A/N:I couldn't wait any longer I was so giddy to post! I didn't find my flash drive so I went from 171 to 61 pages so I will be posting while writing (my worse fear ever!) I hope you like it a lot there's already plans for a third story which I really excited to write but also sad (you will know why soon) From: LexiTiara To: The Wonderful World this is my holiday present to you:) Get to reading!
Silently Hoping Through Life Chapter 1- No Such Thing as Closer: Part 1
Point of View: Ian Somerhalder
"You've analyzed every part of that letter you know she was crying when she wrote it and you probably have every word memorized," Cody said.
"Well I'm sorry I can't get over the only woman I have ever truly loved." I leaned back in my black office chair trying to find something else to focus on but it didn't work.
"When did Tiara leave?"
"November 9, 2012"
"Exactly its January 12, 2013 it's been two months."
"I don't care."
"Don't talk to me like you talk to everyone else. I see how torn up you are so don't put up that tough guy façade."
"It's not a façade I don't feel like talking about it right now."
"No you do because you are always thinking about her. We need to put an end to this gloomy cloud over you."
"Tiara is not a fucking 'gloomy cloud' she was my everything and still is. Put yourself in my shoes what if Cheynne was the one who left in November?"
"…I know you're hurt man but don't you think it's time to at least try and start to move on? You have broken down every conversation she had that day and not one clue. You won't even go into her office. One day soon, you will have to see how she left everything. We haven't heard from her, Cheynne hasn't heard from her, and neither has the world. It seems like Tiara has dropped off the face of the earth doesn't that show you she doesn't want to be found? If she doesn't want to be found then she won't simple as that."
"She loves me still I know she does if I knew she had moved on then I would've stopped thinking about her. I missed something that day one of those people know where she went or at least a clue. Maybe it's so obvious that my mind keeps skimming over it but I'm not going to stop looking. I narrowed it down before and I will do it again."
Janice opened the door, "Sorry to interrupt Mr. Somerhalder but you have a meeting in five."
"Thank you Janice. We will finish this later Cody."
Point of View: Cody Caldwell
"We can't keep this lie up anymore." I said flopping down on the couch.
"We have to Tiara trusted us and if we deceive her we will never get her back."
"Cheynne one of these days Ian is going to find out that we know where she is and he will release his wrath that he has bottled up."
"Look she is still my best friend I'm not going to ruin it no matter how many miles are between us."
"We have to do something Ian is going to crack one of these days. What if we convince her to come back?"
"That's not going to happen she feels like she did the right thing."
"But that's it! She did the stupid fucked up thing!"
"Tiara did the right thing! We will never see eye to eye on this so whatever."
"What if you go spend time with her for a while?"
"What will you tell Ian? He will automatically assume that it has something to do with Tiara."
"Don't worry I will handle it. Go get packed."
"It's like midnight there."
"I know it is about a nine hour flight so you will make it there before the day starts."
"Are you sure this is the right thing to do babe?"
"Yeah they both need to settle this Ian still loves her and Tiara loves him." I pull Cheynne close and kiss her on the lips, "Now pack!"
I walk in on Ian drink away his sorrows on his staircase. Half the bottle is gone but he still throwing it back like there is no tomorrow. Maybe he is so heartbroken that he feels like there is no tomorrow.
"What are you doing man?"
"Why did she have to leave me?" He asked in a very slurred language.
"If I really knew then I would tell you."
"Did she even love me?"
"That's a dumb question to ask obviously she did."
"I just want her to come back. I want to hold her one last time and kiss her one last time I wouldn't even have to say anything. Is that too much to ask for? Am I crazy for wanting some type of actual break up? I mean who does that? Who leaves a note, their engagement ring, phone, and pretty much all their clothing behind? I've read that fucking paper so many damn times just to have my heart broken all over again. I've sat in bed looking at the ceiling letting the tears run down to my ears. Is this what she wanted did she want to hurt me and show me how she felt when Ashley came over? I want to be over Tiara I really do but I can't I'm addicted to her and the way she left without a proper goodbye is straight up bullshit… bullshit!"
