It hadn't been easy.
Although she knew he was just down the hall from her it didn't feel like it. It had been very hard the last few nights not to just tell him to forget it and come back.
She never thought her bed would feel so empty. She tried not to look over to the side he slept in; it was kind of strange how quickly she had gotten used to him being there. How warm he felt and how he tended to hold her in sleep.
And how nice it felt, and sort of safe. And maybe even it felt… right.
Her hand rested just next to the pillow on what had become 'his' side of the bed and found something, a shirt. She had found it left there on the first night.
She sighed and held onto it for a moment, before bringing it closer. It had that blaster oil and she still wasn't quite sure what else smell that was just him.
Oh get a grip
The voice had been quiet since she had told Corso to leave, but it seemed to be coming back again.
Leave me alone
But why? You broke the rule.
That was still true.
Why? I'm waiting for an explanation here.
Every time before it was the same.
"Oh but you don't want to see my ship," She sighed, trailing her fingers across his jaw. "It's probably just the same as yours, and not very interesting,"
She grinned, green eyes sparkling, "But, I don't think I can wait that long… the spaceport is quite far away…" Her hand rested on his chest and pulled lightly at his shirt.
She'd push them away from her ship. Some guys went for it easier than others but she would never let them set foot on her Lark… Didn't really matter where she ended up but as long as it wasn't her ship it was fine.
It was her rule, it existed for a reason and she had broken it, not once, several times now.
Why?
She dropped the shirt from her hands.
Of course, when she first met him she had flirted with him, why not? It wasn't as if she was expecting to see him again.
But then her ship had gotten stolen, and everything had gone sideways.
She liked him, sure he was a bit old fashioned, but he seemed pretty genuine. It was refreshing.
And it had been pretty obvious he liked her too, especially after Taris. But he had to go and be a 'gentleman' about it which had annoyed her to no end.
But then, she had found it rather sweet all the same.
She would have said her 'rule' was a trust thing. And well she had found herself trusting him pretty quickly, she knew he had her back and they had been through quite a lot.
But then, she never would have slept with anyone who she didn't think she could trust, so maybe it wasn't that.
All the other times though, there wasn't much more expectation than having a good time, and the guys she had been with were clear on that.
Corso hadn't really wanted that, and maybe she should have just left it at that. But yet…
Maybe she had wanted something more, Maybe she hadn't even realised it at first.
Maybe she had wanted to take a risk, she trusted him enough for one and maybe she even…
Three words were coming to mind.
And she was honestly slightly terrified of them.
She pulled the shirt close again, closed her eyes and breathed in that now familiar, comforting smell.
She needed to talk to someone, she had a pretty good idea on who.