even in the short walk it was enough to calm my nerves and get my confidence level back up.
i opened the door and allowed him to enter i turned to shut the door and then i locked it, when i turned back around to face Jasper there he was standing to 3 feet away from me just watching me letting me make the first move to talk.
"Hi Jasper" i said as confident as i could without my voice cracking or shaking.
"Hello Isabella, may i just say one thing before we talk about anything else please it would mean alot to me" he replied
i nodded a yes and moved my hand in a motion to say that the floor is your sort of way, having a fleeing he's giving me time to think about what i want to say to him.
"Isabella, Bella i'd want to give you my sincerest apologies to my actions 5 years ago it was all my fault i was weak and i ran out of time to hunt and befor i knew it you were walking down those stairs, i know these excuses won't make a difference to how you feel about me but all i ask is that you give a chance for the family to talk to you i know they all still love you in their own ways." he looked down seeing the tension be released from his muscular shoulders.
I didn't need to be an empath to feel how he was feeling the guilt the remorse and sadness for what he believed he caused, right then and there i knew i had to tell him what Alice didn't tell him for me before she left because of the blood.
i walked up to him and placed my hand under his chin and lifted it up so he was looking at me.
"Jasper, let me make myself clear, i could never be or stay mad or angry at you, i knew what i was getting into when i started dating HIM i thought of everything to the 9th degree of all the infomation you all gave me, it was my choice to be involved with you all, i DO NOT nor will i EVER blame you for what happened that night, remember you and the rest of the family are first and foremost vampires,
Secondly i am a mere human on top of that i was an accident prone human in a house full of animal drinking vampires who every day and night resit their natural blood source,
Thirdly you are an empath you feel the emotions of every living being around you am i correct?"
"Yes, that is true but..." he replied but i cut him off
"So why have you not said anything about the fact that Edward push me into the piano that was covered in glass plates causing me to cut myself more and cause bloodlust for the rest of the family ... well maybe except Carlisle but then again i was also Edwards singer which more than makes up to Carlisle not having any." i cut in
He just stood there his mouth gaping like a fish i had to stop myself from giggling coz of his facial expression
About 2 minutes pass before I said anything
"Jasper, Jazz?" I waved my hand infront of him to get his attention
"JASPER" I raised my voice louder
He snapped his head to me startled by my raised voice, then his demeanour started to relax and a guilty look slowly crossed his beautiful face
"Sorry darlin" he apologizes in a soft southern accent I've hardly ever heard come from that mouth of his.
"I just can't believe that after how long I've been around….I should've known, remembered even yet it only takes one sentence from you, you of all people that should hate me and my kind for what we did to you, one sentence from you to clear the fog in my head to let me see clearly." He explains to me