Ian throws the bottle to the wall sending shards of glass all around. He puts his head in his hands with tears streaming down his face.
"I miss Tiara! I miss her voice, I miss seeing her command a room with just her presence, I miss feeling her soft skin on mine, I miss her smile and her laugh, I miss the way she blushed, I miss her flowing dark brown hair and her eyes that could see any hidden secret, I miss everything about her. Cody I need her okay? I need her back I can't go on without her Tiara's memory haunts me everywhere I go. I can't let her walk away fuck that bullshit about if you love something let it go. No, I want her now I can't handle this feeling of guilt and disappointment as if I have lost all hope. Bring her back to me please will you bring Tiara back to me?"
"I'm trying Ian… I'm trying." I have a drunken heartbroken man crying on my shoulder literally begging me to bring back his ex. What else could I have said? He needs the woman that he is madly in love with so that is what I will do. I will hunt Tiara down and bring her back to Covington, Louisiana where she left a lot of unfinished business.
Point of View: Ian Somerhalder
I wake up with a killer headache and get out of bed stumbling fuck I'm hung over again. After doing my morning usual I walk downstairs to the sight of Cody sleeping on the couch. I hit him in the face with a pillow and he instantly wakes up.
"What happened last night? All I know is that I'm hung over so I need to learn how to not drown my sorrows with bourbon like how I've been doing since Tiara left."
"Last night was the fourth time I had found you drunk and in the process of getting even more drunk. You did your usual, spilling your guts, but last night was the worse. You were sitting there crying so much after begging me to bring Tiara back to you."
"Damn well that explains the puffy eyes. Why did you stay over I'm sure Cheynne didn't like that?"
"She went out of town."
"…Where?"
"She didn't tell me."
"Cody you're hiding something from me say it."
"I'm not hiding anything."
"She went to go see Tiara didn't she? You've known where she was the whole time?"
"I don't know anything!"
"Fucking tell me Cody! I know Cheynne left to find Tiara so where did she go?"
"I… don't… know. Cheynne didn't tell me anything all she said was that she was taking a guess on where Tiara would be and that she didn't want to tell me because she didn't want me to put me in the middle so I honestly don't know."
He knows something and I will figure it out.
Point of View: Tiara Green
Moving back to the outskirts of London made me feel a little bit of peace after everything I left behind in Louisiana. Leaving him was probably the hardest thing I had ever done it was even worse than when I left my family behind. I had no feelings towards my family but with him, he owned my heart. Every day was a struggle to keep going and not pick up the phone to dial my ex-fiancé. He is probably already married Ashley and if not by now he has found someone else deserving. Every second without him was filled with regrets, sadness, and negative thoughts. It was even harder out here because I only had one friend to count on.
"Thanks for bringing me dinner I know it's practically morning now."
"No problem hon how are you feeling?"
"The same lonely, sad, stupid."
"You need to stop being so hard on yourself you thought you had did what was the right thing to do. I applauded you for having the strength to walk away from everything."
"It's what I do best Liam."
"Whatever you say. Do you want me to spend the night you seem even more down than usual?"
"Yeah I would appreciate that. Do you think he still thinks about me?"
"Oh course he is probably looking for you right now."
"I don't know if that is a good or bad thing."
"Oh just admit it Tiara you love the man even more than you realized because you see how life is without him. Just talk to him I'm not saying break up whatever he has over there if he has something but just have a heart to heart."
"The whole point of me just running off was so we didn't have to have a heart to heart because if we did then I know I would've stayed."
"And is that such a bad thing?"
"Yes because he has an obligation now to a little boy that looks just like him and his name is Luke Greene probably Luke Somerhalder now."
"How do you even know that he is his father? Everyone guessed that he was the father without a DNA test."
"They were twins there was no way that he wasn't the father."
"I'm tired of seeing you like this you need to be happy. How about I take you to this fancy party in two days? People from all around the world come to party."
