My boyfriend. Butch jojo. ..and...that rat...shirtless rat "Robin" ontop of my boyfriend. Butch looked up.. He looked horrified. "You...you cheater.." Is all I could say as I started bawling and ran down the street. I didn't look back.
"Buttercup wait!" Butch reached out for me. "Get away from me, I trusted you!" I screamed at him.
My boyfriend ...no...he wasn't my boyfriend anymore. He..was...not a part of me anymore.
I slammed my bed room door
You how I said words never get to me...I lied. Butch was all I had..now.. I don't know.
I was violently crying as I looked in the mirror..I lifted up my shirt...butch always made me
Feel skinny even though..I was always felt fat. So now...to me I was...
Suddenly all the words Everyone had called me..where ringing in my head..."fat whore..." Hissed a voice in my mind... "Ugly slut.." Hissed another . "Stupid fat loser dumb!" They all called out to me. "ARRRRGG!" I screamed as I tried to cover my ears as I hid under the covers of my bed and cried.
I started hitting myself under my
Sheets. I cried more.:. "All he said was lies" I. Whispered to myself..I let the tears fall down my face.
I got out from under my covers..and looked at my bed side table:. I slowly walked over to my pencil case and took out a pair of scissors. I held them as I studied them.: still crying..so much..
I stood infront of my full length mirror holding the scissors and looking at my wrists. "You deserve it buttercup..you beilived that jerk for 5 years..." I yelled at myself as I looked at the scissors and started to bring them toward my wrist.