"I don't think that is the smartest thing to do since I'm trying to hide from everyone."
"It is a masquerade party this year so you will have on a mask with everyone else. No one will know that you are the famous lawyer or his ex-girlfriend."
"I don't know… I don't even have anything to wear."
"You have no choice now I'm taking you because you need to have a clear mind for at least one night."
Liam Payne was the only person that I would never ask questions to probably because of his sweet attitude.
I wake up slowly and do the usual morning routine. Instead of sticking to my usual breakfast of a bagel with cream cheese, I head out to Starbucks. I wrap up in a coat, jeans, boots, and a snug knit hat. I listen to my iPod as I walk down the snowy sidewalk to the end of the block and into the very warm coffee shop.
"What can I get for you?" Ken, the barista, asked.
"Grande Caramel Macchiato with extra caramel please."
"Simple enough… name?"
"Anastasia."
Ken continued to stare at me, "You look so familiar."
"I get that a lot I think I just have one of those faces."
"Ah yeah that must be it well your coffee will be ready in a second Anastasia."
I nodded, sat down, and began to play various games on my phone.
"What can I get for you?"
"Grande Strawberries and cream frappuccino."
Who orders a frappuccino in the wintertime? There was only one person I remembered doing that ever. I looked up and there she was with her blue eyes watering.
"It's you…."
"Yeah it's me you act as if you have seen a ghost."
"That is how it feels. Even though there are examples of you everywhere, you're not there. Everyone just tries to ignore the obvious Ian-"
The floodgates broke. It had been so long since anyone had said his name and I hadn't said it since the day I had left. Once Cheynne realized her mistake, she pulled me in and hugged me tighter than she ever had before.
"I'm so sorry I wasn't even thinking about it. I've never seen you this vulnerable and sensitive before."
Ken timidly walked over, "Um here are your drinks," he sat them on the table and walked away.
"I hate seeing you like this," Cheynne mumbled more to herself than to me.
I wiped away my tears, "So what's happening in Louisiana?"
"Other than everyone being totally awkward around each other not much."
"You can talk about… him if you want."
"Well that is kind of why I came here. He is going crazy when I got here Cody told me something that happened last night."
"Which was what?"
"Your ex got drunk and he ended up saying everything that was on his mind, started crying, and then begging Cody for you to come back."
I never thought that I would have such a strong impact on Ian. I remembered our first official date, the same night we both said how much we cared about the other, and the same night I had truly lost my virginity to him. "This better be the last time that I wipe away your tears no more crying over me." I hated the thought of him crying again over me he managed to be so beautiful while letting all his walls down. I didn't know what to say other than, "Oh."
"Mhm you don't seem like you're doing all that great either."
"Eh I'm not going to lie and say that I'm okay."
Cheynne shook her head. "This is so sad seeing you two falling apart when all you need to do is talk to each other. Being away from someone is the perfect test to see if you love them. By the way you and him are acting, you're each other's world. I know you cry yourself to sleep probably every night while he does the same, you think about him all the time while he thinks about you, and everything you see, hear, touch, and think reminds you of him when the same thing is happening to him."
"It's too late to turn back. So um how do you feel about going to a masquerade party tomorrow night?"
"You are actually going out?"
"Yeah Liam is forcing me to go but I guess it will be fun more fun if you go with me."
"I miss Liam so much! Sure I'll go but I didn't pack any fancy dresses."
"That's fine I was going to go shopping today. You should bring Cody did he come with you?"
"Nah but I'm sure he will fly out he misses you but he is also pissed at you for breaking his cousin's heart and breaking your own."
"Typical Cody but yeah call him I want to see him."
Cheynne took out her phone and texted Cody as we walked towards her car.
So yes I did break this chapter up into two parts and I will most likely do that with the rest of the chapters. I'm going to post everyday up till Christmas and then I will select a day to post once a week possibly two days a week. Please leave reviews, spread the word, favorite, and give me your two cents I don't mind suggestions. Love you all and Happy Holidays:) ~3